I understand that it is bad news, but there is treatment,
Your case is serious, but it can be treated,
- Okay, but ,,, - Yes?
- I can ask a question? - Of course,
The treatment is ,,,
Will I have to ask for permission?
Go, Not now, but during treatment,
Am I going to take pills?
No, Surgery or radiotherapy, and both have side effects,
Let me know if you want me to slow down,
Surgery would remove the prostate, which would make him sterile,
But radiotherapy too,
Both treatments will affect their erectile function,
This can be partially corrected with training,
but your erections will never be the same,
Incontinence is another side effect, but many do not have,
I recommend surgery, But the final decision is yours,
This happens to many men at some point,
If the patient is elderly, sometimes we do not treat, but you are not,
Process the information,
Do you have any questions? You can ask whatever you want,
No,
Wednesday, August 6
- I can ask a question? - Of course,
- I don't know if he understood well, - And even?
- Didn't you give you that impression? - No,
It is not uncommon for the patient not being able to ,,,
Maybe more than normal,
He had no doubt, But this is not rare,
Next patient?
Please answer, What did she tell you?
They cannot let you go without answers,
- Bjorn Holm, - What are they going to do?
Well, I don't know, But it's not evil, is it?
I don't think so, I didn't quite understand what she said,
- Didn't ask? - I need to ask for permission,
You need to ask until you receive a clear answer,
- Please come with me, - Why?
You need to see a person,
- I'll ask, - It won't, no,
- Yes, - No,
Can you ask both to enter the room?
Hey,
- Hey, - How are you?
Sex / Dreams
/ Love
Dreams / Love Love
All the works we see here tell us something,
I think it is essential that we see the decoration
of the city as a message to the population of Oslo,
With that in mind, you will see that the
whole building radiates human values,
That trim, for example, shows different
constellations of women and children,
On the left, a single woman with a child,
Beside, two women together with a child,
I see how the acceptance of single
mothers and same -sex couples with children,
And an undeniable municipal tribute to homosexuality,
Isn't it wonderful? It's my friend Marianne, by the way,
Join us, We will see other examples on the west wall,
In this country, We love sports achievements,
I love the fact that they chose a sport
that, in a way, supports the feminine side,
It is ice skating,
- Here we see the symbol of Oslo, - Oslo's girl,
Or Oslo's wife, How I prefer to call it,
See how she gets there, just watching and listening,
Looking at her city, I find it very beautiful,
From this side, I want to show two sculptures
that stand out, Nils Flakstad's fisherman,
It represents one of the most important industries in the country,
But remember that the fisherman is an ancient symbol of Christ,
Therefore, I see this work as a loving image of
Christ with the hand blessing all the citizens of Oslo,
In all aspects, Your dreams, worries ,,,
And needs, especially sexual, I want to connect to an image,
It is the only sculpture that explicitly deals with sexuality,
We see a meeting of three people,
A couple on the right, A man alone on the left,
This meeting shows a lot of sexual tension,
There is something between the man on the left and the right woman,
But if they analyze the man on the right,
does his gaze not go towards the other?
And see his hands on the groin,
What it means? Is it a sexual fusion between the three?
A threesome? These things happen,
People have different needs and preferences,
And this, Jesus sees and recognizes as part of creation,
What I find very interesting
is that such a prominent place is dedicated to sexuality,
I find it exciting and attentive,
- But isn't it a little limited? - Like this?
It looks like a niche ,,,
It should be the basis of Oslo's 100th anniversary celebration,
A national celebration, A display and party,
Yes, and we planned many events with this theme in the city,
- It should last days, - Yes, it's a process that we ,,,
What are you imagining, specifically?
It is difficult to budget without knowing what we will work,
We have specific suggestions ,,,
But it won't be one day,
Should include everyone,
Of course, it's for everyone, But who is everyone?
We are not included?
Many female and male niches and various ,,,
Together we are everyone,
See you tomorrow,
- Goodbye, - Goodbye,
- It wasn't very well, - It was, yes,
It wasn't, Can we have a coffee somewhere?
Don't we have to take the ferry?
We just need to be in Nesodden in two hours, Gives time,
- It was your ideas, - Yes, my presentation,
Each one presents his idea, And we decided together,
There is also the consulting firm with a proposal, of course,
But it should be based on concern for people,
Do you think?
- I? You think too, - I? As?
When I signed up for this job, you said,
'Working for the municipality is a chance to help people,
' - I said that? - He said,
- Did you refer to your work? - Perhaps,
'Perhaps',,,
You talk without thinking, Marianne,
'When you speak my name, I get out of joy,
knowing who I am, ' Remember you wrote to me?
You can bet yes,
It is a quote from Ragnar Hovland, Why did you think about it now?
Whatnot, It must be because you said 'Marianne',
Talk more about tonight,
What will happen today is ,,,
I set up a group to solve the details,
There is a composer, an architect,
a choreographer and also ,,,
But what about the geologist? Does he know that I go?
Yes, but of course,
I have a great feeling,
Maybe it's just in my mind, But I think they'll get along,
Let's get along,
And it's a nice environment for you to meet people,
- It won't be so formal, - I get along with a lot of people,
- What? As? - I just ,,,
I lose ,,, It seems much more important to you,
Do you meet someone?
No,
It's not that,
- It's not that, - No?
I don't say I miss having a boyfriend, I speak?
No,
Maybe it's my point of view,
I was so worried about meeting someone,
But you said you were open to know someone,
And I am,
But when you say you worry about not
knowing someone, what is your concern?
I don't know exactly,
You loved being alone,
Is it the security that a relationship brings?
- Perhaps, - I've been thinking a lot about it,
I don't feel insecure in life, Not even you,
No,
I like to be married,
I am simpler than you in this regard,
After 7 or 8 years living there, Did you decide to buy a bedside table?
I had never thought of it, Where can I buy?
At Ikea, Or a used online, What kind do you want?
It must be short and that matches the bed,
- Need two, - No,
You can't have a double bed and a table on one side, It's sad,
Who cares? Sad why?
Buying two is not ,,,
Hi, Do you also go to a party?
