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We\'re lying there face to face, Petting each other like high school kids,
One thing seems perfectly plain to me:
you slept with my patient,
He doesn\'t belong to you, He\'s a great guy,
A little insecure in bed maybe, But
I think I\'m gonna have a tremendous affair with him,
Are you saying that when I was fucking Alex, I was actually fucking you?
It seems more like, "look what you missed out on, Paul, You
coward, You idiot,"
Paul, If there\'s one thing I\'ve put right out there without hinting
or manipulation it\'s that I\'ve wanted you,
There\'s more intimacy between us than most couples in the world,
Isn\'t that right?
I don\'t deny that there\'s a certain intimacy,
Is there intimacy here or not?
Yes,
There is,
I\'m sorry,
Laura, I think that
we need to discuss in a little greater detail
your ending therapy,
We\'re not stopping yet, But in order to do it gradually,
We have to create what we call
a timeline,
No timeline,
We\'re finishing today,
Yeah, Today, This is our last session,
Good,
Feels good,
Resolved, I guess,
I was a little nervous about telling you but now that that\'s over, I feel better,
Relieved,
Maybe a little tired,
And
and sad, How about you?
How do you feel?
I\'m sorry, Is that not okay for me to ask?
- No, It\'s perfectly okay, - Good, So
tell me,
Well,
To be honest, It\'s come as a bit of a shock,
Shock, Well, Okay, What else?
Well, I feel sad, Too,
Right,
Yes, I do, You don\'t believe me?
- It just doesn\'t look that way, - It looks like you\'re
holding back this huge sigh of relief,
This
huge gulp of air trapped in your lungs,
See, I\'m trained to see that stuff, Remember?
Monitoring respiration, That\'s anesthesiology 101,
Go ahead, Let it go,
Exhale,
No?
Well
maybe I\'m a lousy Doctor,
So how\'s your week been?
Don\'t ask me about my week, It was terrible,
How terrible?
I was in surgery on friday and
this 15-year-old girl, She
she had this tumor on her cheek,
It was nothing, Benign,
Cosmetic,
And everything\'s going great,
Right? Nothing wrong with the anesthetic,
And my attending gets called away to consult on a procedure
and the surgery ended faster than normal,
It was simple,
And I\'m left with her still anesthetized,
So I called to ask what to do,
I\'d never been in that situation before with a patient who\'s never woken up,
And they told me to
take her into the recovery room,
She was still intubated,
And the attending was supposed to remove the tube
when she wakes up,
She was a sweet girl, Pretty,
Michelle was her name,
Before the op, I was talking to her mom who told me that she\'d Been
asking for this operation since she was 9,
They recommended that she put it off for a while,
And how she wasn\'t afraid,
Just wanted this thing gone,
This Fatty Lump off her Pretty face,
And then suddenly, She wasn\'t breathing, I don\'t know what happened, Paul,
I took her into recovery and two minutes later she was blue, I mean,
Atcheson, He\'s the
senior attending, He pushed me aside and pounced on her
with chest compressions, I had no idea what went wrong, Paul,
They extubated her, And she was breathing, Everything was fine,
It was okay,
How did you feel during those
few minutes when the
fantastic, Never better,
I felt
like shit,
I only look competent, Paul, You know,
White coat, Stethoscope, Pen in pocket,
I\'m like those Doctors from the pharmaceutical ads, You know, Like,
Hand on hip,
Brow a little furrowed with concern,
Nice smile, I have a pretty smile, Right?
Do,,,
Do you expect that nothing will ever go wrong with a patient?
I dropped the ball,
But is that what the
attending concluded?
I mean, Couldn\'t it have been something else, Like,
I don\'t know an allergic reaction,
- A drop in blood, - It\'s always my responsibility, Paul,
Tell me a little bit more about that, About that girl,
She had braces,
And through her surgical cap, You could see,
What do they call it?
The barrettes, Little butterflies pinning back her bangs,
They were old,
Must have her mother\'s or
from a thrift store or something,
And she had these beautiful hands,
Gorgeous hands, I mean, She\'s just a girl,
And she had these hands of a woman,
Very long fingers, Pretty little nails,
Shit, When I was her age I used to eat my nails,
I mean, They were ugly and stubby and short,
- Nerves, I guess, - Why were you nervous?
