رسانه اینترنتی مای موویز MyMoviz جامعترین سایت فیلم و سریال
(ambient electronic music)
رسانه اینترنتی مای موویز MyMoviz جامعترین سایت فیلم و سریال
(Jenny sighs)
- [Jenny] Where do I begin?
My father would say, "Start with history,"
But do you start at the beginning of time
or just current events?
Anywhere in the world, or just at home?
- Our nation is the enduring dream
of every immigrant who ever set foot on these shores
and the millions still struggling to be free,
(crowd cheering)
- This is a great contest between hope and fear,
This is a contest between unity and division,
a contest between the courage to change
and the comfort of the status quo,
- We are looking on the edge of a revolution of young people
who are starting to realize that we, our generation,
put them four trillion in debt,
and they don't like it, and they shouldn't,
- My name is Anita F, Hill,
- I was scared and I was alone,
- Can we all just get along? Can we get along?
(tape rewinding)
(intense punk music)
- [Jenny] Maybe I should start with my story,
(intense punk music)
- So, why Harvard?
- When I was nine years old, I visited Harvard with my dad,
I remember standing in the Harvard Yard
and seeing all the fall colors,
It was like something out of the movies,
I remember everybody there seemed so important,
so serious, and that my dad was one of them,
It was like the best of the best,
(students chattering)
And that's when I realized that I wanted to be one, too,
- [Student] Hey, girl,
Let me see this,
Uh, what asshole put AP Chem first period?
- I know, I'm gonna die,
- Oh my God,
How was your summer?
- It was fun, I hung out with Drea,
- Oh, good,
- Hola, chica,
What is on the menu for today?
- I actually have AP Chem first period,
- Oh my gosh, Same!
We can be study buddies,
- Owen, I've known you since freshman year,
We both know you don't study,
- Oh,
You hurt me,
Kelly Norman, what's up?
- Owen Riley, color me surprised,
(Owen snickers)
(school bell rings)
Well, enjoy your ridiculous science,
I'll see you in English,
- Ready for chemistry?
- [Teacher] Good morning, and welcome to the wonderful world
that I like to call AP Chemistry,
- The wonderful world of AP Chem,
- So what are you looking forward to this school year?
- What I'm really looking forward to
is this year's election,
- [Interviewer] And why is that?
- Because I'll be 18 in time,
- Have you been following the coverage?
- Oh yeah,
When Ross Perot dropped out in July, I couldn't believe it,
- Was he the candidate you were going to vote for?
- Oh, no,
But it made everything so much more interesting
with his third-party run,
- Let's sort of do a quick summary
of what we discussed before in terms of where we are,
then we'll go to the solution,
- I've offered a comprehensive plan,
- And my agenda for American renewal,
an integrated, comprehensive set of answers,
- We're going to ask the rich to pay their fair share
so the rest of America can finally get a break,
- I wish it were that easy, but it is not,
And it will take new solutions, comprehensive solutions,,,
- Since we're dealing with voodoo economics,
a great young lady from Louisiana sent me this voodoo stick,
and I will use it as my pointer tonight,
- Why is this an important year in U,S, history?
- It's the year of the election,
- Why is this an important election?
- [Student] Because it's the President,
(students chuckling)
- This is the first presidential election
since the fall of the Soviet Union, the end of the Cold War,
followed by a brief but controversial
Gulf War in the Middle East,
Last year, a man was pulled from his truck
and beaten by cops,
(somber music)
This spring, the officers were acquitted,
sparking riots that lasted for days,
We're in an economic downturn,
What is the temperature of the country right now?
This year is touted as the year of the woman,
There are how many female candidates
on the ballot in November?
How many of you will be old enough to vote?
Congratulations, It is an honor and a right,
- This is one of the foremost pieces of literature
in the world, quoted and analyzed to death,
and you will do the same,
I need four volunteers to read Act One,
Mr, Riley, how lovely to have you in my class, again,
- Always a pleasure,
- Mm-hm,
All right,
Okay, you three young ladies, please open your books,
Ms, Johnson, how was your summer?