- Party? - It's another review,
- A spiritual encounter, - I am going home,
- In Nesodden? I didn't know, - No, I'm in a borrowed cottage,
I'm spending the summer there,
- Heidi, my friend, Tor, my colleague, - Pleasure,
- Have fun, - For sure,
- Do we see each other tomorrow? - Of course, Goodbye,
- Is he a doctor? - Nurse,
- I need a mirror, - I'm going out,
Hey!
You need to worry that people understand what you say,
I spent the day thinking about that patient,
- Glad you noticed, - He reminded me of my father,
- I'm kind of like that, - And even?
It's not wanting to ask not to play a silly role,
- I know, Where are you from? - Hobol, Ostfold County,
- Did you grow up on a farm? - No, but my mother does,
- I know, - But they weren't farmers,
They were ordinary people, My father was from construction,
- And you became a nurse, - So it is,
I never thought it was hobol, or Ostfold,
No? Why am I very beautiful?
- Do you think it's beautiful? - I just played,
But I've heard from people when I leave,
Serious?
'You are too beautiful to be from Ostfold,'
- Do people say that? - No, or yes, it happened a few times,
Maybe it's the dialect, It's hard to take us seriously,
- You can't know it's from there, - No,
I try to hide,
Nor can you notice that we are from Dokka,
- I don't think so, - Where is Dokka?
Near Gjovik, Between GJOVIK and FAGERNES,
- Where is your cottage? - Right there,
- The small red? - Yeah, the first,
- close to the ferry pier, - Yes,
- Goodbye, - Goodbye,
- Wow, is this? - Yeah,
- What a home, He must be rich, - Rich?
- Hey, - Hey,
How was your presentation? Wasn't it today?
- Nothing good, they didn't understand me, - No, it was very well,
I'm sure yes, You made it look amazing,
I was almost jealous of your ideas,
- Hi, Ole Harald, - Marianne,
You are Marianne, Heidi told us about you,
- You are not from ,,, - No, I'm a doctor,
Did you follow? What will serve them?
- Beer, wine, snacks, - A barbecue, He is great,
I won't get into, Let's go, Dad has a meeting,
Let's get in, The others have arrived,
- Let's go home, Come, - No!
We already talked, Dad has a meeting,
- Please? - Let's go, One two three,
Today, the concept of feminism needs to encompass a lot,
Yes, it was diluted to such a point that it lost the meaning,
- Hey, - Glad you came,
- Hey guys, - Ishmael,
- Heidi, Are you the architect? - Hi, Abel,
- Marianne, - Hi, Anna, Nice to see her,
- This is Marianne, - I'm not participating,
So, I heard you talking about feminism,
Are we raining in the wet in this project?
- I don't know, it depends, - It depends on your vision,
My mother called me yesterday, And I talked about it,
I said it was a municipal project,
but it does not identify with feminism,
He says he has nothing to do with her,
She needs home care,
But you don't know how to ask, She turns on, but she's nothing,
So should we celebrate the birthday by
improving public service and internet solutions?
- One thing does not exclude the other, - Of course,
- Are you a civil servant? - I am from the Secretariat of Culture,
And I'm a birthday project leader,
- I'm a historian, - With great doctoral thesis,
- Wow, - I wrote about the history of fashion,
- What theme? - Per spok, Have you heard?
Hi, this is ,,,
Yes, hi,
Right, You want? No?
As I said in the email, this must
be an initial or inspiring meeting,
These are similar words, I heard now,
If we start with the basics, The floor where we stepped ,,,
And as I have a good neighbor who
is a geologist, I started to think about it,
Perhaps this perspective can bring new ideas,
- I don't know if you ,,, - Yes?
I wanted to say some words about
the geological formation of the city,
And so on, If you like the idea,
I suggest that we go to the terrace,
where the view is better, We can see the whole city,
Cool,
- Follow me, - Wonder,
This shirt is beautiful,
- Thanks, - I noticed too,
I am ashamed, It's my most expensive shirt,
There is no railing, Please feel,
I don't want anyone to fall,
- Can I step here? - Of course, no problem,
- We are stepping on who? - In mine,
- Do you sleep here? - I should have changed the sheets,
- No, Why? - No, I just grew up here,
Well, in the old house that was here, This is where my room was,
- It's the boy's room, - Yes, the boy's bed,
- Did you find it exciting? - A little,
- I got excited too, - It's not very wide,
No, but the space gives if you want,
If you want, there is space,
Right,
For starters, I want to say that everything is flowing,
Constantly, Nothing is really fundamental,
But we have historical facts,
'The Cauldron of Oslo' earned that name due to the
hills Nordmark and Ekeberg, that go down to the plain,
doing the shape of a cauldron,
What we call Oslo today is formed by three rocks,
We have the base rock, which consists
of hard types such as gneiss and granite,
This area extends from Ostmark to
Ekeberg and goes down to Bunnefjorden,
Then we have the center,
They are basically Cambrian and Silurian, softer
rocks, such as limestone and slate, Much deposit and clay,
And the upper surroundings, like Nordmark and SorkedAlen,
where there are eruptive species, like washing and basalt,
These are rock species that tend to
rise, as they explained to me in high school,
And it all forms the topography that resembles a cauldron,
It is not up to me to interpret the role of geology in our life,
But I think where we walk, where we put
our feet, as well as what surrounds
us, buildings, flora, everything affects us mentally,
We can understand how the smell of the clothes of
a person who does not wear deodorant or perfume,
We react to that smell,
He has personality and challenges us,
We feel in the body,
In the same way, impacts our soul,
We can go down, Does anyone accept wine?
- Yes, thanks, - or something else?
Right, Let's go down,
Beware of the head,
When the architect said that the mother could not
help, when so much does not work, This celebration is ,,,
It is as if I had not thought right, The focus is another,
It's complicating everything,
One thing being important does not make it another less important,
It always happens, You have a deeply original
idea, which is totally yours, But then the doubts come,
- Ida, no, - Must be exhaustive,
You can't escape mom, Let's go home to read and sleep,
I know you need to think about everything,
You had already brushed your teeth and you were going to sleep,
Let's read a story in bed,
- Let's go, - Hi, Solveig,
- I help you, - I'm cool,
Where's Oda? Are you alone at home?