Well, It was,
You know, Around the time that my mother passed away, So,,,
And whose responsibility were you then?
What do you mean?
Well, Who was taking care of you?
You mean who was watching my sleep?
Yeah,
I wasn\'t that girl on the operating table, Paul,
No, It\'s just that you told me that when your mother died, That it was like
a kind of a death for you too,
Yeah, But you know what?
Shit happens,
Life isn\'t fair, What are you going to do, Sue god?
Well, Who would you sue?
You,
No, Suing you wouldn\'t do me any good, Either,
That\'s my problem with psychology, Paul,
You dig and you dig and you uncover all sorts of truths about yourself,
And you touch on all sorts of painful places, But what good does it do, Paul?
I\'m serious, I\'m not being cynical, What good does it do me today
to know how much I suffered then?
I\'m sick of feeling sorry for myself,
I fucking hate feeling sorry for myself, That\'s one of the things I hate,
What else do you hate?
There\'s a long list,
Well, For example,
- Omelets, - Omelets,
Omelets and all sort of eggs, But mostly omelets,
That\'s was the thing my father and I ate
the entire year after my mother passed away,
I still have flashbacks, But from behind, You know?
I\'m standing at the stove and I\'m,
I\'m breaking eggs into a frying pan, Everything\'s very quiet, No talking,
My dad\'s just sitting there
reading the news paper or something and I\'m just
beating the eggs with a fork,
Sometimes he wouldn\'t even be reading the newspaper, He would just be
sitting there with a vacant look, In a daze,
I used to,
I\'d fantasize that he\'d disappear,
Such a terrible thing to say, It\'s not that I wanted him to die,
I just didn\'t want to continue living like that,
Everything was so bleak, So suffocating, I just didn\'t want to be there,
So then,,,
Then you went to California,
- Yeah, - So you stayed there for a while,
How was it coming back home after spending that
time with David and Celia?
Well, You know, You have plans,
Full of beans,
I thought, "Shit, I can make him feel better, I can,"
But I couldn\'t,
That house was like a black hole that just
sucked me in,
Anyway, I,
I saw David again six months later,
He came to the DC area to try some big case,
He was stayed for a while, A few months,
I thought you said you never saw him again,
I never saw them again, But I saw him,
He used to have a room at the Hay-Adams,
But occasionally, He\'d stay over at our house,
He didn\'t have a car, So when it got late he\'d stay,
He always offered to take a cab back into town,
But my dad refused since he was
so hospitable to me during the summer,
I mean, He was lonely,
But he wasn\'t the same David, You know,
With the Ray-Bans and the sunblock and the surfboard,
He was this lawyer guy with
a three-piece suit, An expensive haircut
and a middle-aged pot belly,
Not that there\'s anything wrong with a pot belly,
Anyway, He came to our house
for dinner the first night he was in town,
My brother Oliver was away at college,
So it was just the three of us, One big happy family,
My dad, David and I,
What was that like, Sitting there with
these extremes, Your father on one side and,,,
Nick Nolte with a pot belly sitting on the other side?
- What was that like? - At first,
Self-conscious, I guess,
You know how you always feel more like a kid
when your parents are around? That happened,
I remember slurping up spaghetti,
Trying really hard not to let the noodles drip down my chin,
Later, I guess, I wasn\'t as self-conscious,
Why?
Later, After David and I made love,
I seduced him,
Have you read Lolita?