- It was fun,
Thank you, How about yours?
- Short,
- Yeah,
I'm applying early decision to Harvard,
and I would appreciate some help on my essay,
- Well, when you have a draft, we'll schedule some time,
- Tell me something I can't read in your application,
Who are you?
(tense music)
What are the things that make you you?
Movies, books, television, music,
Everyone who applies for Harvard has an excellent GPA,
is overloaded with extracurriculars,
and some are legacies like yourself,
What makes you stand out?
(tense music)
- So tell us about your interview,
- [Jenny] It was okay,
- You tell him about your 4,0,
your literary magazine, all your classes?
- Oh, Mom, the mole is so good,
- [Camelia] Mm-hm,
- [Jack] Delicious,
- [Michael] It's pretty good,
(Camelia chuckles)
- [Michael] I think you should sign up for the SAT again,
- But I did so well,
- Statistics show that students score
at least 100 points better the second time around,
- [Jenny] But I got a 1460,
- Then a 1560 would get you closer
to a perfect score, won't it?
- [Camelia] So, how was your day, Jack?
(Jack scoffs)
- Upper management,
Came up with some new nonsense,
and everybody nods their head and says,
"Yes please, I want some more,"
Like lambs to a slaughter,
- Maybe you should do something fun this weekend,
You know, go see a movie, Go for a bike ride,
- [Jenny] Who am I?
(tense music)
Who am I? (voice echoing)
(muffled arguing)
(Jenny laughs)
Who am I? (voice echoing)
Do you ever feel like there's a black hole inside of you?
(intense punk rock music playing in headphones)
The music fills me up, but sometimes I wonder,
Maybe I want to get sucked in,
♪ Whoa traitor traitor
traitor traitor ♪
♪ Whoa yeah
♪ Whoa oh oh oh
- Oh, open,,,
Oh, sorry,
(all chuckling)
- Stop,
- What? - Stop,
- What? (Jenny laughs)
- Stop, - Oh, that would've,,,
If you would've just opened your,,,
- Okay, - You could have had that,
- No, no, no, no, no,
(Jenny laughing)
- Oh, you almost caught that,
Okay, open up, quick,
- Try again, Don't,
(popcorn crunches)
Gosh, (son laughs)
- What are you laughing at?
Okay, - Stop! (laughs)
Oh, you weren't rea,,,
I'm,,,
My bad,
- I'm not good at it,
(slurping drink)
- So what are you reading in English?
- Hamlet,
- Mm,
"To thine own self be true,"
- Haven't gotten to that part yet,
- Polonius,
Good advice,
(Jenny sighs)
- So define "gregarious",
- Dad,
Come on,
Gregarious, gregarious, (Jack snapping fingers)
Come on, you got this,
- You know, maybe I should just take a gap year,
(Jack coughs)
- Over my dead body,
- Dad, I'm kidding,
I mean, I've been thinking of Harvard for forever,
(grand orchestral music)
(Jack mimics seal barking)
(grand orchestral music)
I'm heading off to Drea's,
Dad?
- You have a good time at Andrea's, okay?
You say hello to her mother for me,
(intense punk music)
No, no, take that off,
Yeah,
(intense punk rock music)
♪ To play this way look up in the sky ♪
♪ Can't you see we're all gonna die ♪
♪ The world's corrupt but will they join ♪
♪ We have the power but what's going on ♪
♪ Wake up
♪ Hold the fight
♪ Wake up
♪ We're still all right
(crowd chattering) (muted punk music)
- [Lead Singer] Hey everyone, we're Giant Kitty,
and we want girls to the front!