You are with Geir at home, They are sleeping,
- He comes, - I am fine,
I can't sleep, Let's go home, honey,
- He comes, - She sleeps here, Go,
- But it's my week, - No, it will be like that,
Solveig, let's walk home, I'll get my bag,
- How are you right here? - Yes,
Didn't do anything to them?
- I'm leaving, - How ugly, Ole,
We ate fish tile, don't we?
- And white wine, - Excellent,
I don't like to throw food away,
- Let's go home, go, - Come on, Solveig,
- I will, - I can ask a question?
- Of course, - Mom and Auntie had cancer,
Yes?
Sorry, I just wanted to know ,,,
Sorry, I'm fine,
Do you know of any relationship between cancer and insomnia?
I have never read any conclusive study, Don't worry,
- Let's go, Can you get to the ferry? - Until tomorrow, going, Sleep well,
- Okay, bye, - I send message before Wednesday,
- Beauty, Goodbye, - Until,
- Sorry for that, - Don't sorry,
- Hello, - I wanted to talk more,
- Me too, - Know your story,
Of course, I don't know if I have history, but ,,,
Meet you, I enjoyed talking to you,
Me too, Good,,,
- Bye, and good luck, - Goodbye,
- Hey, - Hey,
- Are you following me? - I ask,
Three times in a day?
Where are you going?
- Walk in the city? - No, I won't walk,
- It's OK, - I'm not going anywhere,
- Did you just decided to get the ferry? - Yes,
I take the ferry, I'm going and come back, I do this sometimes,
How was the party?
The party, well ,,,
Ended up abruptly, It was kind of bizarre,
I was only because Heidi wants me to go out with a neighbor,
He is divorced, and his ex-wife lives in the house next door,
- What a damn, - Don't you do your type?
Yes, no doubt,
Maybe roll, Let's see,
And you, just stay back and ferry?
Yeah, when I get restless
and can't sleep, I take the ferry,
Especially to look ,,,
- To look for men, - It's OK,
- Do you know Grindr? Or Tinder? - Of course, I know the two,
You can see who is online and who is closer,
It's good to be in a closed space, like a ferry,
You can see who is online,
When you see them on the screen, Just look,
They may be right in front of us,
- Is there anyone online today? - Not now,
- But it happens, - Yes, always,
And what do you do?
Sometimes nothing, Maybe an exchange of looks,
- Or let's go to the deck, - And they have sex?
In general, we only talked,
We can mark something,
I really like the emotion,
Exchange looks with someone and find out that it is online,
But have you ever had sex on the Nesodden ferry?
Sometimes, But the trip is so short that it is limited,
And even,
- It's kind of type cruising , - What is that?
I can't imagine?
It is going to certain places for a casual fuck,
There are many places of cruising in squares or woods, where men seek men,
- And they have sex,
Yes,
But that's not all, Here, basically we talk,
Sometimes, in a square, we
sat down and talked after sex,
This post-sex conversation is special,
Because there are people we know nothing about,
Maybe don't know their name, And it will never know,
And being in a neutral place creates this ,,,
- Strange and delicious proximity, - Right,
It turns out to be natural for us to open,
- What is the subject? - Varies, There are all kinds of people,
Some still in the closet,
Others do not consider themselves gay, They just like to have sex with men,
And there are the sad, full of guilt,
They may have escaped family dinners
or children's parties and need to talk,
Some just want to talk about taking over,
- Are you assumed? - I am,
For me, it was easy, But there are some crazy stories,
Parents who cut the contact,
Pure evil,
Today, the guy I should know ,,,
He is not the kind of man I would consider,
Then we went to his terrace, He wanted to show us something,
Outside, I began to feel an overwhelming closeness,
I couldn't control myself, I took his ass,
- And what did he do? - I never did anything like it,
Well, he was surprised, And me too,
- But I think he liked it, - Did you like it?
- I liked, - Cool,
What kind of man is he?
Smart, welcoming and sassy, all together,
And what kind of man excites you?
I can't imagine, It is totally unpredictable,
And you, what excites you?
- A skin type, I think, - Okay,
It is very difficult to explain,
I can excite myself with ,,, sweat,
The skin on the inside of the thighs when it is sweaty,
I know,
Many things excite me,
Will you see him again?
Nesodden's guy? I go,
Or not, I don't know,
I don't know, It is always so complicated,
I wish I had sex with him today, never to see it again,
Isn't you wanting to relationship?
Yes and no,
- Do you have a bedside table? - Cabece table?
Yes, I have two, They are in a warehouse while I'm in the cottage,
Why?
- Are you going down here? - Are you going to follow?
Good luck,
- Thanks, - Goodbye,
Hey,
Is the night being good?
Is the night good?
I was working,
- And go home, to the partner? - No,
I have no partner,
- Why did you work late? - I had a patient,
- I'm a psychologist, - Wow,
It is not? I also think,
Wow,
And how is it?
Now it looks like factory work, assembly line,
Like this?
Like this,,,
To mean,,,
If you have grown with the expectation that
nothing can be painful or challenging, it
will collapse in the first sign of adversity,
For you, having a bad day is not normal,
You think you need treatment,
It seems wrong to say, But I ,,,
Sometimes I want to have them take it a way,
It would be much cheaper,
Right, I saw you on Grindr,
- I'm not interested in ,,, - I can leave,
It is not necessary, It can stay,
Apart from this, you are looking for only sex or relationship?
- Sex? Nothing is 'just sex', - No?
Well, no ,,,
I don't think so, At least for most people,
But you may be someone who has a lot of sex,
Yes, I think so,
- With many partners? - Yes,
- Don't you have a fixed? - No,
- I'm going to sit there, all right? - All good,
I'm fine without a fixed partner,
And how is it?
Fuck today?
Well ,,, Are you making a joke?
- No, - No?
How is it to have sex today?
It's tasty, What do you want to know?