Sure,
It\'s amazing, Because pretty much the same thing happened to me,
That night when he came over for dinner, My dad was still at work,
So we sat on the porch
and caught up,
I was painting my toenails,
And it became pretty clear that he and Celia were having problems,
He said just as much, Which is why she hadn\'t joined him on the trip,
So we were just sitting on the porch swing,
I was on one side, He was on the other,
And I was resting my
legs on his to dry my nails,
And he was just asking about me,
What was going on with me, I started telling him about
the Red Hot Chili Peppers,
God, I was so into them,
When you\'re writing down the lyrics
and analyzing them,
And I started singing at the top of my lungs,
And David joined in, We were so bad,
I mean, We were screaming it,
And then I felt his hardness
under my foot,
And we we\'re just rocking in the swing,
The rhythm of it starts to take over,
And I\'m just rubbing him with my foot,
Although I\'ve never done that before in my life, Never,
I had on this little skirt with these little flowers,
And he pushed up my skirt with his finger,
And his finger just started
climbing further and further up my thigh,
Then we see my father\'s Volvo coming down the street,
So we ran over to help him
with the groceries, And I remember laughing so hard
because David was carrying his bag of groceries in front of his hard-on,
We were just cracking up like teenagers,
He stayed over that night in Oliver\'s room,
Around 1:00 in the morning, I got up \'cause I couldn\'t sleep,
I walked down
the corridor in the house, Oliver\'s room was at the back of the house,
And I saw his light on,
The door was open, And he was waiting for me,
And we made love, It was lovely,
During the two months he was in town,
We made love almost every day, Mostly in the mornings
when my dad went to work, But occasionally,
If he didn\'t have to be in court until the afternoon,
I\'d play hooky,
Sometimes I\'d go to his fancy hotel,
I felt very important and grown-up
walking through that lobby in my mother\'s high heels,
Did you ever feel that this man,,,
That David was taking advantage of you?
He wasn\'t taking advantage of me, I\'m telling you, I seduced him,
Lolita seduces Humbert in the novel and she\'s only 12,
You disapprove, Obviously,
Yes, I do,
What\'s the matter? You\'re making a judgment on me,
You\'re allowing yourself to stray from the rules,
Gosh, It\'s too bad you weren\'t like this before,
- Willing to say what\'s on your mind, - You never told me this before,
It\'s our last session so I thought it was only right you to tell you,
Remember I told you that the guy from debate society was my first?
David was my first,
And I\'m sorry,
What are you sorry for?
For lying to you,
I wasn\'t a victim, Don\'t look at me like that,
- I wasn\'t a victim, - Really?
I got into his bed,
He was a 40-year-old man, For Christ\'s sake,
He had a responsibility to send you away,
He was very gentle,
Gentle or not, It is beside the point, He was 40 years,
He had a moral responsibility, He should have known better,
Let me ask you something,
Do you feel,,,
Do you feel any anger towards this man?
It\'s not such a big deal,
He didn\'t hurt me, It didn\'t hurt at all,
- It wasn\'t rape, - Where was your father
during all this?
He was asleep in the next room,
But during the two months that David was
visiting, Your father had no idea what was going on?
He was depressed and grieving,
It hadn\'t even been a year since my mother passed away,
He needed someone to protect him, And guess who?
I understand that,
But children aren\'t supposed to take care of their parents,
It\'s a burden that no child deserves,
Do you feel any anger towards your father
for not being there to protect you,
For not noticing?
No resentment?
Let\'s just say you could talk to your father now,
What would you say to him?
I have nothing to say to him,
But just imagine for a moment if you were face to face
and you were
talking about this incident,
What do you think you might say to him?
Have you ever spoken to your father in that way?
I wish I could,
Because you can\'t talk to your father, You\'re asking me to talk to mine?
That\'s not what I\'m saying,
I think it\'s important
that you talk to your father about this
while it\'s still possible, Not for his sake,
But for yours,
Can I have something to drink other than water?
Do you have any soda?
So this is the famous coffee machine, Huh?
Alex\'s famous coffee machine, Yeah,
How do you use it?
Excuse me,
He\'s such a coffee freak,,,
It\'s the best smell, Don\'t you think?
You know that this thing with me and Alex is over,
I ended it,
Are you relieved?
Jesus, Look at you,
How can you live like this?
Can\'t you just say or do something on impulse?
You know that I connected that girl to the wrong tube,
I inflated her like a balloon,
And I almost killed her, And you know why?
Because I was thinking about you,
And I realized what an insane effect you\'re having on me,
It has to stop,
We can continue to talk about this if you want,
All of a sudden you\'re very generous with your time,
For months I spent the week thinking,
"It\'ll be this Monday,"
"I\'ll tell him that I love him, He\'ll tell me he loves me,"
"and the session won\'t be 50 minutes, It\'ll go forever,"
But then Monday would come and I wouldn\'t dare say anything,
And the session would end, I would just walk out of here thinking,
"Fuck!"
"I didn\'t say anything again,"
"Now I have to wait a whole other week for my life to begin,"
I can\'t continue,
Every minute here is tearing me apart,