(energetic punk music)
You heard what I said, boys, Move along,
♪ I like to wear it
♪ In my hair
♪ It keeps things all too well there ♪
♪ It clips back my bangs
♪ To show my pretty face
♪ But now and then I feel out of place ♪
♪ Him begging I'll catch you later ♪
♪ Once more my fascinator
- "Because we know that life
is more than a physical survival
and are patently aware that the punk rock,
you-can-do-anything idea
is crucial to the coming angry girl rock revolution,
which seeks to save the psychic and cultural lives
of girls and women everywhere
according to their own terms, not ours,"
- "What is a girl?
Is she a soft and cuddly vision in a pink sweater?
A lady in a dress and a come-hither smile?
Under that dress, that sweater,
she may as well have the words "bitch" or "whore"
scrawled in magic marker on her belly,
She's no girl,"
- [Both] "She's a Grrrl,
- "A Riot Grrrl!"
(crowd cheering)
Yes!
- What's up, J?
- Owen, what are you doin' here?
Owen, Aaron, this is Drea,
We actually used go to school together,
- Hey,
- Would you like a sip?
- How did you even get this?
(Owen laughs)
- Aaron,
You're running,
You're running through the forest,
Faster than you've ever ran before,
Faster, faster, faster, and stop!
(Owen laughs)
So, what are we up to next?
- What is he seeing? (chuckles)
- Wanna see for yourself?
- Are you kidding me?
- There's more than enough, You're welcome to a tab,
- Um, I'm straight-edge by choice,
- Oh,
And you, J?
Are you straight-edge by choice?
- Hey, what is up with you? Who the hell is that guy?
- He's just a kid from my school,
- God, rich kids are the worst, Jenny!
- Come on,
Would it be bad just to do something new?
- Oh, what if he tries something
and you're all jacked up, huh?
What am I supposed to do?
- Just be my friend!
- I am being your friend! You be my friend!
(both shout)
(energetic punk music)
- [Jenny] "Because we know that life
is more than a physical survival
and are patently aware that the punk rock,
you-can-do-anything idea
is crucial to the coming angry girl rock revolution,
which seeks to save the psychic and cultural lives
of girls and women everywhere,
according to their own terms, not ours,"
(energetic punk music)
♪ Times I got high
♪ Turn me around
♪ Can you feel that oh
♪ Let me never come down
♪ Times I got high
♪ Turn me around
♪ Can you feel that oh
♪ Let me never come down
♪ Take me down
♪ Tear you down
♪ Take me down
♪ Tear you down
♪ Whoa
♪ Take me
♪ Whoa
♪ Take me
♪ Whoa
♪ Take me
♪ Whoa
♪ Tear you down
(intense punk music)
(hypnotic music) (distorted speech)
(Owen mimics seal barking)
- [Drea] "What is a girl?
Is she a soft and cuddly vision in a pink sweater?
A lady in a dress and a come-hither smile?
Under that dress or that sweater,
she may as well have the words "bitch" or "whore"
scrawled in magic marker on her belly,
She's no girl,"
- [Drea And Jenny] She's a Grrrl,
(intense punk rock music)
♪ Stop
- [Drea] Oh my God!
You gave me a heart attack!
- I'm sorry, I had all these thoughts going through my head,
I just needed to get some fresh air,
- So how are you feeling?
- Amazing,
Thank you,
(Jenny laughs)
- I thought you were cool with how you are,
(ethereal music)
- Maybe,
- [Drea] Beautiful,
I'm straight-edge by choice,
(Drea laughing)
- [Jenny] I don't know,
(Drea clapping)
- Wakey, wakey!
You guys gotta get out
before my mom gets home from her shift,
(Owen sighs)
(hypnotic music)
- [Owen] Are you
straight-edge by choice? Running through the forest,
Faster than you've ever ran before,
Faster, faster, faster, and stop!
(cassette tape clacking)
- [Drea] Don't forget this,
(water running)
(Jenny sighs)
- Hey,
Want to go grab some grub?