I don't know, Do you feel safe?
Safe? Yes,
But not everyone feels,
Some get so tense that we realize the
difficulty that they have to release
anything, whether semen or emotions,
- But they must have seen a lot of porn, - Don't you recommend it?
Porn? Of course,
At the very least, you can help you find out what you like,
Your taras?
Taras, What is Tara?
Not mainly here?
I don't know, I think most things can be cool,
I can enjoy that several men eat me at the same time,
Or that urinates in me,
Both can be quite exciting,
But when it happens, I don't see it like a tare,
- No? - It's just tasty,
It's cool,
But maybe that's what you call Tara,
No, I ,,,
I don't know,
Isn't it in the mood for anything? Neither sex nor boyfriend?
As if they were opposite?
Most people don't want both?
Many sexual partners and someone who loves them exclusively?
- Isn't that the dilemma? - No need to be,
What a head, I didn't even ask what you do,
Or if you had a nice night, or anything,
Sorry for my rudeness,
It is not usually so selfish, It was kind of yours coming here,
Know that I was grateful, But we are coming,
- I'm going back inside, - Of course,
Goodnight,
What is your name?
- It's Bjorn, - Bjorn,
My name is tor,
I know,
Goodbye, tor,
BYSE, Bjorn,
Am I going to die?
No, you won't die,
Is that ,,,
I don't feel like someone who has cancer ,,,
No,
I understand that it is painful news,
But you came to me early, Came here at the beginning,
- You'll be fine, - Okay,
Keep in mind that the prognosis is excellent,
But you said I need to do treatment,
Let's find the best treatment for you,
Which will be chemotherapy, Radiotherapy or surgery, right?
It is very likely,
I am unable,
I can't do that,
I can't be the baldness of the TV talking openly about it,
But you won't have to do that,
- No one needs to do that, - I'm not like that,
Thursday, August 14
I think he is like this,
Here he says he is a stand-up comedian, Do you know him?
- Yes, Do you think it is hard to have empathy? - No,
I have a lot of empathy for him, But it will be good financially,
Will feel sorry for him on Instagram, He will write books ,,,
In a way, it's good, It can help other people,
It will be another example of how to deal with the disease,
Maybe others feel a failure for not being able to,
- I understood, - Who will know? Are you going to have lunch?
No, I'll take time off, Josef will replace me, It arrived,
- Hey, - Joel just looked for you,
- Joel? - Guys, Asked to return,
Could it have been HELO? Ole Harald Hoel?
I couldn't hear,
- I'll give a quick phone call, - Beauty, I'm going,
- It's OK, Goodbye, - Goodbye,
- Do you know? - Perhaps,
Hi, Are you recognizing me?
- From the ferry, - Ah, it is,
Are you going home?
Any problem?
Let me see,
- Can you breathe? - I don't know what's up,
Can you lift your arm?
It's OK,
- I am fine, - Look at me,
It seems that you have a problem,
Did you receive bad news?
- I am fine, - Are you?
Thanks,
- Hey ,,, - Look, I'm fine,
- He is sure? - Absolute,
'I have an innate love for humanity,
By all humans,
And compassion too,
I was not made to have one man,
It is almost childish to love only a human being,
And I could never be faithful too,
Not for other men,
But because I am graduated by many people, '
What book is this?
It is a diary, Her name is Etty Hillesum,
It was her name, I'm reading the diaries and her letters,
I read the latter coming here, I really liked,
- Do you think it's for me? - I don't know,
I lend you when it is over,
- Are you reading something? - I read scientific literature,
I'm not a fan of fiction,
'Then it happened, Then that, ' - It doesn't seem real to me,
- Yes, but daily is different,
It is unpredictable and consists of past and present things,
It has no retroactive logic,
I read basically about rocks,
I also write about them, More than I read,
- I know, - I sit in that chair,
- And I write, - About rocks,
About rocks, Wrapped in a blanket,
Try it, It is comfortable,
Thanks,
So, this is where you sit with your laptop and write?
Well, I usually write by hand,
Serious?
It has occurred to me that we no longer see the handwriting of people,
Mine is like this,
How about?
It seems austere, Mine is like this,
Thanks, It looks ,,,
Antiquada?
- Why, why ,,, - But I must apologize,
I planned to make dinner for you,
I like to cook,
But nothing came out as planned today,
The dinner was great,
But,,,
Urologist?
Yes, urologist,
I was thinking ,,,
The abdomen, this part of the body ,,,
This is what we consider the most intimate,
It can be a source of pleasure,
But we also associate it with urination, Defec, everything that gives disgust,
Therefore, we associate the shame if the area works or not,
- But ,,, geologist? - Yes,
- Explain, please, - Good,,,
Many study geology to work with oil,
Maybe it was my goal before I started,
Before understanding what the stone is,
- Before you get a fan of stones, - Yes yes?
Today, stones are the most important thing in my life,
And I can ,,,
I hear the stones sing,
If I,,,
And I love to do that,
If I lie on a rock or a lot near the sea ,,,
And press the ear against rock, I hear,
There is no magic involved,
It's just a combination of the physical
sensation of the stone against the skin
and everything I know about the stone,
It is a fusion of knowledge with physical
sensation that gives the impression of pulse,
It's something I can hear, But you can do it too,
You can listen,
Applies to you equally,
When I started my master's degree, a
friend made me a model of Oslo's topography,
That's when I discovered the poetic aspect ,,,
I would love to see this model,
- I still have, - Serious?
Serious,
Yes,
Wow,
- It's very big, - Yeah,
- Cool, right? - Very!
I loved that each species has a color,
You have a sense of your properties,
- What is this? - It's shale,
And this here?
Limestone,
What are you thinking about?
On your skin, I like her very much,
And I love your passion for your profession,
AND? I like other things too,
What I like most in the world is to be with my daughters,
They are the most important thing in my life,
Didn't you say it was the stones? Stones or daughters?
Both, It's not like you needed to choose,
It is the language that deceives us to think so,
What it was?
I'm just listening to you, You will like this book,
Would you like to spend the night here?
Yes, I would love it,
But I don't think I will stay, I think I'm leaving,
- Can I sit here? - Of course,
- Good,,, - Yes?
- Yes,,, - Why are you taking the ferry?
I went to visit a person and I'm coming home,
- Who went to visit? - A friend,
- To have lunch? - Supper,
'Supper in Nesodden?'
It looks like a folk disk,
Candles, harmonica ,,,
- Conspiracy theories, - I like folk music,
Of course, Me too,
And you? Was it working?
I'm renovating a house, I installed floor all day,
Damn,
- It was going to rain today, - Is it bad not to rain?
It's nice to swim when it rains,
When I close the work, I usually go swim,
The people who hired me have a pool,
- Don't you like swimming? - I love it,
What do you do when you are not swimming?
Nothing else,
- I do crucial words, - Cruzed words?
- You too? - No, I read,
OK I understand,
Do you like words that follow yourself in sequence?
- Exactly, - I prefer them more mixed,
- Find meaning in chaos, - Right,
Your bangs are very beautiful,
- Thanks, - I can ,,,
Do you know what we could have done if we had a car?
Up to Paradise Bay to swim and make love,
We could have done that,
We could really,
But there are other places other than paradise Bay,
Are you laughing? Did you find it funny?
I'm happy to have found you, I had never done that,
- Not so spontaneously, And you? - Ah, of course, By the way ,,, yes,
Frequently, In fact, it depends,
My wife is traveling, Went to see the sick father,
It gives me more time to myself,
- Okay, you're married, - Of course, Are you not?
- No, - I imagined we were both,
It's OK,
All good, You look married,
Were you surprised? It looks,
Married and surprised? Maybe a little surprise,
Because you are at Tinder being married,
"Don't you fear your wife finds out?" - She's not on Tinder, right?
"I don't know, but the friends maybe," - No no,
May not believe it, But I love my wife,
We have been married for 20 years, Let's go to you over the weekend,
- Are you from you? - Me and my wife,
Where I grew up, there was 500m between the house and the mailbox,
This messes with us,
I can't imagine the expectation I created when walking there,
- I'm from Dokka, - So you understand,
Your mailbox should stay away too,
- But not 500m, - No, but you understand,
So it also understands that there is no relationship
between the expectations and the life you lead,
But are you not married? No? He is well,
Well, if that's what you say, You know of yourself,
I felt something different about you,
I don't know you, but single women expect something else,
Maybe they don't admit it, but ,,,
I have a friend, and we disagree with this point, but he ,,,
For him, every woman in Tinder is a prostitute,
I've never been with a prostitute,
He yes, before Tinder, But I don't,
For him, Tinder is a free brothel,
In a way, it is, But that's not all,
Because I see many women prostituting themselves,
but they have too high expectations to achieve,
It makes me feel guilty,
And that's why I ,,, no,
For me, if you are married, Expectations are lower,
And that,,,
- I expressed myself bad? - Not at all,
Don't you feel guilty about your wife?
Of course, Too much,
Of course I feel, But it's totally different,
You must find me the biggest scrotum on the planet,
But there is a lot of sex in me,
And me,,,
I really like people, People are ,,,
You look like a nice person, And what we share
It's something totally different
than with someone else,
So I think: 'Why do you have to be wrong?'
Of course my conscience weighs,
I think you spoiled that a little,
- Why? Something I said? - No, I just ,,,
I better go home,
You don't really know me,
But I am ,,,
I'm a nice guy,
I believe it is, You are a nice guy,
For sure, But,,,
Can't you stay a little? It looks so tense,
No, I'm going home,
- Thanks for the night, It was great, - Thanks,
Goodbye,
Sunday, August 17
Monday, August 18
Did he really say that Tinder is a free brothel?
- He said, "Does this make you a prostitute?"
Yes, Or him, I had no other intentions,
I just wanted to have sex,
We wanted the same thing, And that's what happened,
Then he said things that no woman would have said,
But I don't know if this makes him a person bad morally,
Well, he was married,
I might not have slept with him if I knew,
- It really bothers me, - What?
That you stayed with Ole Harald and
then had sex with a stranger on the pier,
But it was not problematic at all,
I was very happy, I felt free, in a way,
Casual proximity to a stranger was pleasant,
He speaks as if he had never had casual sex, but has done it,
Perhaps it was the situation, The meeting on the ferry,
It was much more without commitment than a meeting,
It's not like an appointment for Tinder, or
sitting in a bar, which looks more like a transaction,
No, it was a free space, We were on an equal footing,
- Am I boring you? - No, but you need to use ,,,
Put in the ear, Because it is already ,,,
- Hey, - Hi, I checked the halls,
They are beautiful, but it would be more beautiful to do here,
With a sound system, they will have the experience in the whole city,
- Was the project approved? - No,
- It looks like it will be overthrown, - Why? When?
Early today, I was going to tell you, But you told about the fuck,
But we want to do something, A number here, A show filmed,
It would be really cool,
We will see if the budget covers,
It is not yet decided,
Now there is a lot of interest in a project
involving an exhibition of artists during World War II,
Parisian art,
I'll talk to the carrilhons and I'll be back,
I worked so much on that, It gave me so much energy,
Now I have to work with Knausgard and World War II,
I feel terrible, dry inside, I just want to drop everything,
You can't quit everything,
I am also upset about what you are doing,
I don't stop thinking, Marianne,
You stayed with the geologist and went to sex with the carpenter,
- You, so responsible, - Do you think this irresponsible?
- I don't know, - I don't think,
My morale is very rigid,
Just not about sex, but with how we treat ourselves,
That's exactly what you said so well on the city tour,
You spoke of freedom, of sexual freedom,
Yes, and much comes from you,
It was all about you, Of course you realized,
- You do things I would never do, - But would you like to have done?
I don't know,
I think I feel threatened, in a way,
Your freedom, Your transgressive behavior,
What does this do about me?
A boring, shy, Submissive and afraid to live?