- I can't,
My family has this whole thing
where we eat breakfast together on the weekends,
- Nice,
- [Jenny] Mm-hm,
- Out,
Out, get out,
See you guys later,
- But I'll see you at school,
Bye,
- First time I have the opportunity
to go to the Republican National Convention,
it's here in Houston, I'm not even sure I want to go,
(Jack mumbling)
Bush is talking about all this new policy,
this new attitude,
Well, I already know his attitude,
- [Jenny] I kept waiting for them to notice something,
I wonder if I looked different somehow,
if they would be able to tell,
(upbeat punk music)
- [Jack] I need to follow the money,
Well, I know where his money comes from,
(Jack mimics seal barking)
So,
I'm interested in,,,
(Jack mimics seal barking)
(electronically distorted chatter)
(intense music)
That was pretty smart,
(cassette tape clattering)
(punk music playing in headphones)
- [Jenny] "Because doing, reading, seeing,
hearing cool things that validate and challenge us
can help us gain the strength and sense of community,"
(page tearing)
♪ Run naked through the mall and take a bunch of Benadryl ♪
♪ Sneak into the movies and take a bunch of Benadryl ♪
♪ Throw on Dr, Phil and take a bunch of Benadryl ♪
(Camelia speaking in foreign language)
- What are you doing?
- Hey,
(Camelia speaking in Spanish)
Mom, why did you never teach us Spanish?
- They say it's harder for bilingual children
to learn in school,
- Does dad know Spanish?
(Camelia laughs)
- When I first heard his accent,
I told your father never to speak Spanish again,
(both laughing)
- Did he ever try to learn for you?
- Mija, I wanted to leave Mexico,
I wanted to be an American,
- You could teach me,
- Or you can put up your laundry,
(Camelia air kisses)
(intense punk rock music)
♪ Rep rep represent take a bunch of Benadryl ♪
♪ When I put on my PJs and take a bunch of Benadryl ♪
♪ Vacation in Spain and take a bunch of Benadryl ♪
♪ Steal a station wagon and take a bunch of Benadryl ♪
♪ B-E-N-A-D-R-Y-L
- "These men, carrying, I say, the stamp of one defect,
being nature's livery or fortune's star,
his virtues else, be they pure as grace,
as infinite as man may undergo,
shall in the general censure take corruption
from that particular fault,
The dram of evil doth all the noble substance
of a doubt to his own scandal,"
- Excellent, Mr, Riley,
So what does he mean?
- That people are born defective?
- Yes, Can man change?
Or are we doomed from the start?
(soft music)
- [Jenny] "This above all: to thine own self be true,"
(soft music)
(muffled arguing)
(soft music)
- Ross Perot jumps back into the race,
- Perot is plunging belatedly into the Presidential race,
setting the stage for a three-way, month-long struggle
with President Bush and Bill Clinton,
- The volunteers in all 50 States have asked me to run
as candidate for President of the United States,
(upbeat punk rock music)
- Hey, how's this look?
- Yeah, - Yeah? yeah?
- Look at this, (Drea gasps)
Yes? - Yes, yes!
- Okay, I have to leave it here, though,
- Oh, yeah, yeah, that's fine,
Hey, you know what would look good with that?
- What?
- Since your birthday is Wednesday,
I wanted to give you your present early for tonight,
(paper rustling)
Oh, don't freak out, they're used,
- They're amazing!
(both chuckles)
(both squeal)
(cassette tape clacking)
(upbeat punk rock music)
(Miss Tran speaking in foreign language)
(button clicks) (music stops)
(Miss Tran speaking in foreign language)
- What?
(Drea sighs)
So what?
That's what they think of us,
- It's nice to see you, Jenny,
Tell your parents I said hello,
- I will, Miss Tran,
(Drea sighs)
You okay?
- Ugh!