- Not that, Heidi, - Deep down, I know that,
But when I talk to you, It makes me think like that,
It does not mean that my life is tedious, even
though I do not sleep with random carpenters,
Sleeping with him doesn't make me free, Not my wonderful life,
Sex doesn't even interest me so much,
It just happened, And I liked it a lot,
Okay, but then it complicates my side, Because Ole Harald is my friend,
I found him on the ferry,
He liked it a lot and is crazy to call you,
Serious? It is very good to know,
Heidi, I like him very much, He is wonderful,
- So, will you see you again? - Maybe, who knows?
But it seems that we will not be a couple,
He said the daughters were the most important thing to him,
- Do you want to be more important? - Of course,
I only realized how complicated this is,
Daughters should be the most important thing for him,
But they may not think so if someone else comes into your life,
- You can't think so, - I'm the daughter of divorced parents,
Not thinking about daughters would be selfishness,
If I date Ole Harald, I must get involved in his life,
If you get involved in someone's life isn't it good? They will worship you,
Maybe, but ,,,
Involving me means taking responsibility,
And that family has problems,
Two unsafe daughters and a neighboring ex-wife who drinks,
Do you think Solveig has a problem with drink?
- I think, - I don't think so,
It was a typical alcoholic behavior, Remembered my father,
If you see all this, The unsafe daughters and ,,,
- It's not exactly when ,,, - Should I get involved? No,
It is not for me, The responsible step is to move me away,
This is cynicism, Marianne,
- Involving me is more cynicism, - No no!
I think, from heart, that you are wrong,
If I get involved, it will be with Solveig, which is the one who needs it most,
Friday, August 22
Do you see the surgery schedule?
- I can ask a question? - He can,
Can I go to the wing to hi a newly operated patient?
Is it an acquaintance? Been here?
He was, but ,,,
- I say, linked to you, - No, not here,
And I don't know him, like ,,,
I met him on the ferry,
First on Grindr, then on the deck,
We just talked, And he gave me a kiss on the cheek,
But that was all, And he knows that I work here,
Okay, I don't know what to say,
- Why? Are you interested? - No,
- No?
I just want to see if he's okay, Kindness only,
But if he interprets badly ,,,
Do you think it is cool to accept an invitation to
dinner of a guy I don't want to get involved with?
As long as it does not give the wrong impression,
- Oh, just say yes it would pass, - Exactly,
Good,,,
- Visit as on duty, - Okay,
Hi, Carina, I will only see a patient,
You can go,
Hi, I'll just take a look at your neighbor,
- Hey, - Hey,
I just came to see how it was,
I don't think my charger,
Is this here?
One's own, Can you connect to me?
- Thanks, - I'll leave it here,
I knew you operated yesterday and that everything went well,
Well, the prostate was already,
- I hope you took everything, - I hope so,
How did you know I was here?
I work here, I saw in the surgery schedule,
- You don't know my name, - It was not difficult to find out,
I know it's called Bjorn and I found it after the consultation,
I thought about you so much after our last meeting,
- I shouldn't have left him there, - Don't think about it,
- I saw as I was distressed, - I wanted to be alone,
- I understand, - Yes,
But good that you had the surgery early on,
- Yeah, wonderful, - How do you feel?
Not bad, only very swollen,
Yes, It's the worst part,
This is because it inflates your abdomen for surgery,
Need to walk, Released gases,
- That's what they said, - Want to walk a little?
- Now? - Of course, I can walk with you,
- Look, it's not ,,, - Let's go,
- I can't get up, - I help, Is this yours?
Yeah, but ,,,
- Let's go, - Watch out for that,
Thanks,
- The other, - Ready,
- Hold here, please,
Of course, The wheels are locked,
- Like this, Ready? - Yes,
OK,
- A little more, - I want to go back,
- It's OK? - It's OK,
Ready, You went well,
I don't know, no,
- When will it be discharged? - The day after tomorrow, I think,
- It shouldn't be, - It is probably,
It will improve very fast,
- Do you think? - I think,
I was thinking ,,,
Is there anyone to help you with shopping and things like that?
You should avoid taking weight for a few weeks,
- I have friends, - Of course,
- A friend will help me, - All good,
And what is your phone?
It is 90-25-22-13
You don't need ,,,
- Now there's mine too, - It's OK,
If you need help with purchases or whatever,
You can call me, In truth,
After all, we both live in Nesodden,
If you lived in Sarpsborg, I wouldn't even offer,
- Walk to release gases, - I'll strive,
- Thank you very much, - Nothing,
It was very kind to see how I am,
Offer help and everything else,
Bye, Bjorn,
- Go to Nesodden, home? - I go,
It's my plan, Maybe a coffee on the way,
Or a beer before the ferry,
There is no idea of your luck,
It seems sensational just because we can't,
Just sit somewhere and have coffee,
Observe the people,
Who are you really?
Tor :)
Won't work With a psychologist,
I think I will accept Your offer,
GREAT :)
Monday, August 25
- Did you see Elvestad? - The patient is already there,
Excuse me,
I had agreed with Egil, I find that strange,
We had dinner this week and he said, By the way, promised ,,,
- The Lord was sent to me, - Submitted?
I can check if you want,
- See Soyland? - Aren't you in the operating room?
I thought yes, but this patient had time marked with him,
There must have been a mistake, This is very bad,
- Can't you double it? - In surgery, no,
- But I have the result of the exam, - No, Just with Egil,
Maybe you can make it,
- I'll see if you're in surgery, - Excellent,
The surgery would be done in Hamburg,
- It's the best clinic there is, - You must know,
- Except for Copenhagen, - They are also great,
But speaking to Hamburg, I said I knew Egil,
They: 'Why come to Hamburg? One of the best is in Norway, '
The funny thing is that Egil's uncle, Hakon Soyland treated my father,
But it was not the same disease, He was a cardiac surgeon,
And his cottage was next to my parents in mysuseter,
- Look, what a coincidence, - It is not?
Egil is a spectacular surgeon, of course,
He has ended now and will come down, They delayed a little,
He will go down in ten minutes,
Thanks,
- Sverre's father lived until 105, - It's already died,
Died in this spring, but agile and lucid to the end,
- And truth, - Few have that luck,
- Yes, and the brother is still alive, - Not my brother, my uncle,
Yeah, his uncle, Well, he's gay, but ,,,
It is a shame, Because there are no heirs,
He is very well, We live a lot in this family,
- Yeah, - We live, yes,
105? There are people so unpleasant that you want to bathe later,
Did you feel offended?
She is afraid of losing her partner, like everyone else,
- Didn't you get offended? "Why didn't you want me to answer him?
Egil speaks their language, I understand them well,
Another thing, Did you visit your friend from Grindr?
Yes, I passed there today,
I offered help with the market,
Do you understand that you are going through the limit?
You can not offer care to those who know on Grindr,
It's not my account, But it is worth it too,
I can't give special treatment just because someone is neighboring,
- No, - And another thing,
If it was a girl from Tinder, I would say not on time,
But now I don't say, which is confused for me,
It's because you two are men and I stay ,,,
But this is a vulnerable patient,
No,,,
I'm not giving it on him,
- I'm not interested, - It's not my account,
And I'm not giving the wrong impression,
I just think helping someone to make a market is acceptable,
No, you're right,
- Of course it has, But listen, - What?
I was thinking and I need to speak, Another subject,
It has nothing to do with Grindr, But I always think about it,
We attend many gay patients,
For sure, my radar is better than yours,
I realize on time, And what I see is ,,,
I know the consequence of this diagnosis
to them, and that you never tell them,
It speaks of erectile dysfunction and sterility, but
does not speak of how to remove the prostate affects sex,
They do not only lose the erection, They lose ,,,
In anal sex, if someone takes me from behind, being very
clear, he presses the cock in my prostate, and that's pleasant,
It is a very important part of pleasure that ,,,
That is lost without the prostate,
And that alone ,,,
I think I feel more compassion for gay people than for others,
I know what it means in practice,
It is a double loss,
It never crossed my mind, I'm sorry,
All good,
- And there is no relationship ,,, - No no,
I thought so much about it that I had to talk,
Glad you told me, Thanks,
Given message,
Tuesday, August 26 my friend was going
to help me, But it will take the dog to the vet,
- What was going to the market for you? - She goes tomorrow,
- There will be no food for today, - All good,
I take you home and go to the market for you,
- No, you don't have to, - Okay, really,
- Is your catheter right? - It bothers a lot,
- Are you tight? - It's there,
Hey,,,
It is not full,
Have you taught you to drain?
- And you will buy diapers, - I go,
- Did you get a recipe? - All, Of Viagra,
- It's to help recover erections, - I know,
- Were you upset to hear that? - I would say yes,
They have good intentions,
Glad they talked about it, It is important,
You need to go to your pace,
We better go,
Our focus is the recovery of patients,
We do not have the ability to deal
with the sadness they feel after surgery,
The fact that someone has invaded his body
and removed or fixed something seems
,,, Well, not a violation, but perhaps an invasion,
You wake up and your body is different,
Some have the feeling of loss,
We cannot change that, but it should
be acknowledged that some feel sad,
This sadness needs time to heal or transform,
- Transform? - Yes,
I don't know, but I learned that the body is a battlefield,
We benefit if we take it seriously, if
we have calm and not fight against,
Not only is it for the disease, But for sexuality too,
My first wife had cancer,
It was before we met,
How many times have been married?
Two,
Never thought about getting married and having children?
No,
I would marry again,
Why do you think it would work the third time?
- We thought that in love, "But you've seen that it changes,
" I do not understand this need to marry,
If there is love, and people want to be together, isn't it enough?
- The vote has something special, "And you broke
it twice, but are you willing to do for the third time?
" Marriage begins with a big lie,
And a lie is an unstable basis on which to build,
It makes marriage a production line,
and the main purpose is to have children,
- Is your vision? - Yeah,
It's basically that,
It starts as a joint project, But it ends up falling for children to
take over the project when parents no longer want to invest in it,
They can separate and redo their lives, but
their children get stuck in marriage forever,
- Sorry, - You have no popes on your tongue,
My conscience weighs, but everything is fine,
It's how I always feel,
Do you feel that way?
Yes, always,
So, should I never ask you to marry me?
All good, I will never ask,
Thanks,
I promise, but ,,,
It's okay if I say ,,,
What am I in love with?
Yes, you can say that,
Are you always so kind?
Always,
Life is too short, you know?
Bjorn, needs to empty the probe,
You're right,
- Do you need help? - No,
Oh, no ,,,
I will find a way, Please do not enter,
- Look, I can ,,, - It can leave,
- Is there a bucket? - In the kitchen,
- Under the bench, - He is well,
- Who are in the photos? - Dag Hammarskjold took this one,
- It was good, - I find it moving,
The other is palme,
Subtle homoerotism,
- It didn't sleep much in the hospital, - No,
I don't sleep well since surgery, I spend the night thinking,
What?
In everything, That made nothing sense,
- No sense? - Do you think you didn't do it?
It's horrible to say that, But I'm noticing,
On the morning of surgery, I heard the news on the radio,
They said there will soon be a vaccine against HIV,
Ah, is it?
The pandemic gave them the opportunity to test MRNA technology,
I knew, Isn't it amazing?
Of course, but every day ,,,
'Irony of Destiny', It's how they say, isn't it?
Right after I assume myself, In the summer of 1986 ,,,
I wasn't even born,
- Serious? - Yeah,
Soon after, I saw a documentary about AIDS,
It looked like horror movie!
It was the speech at the time,
AIDS was a terrible and fatal disease, especially from gays,
I felt it was a punishment because I took over,
That I deserved that,
It changed everything to me, I was very afraid,
If I had sex and fell on my skin, I would be terrified,
Imagine sleeping with someone who didn't want to use condoms,
I couldn't insist, And I didn't like to use it either,
I was crazy later and ran to take an exam,
I sat in the clinic room, feeling dirty and shame,
And in the three months they took to
have the result, I was paralyzed with anxiety,
I alternated between fear of dying
and how I would tell you close people,
I was awakening thinking about my parents and
brothers, how they would have to tell people I had HIV,
Until frustration and stress were so serious
that the best seemed to stop having sex,
Stop for good,
I save me from anxiety,
But the medicines came up, It is no longer a death sentence,
But fear still exists,
Contract a disease that needs medicine the rest of your life,
And you don't know what you will do with your body, side effects,
And prep? Why didn't you try?
I really should, Today I know,
But when it arrived, It looked like it was late,
I don't know, It's that I'm so ,,, off,
But it's on Grindr,
- Just to look, I don't do anything, - It's OK,
Nothing else in me would excite people,
When they said they would need to operate, And Soyland spoke
that I would probably no longer have erection,
It was the smallest of the problems for me,
But that day, on the way to surgery and impotence,
or at least sterility, Never ejaculate again ,,,
Precisely that day I was told
that a vaccine for the HIV was near,
It seems that I closed the cycle,
I thought about what I told me when we met,
That people should take it,
I don't say you, but try to avoid getting sorry for yourself,
You still have a lot ahead,
Come to bed,
Right,
- It achieves? - Yes,
Thanks,
- What are you doing? - I'm going to lie with you,
- Why? - Because it made me want to,
I won't do anything, I just want to lie beside you,
- Don't make a pity, - No, I want to be with you,
Think about it as something good,
A painkiller, To both of us,
I'm serious,
Try to relax,
Wednesday, August 27
I'm going to work,
- How do you feel today? - Nothing bad,
It is good, But it has to empty soon,
What it was?
- It will be weird now, - What?
Don't feel obliged to come back just because you slept here with me,
Bjorn, Bjorn, Bjorn, Bjorn,
You need to believe more in people,
Goodbye,
Hi, Ida,
Hey,
- Have you been out here for a long time? - I entered, but they were sleeping,
- I was going to stay at Mom this week, - I don't want to stay there,
I understand, but ,,,
Enter, let's have breakfast together,
I will only say goodbye to Marianne,
- Sorry, - No, I apologize,
Ida sitting on the porch from an early age, Afraid of getting
home because I'm in bed where she will seek comfort, It's wrong!
Let's solve this, I'll talk to Solveig,
Do you know what I think would have been better?
If we had known each other at the ferry one night,
By chance, Do you think it is possible?
- Hey, - Hey!
- Are you sitting there? - I am,
- Ah, that's where you live, - Were you at Ole's house?
- He was, - I told you not to go there,
- Sorry if she bothered, - No, don't sorry,
No, Did you wake up early?
- I'm going to work, - Right,
- So, I really had to go, - Yes,
- Also woke up early, - I woke up at 3am,
- Our, - Yeah ,,,
Do you accept a coffee? Keep me company,
- Just a little bit, - Okay,
Excellent, Come,
A pillow? Thanks,
Here it is,
- From 3am, Do you have insomnia? - Many,
It's been years, I did tests,
They say ,,,
Sleeping little shorts life, It is exhaustive to think about it,
- I understand, - You are lying down, thinking:
'My life is getting shorter,'
I don't know why they say that, It doesn't help at all,
No,
And I think many agree,
Are you socialist?
I am, I think so,
You are a music teacher, How do you not sleep well?
I am a musical therapist,
But I'm unemployed,
It's hard to get a job here, I thought about going back to Oslo,
I saw a vacancy in Bergen,
But Ole and I agreed to live near because of the girls,
But I don't know if it's good, you know?
Sometimes I think having to live here ,,,
I rent the first floor,
I'm sitting here, for girls to run here to Ole,
Sometimes it seems punishment,
Don't you have a husband, children, etc,?
- No, - No,
It looks so calm,
When I met you, I found you so stable,
No,,,
I don't feel that way,
- I'm starting to cry, - I'm sorry,
Okay, it's just ,,,
It seems that I always find a barrier,
Always trying to find my way,
- Sorry if I said something wrong, - Didn't speak,
I see no problem feeling that way,
This is how it has to be,
I am really sorry,
There is no need,
Sometimes you feel dead?
In a situation, in your personality or expectation?
Totally dead end, thinking:
- 'How did I end up?' - Of course, often,
But,,,
- Listen, - Yes?
Even if everything seems impossible and you get discouraged,
Never stop believing that there is a way out,
- Just bear? - Yes,
'Just like your days, Your strength should last too, '
- Heidi? - That's what Heidi says,
I need to go, or I'll be late,
Why didn't me, you and Heidi come out a day?
- It would be really good, - Go to Oslo with Heidi and ,,,
- Yes, - We can go out to eat,
I don't want to ruin things between you and Ole,
- Don't worry about that, - Yeah?
- Heidi can give you my number, - Heidi, I call you or ,,,
- I need to go, - Of course, I'll talk to her,
- Thanks for the company, - Thanks for the coffee,
- I loved talking, Until later! - Me too, Goodbye!
- Hey! - Are you going from ferry to work now?
- No, - No?
Spent the night at the so -and -so?
- Yes, - Is everything going well?
- Yes, - You look happy,
- I'm excited to go to work, - It's OK,
No, I'm very happy,
It looks like I'm thinking clearly,
How wonderful,
- You look happy too, - Ah, is it?
I am, I'm also excited to go to work,
- Hey, - Hey,
So soon?
I will find Anna and the musicians,
Did you sleep at Ole Harald's house?
How is the project? Have you decided on the celebration?
Yes,
It's OK,
I had a horrible meeting yesterday,
But it turned out that everything is coming out as I wanted,
- Wow! - Not as you think,
I realized how stupidity is to spend so much on a party,
I convinced them to spend improving people's access to the board,
To get help simply,
There will be a small event on the terrace, as Anna suggested,
We made a song for an artist to interpret
and represent the 'Girl of Oslo', It's a Cantata,
We are rehearsing now,
It is much simpler and more significant,
Now don't you want to drop everything anymore?
They were my plans,
Think about what you have achieved with it, Heidi,
Cannot give up, You have great ideas,
The city needs people like you,
It is unprecedented, 'The city needs you,' - Also you need you,
- And you, no?
From me? Of course, The city is me,
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