Talk to me about the patriarchy,
- Okay,
"Because us girls crave the records and books
and fanzines that speak to us,
we feel included in and can understand in our own ways,
because we want to make it easier for girls
to see/hear each other's work,"
Scoot over,
- Oh,
(Jenny sighs)
I can't believe in five days I'm gonna be 18,
I could just do something that I couldn't do the day before,
- Oh, you should buy lottery tickets,
- Ooh, and cigarettes,
- No, (Jenny chuckles)
You already dropped acid like a crazy person,
- Exactly,
(Drea sighs)
- I can get a job,
I could get real arrested,
- No,
- I can get married,
(Drea chuckles)
- I am never getting married,
- Yeah,
(intense punk rock music)
♪ Don't hide don't pretend
♪ Don't make any noise
♪ Don't speak when he's around
♪ Don't tell
- Before our last song, I wanted to let you know
that I lost a very good friend of mine this week,
She lived through the pain and shame
of an abusive relationship,
Jesse, this one's for you,
♪ Draw my eyes to yours
♪ See through my hand
♪ Words catch in my throat
♪ They wouldn't dare escape
♪ What's between my ears
♪ What is it good for
♪ What's between my legs
♪ What is it good for
♪ Assess me
♪ I come up short
♪ Undress me
♪ It won't take much work
♪ Deduce me
♪ I read like a book
♪ Reduce me
♪ I'll crumble with a look
(energetic punk rock music)
♪ Assess me
♪ I'll come up short
♪ Undress me
♪ It won't take much work
♪ Deduce me
♪ I read like a book
♪ Reduce me
♪ I'll crumble with a look
(intense punk rock music)
- I can't believe you're doing this,
- But you told me it would be awesome!
- Uh, it is awesome,
- Okay, - Okay, okay,
- [Jenny] Tell me how awesome it'll be again,
- Oh, so awesome!
- Yay! (laughing)
- [Drea] Oh shit! Don't move, don't move,
- Okay, sorry,
- Okay,
- [Jenny] Okay,
(scissors snip)
(both laughing)
- Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay,
Okay,
(soft music)
Okay,
- Okay,
- [Drea] Oh, I wish you were going to UT with me,
Assuming I'll get in,
- You'll get in,
(Drea grumbles)
And if not, then community college,
apply again in a year or two,
Probably not a bad idea anyways,
It would be so much cheaper,
- I don't even have a plan B,
- [Drea] Uh, well, duh, you're going to Harvard,
Yeah, but I don't know,
I never even thought of like, what if I don't go to Harvard?
- It doesn't matter, You'll get in,
I'll go to UT, and I'll get financial aid
and maybe a scholarship or four,
You know, I'm the one who has to stick
with the stay-in-school and don't-get-pregnant plan,
You can do whatever you want, Fuck the plan,
(Jenny grumbles)
- I can't get pregnant, or do any,,,
You know what?
I'm not,
I'm a bad Riot Grrrl,
(Drea laughs)
- Don't make me laugh!
(upbeat punk rock music)
I think it looks pretty and cool,
♪ You're my friend
♪ But you suck
- I love it!
(both squealing)
- Oh my God, your parents,,,
(upbeat punk rock music)
(birds chirping)
(video game beeping) (Camelia speaking in Spanish)
- Hey, quit it!
(Jenny chuckles)
Whoa, What happened?
- [Jenny] Nothing,
(video game beeping)
- You made me die!
- Yeah, whatever, that was you,
(controller smacks)
(Michael grunts)
- Shit,
(Camelia speaking in Spanish)
- [Michael] Mom!
(Jenny sighs)
- Shit,
(anxious music)
You should probably hold his head down,
(Camelia speaking in Spanish)
I just needed a change,
- You look like a boy,
(Camelia sighs)
- I'm starving, Is the food ready yet?
What happened, buddy?
What happened?
- It was an accident,
- Cutting your hair was an accident?
- What? No, I just needed a change,
- What kind of impression is this gonna make?
- It's a haircut!
- You look like a lesbian,
(Jenny scoffs)
You don't have permission to mutilate your body!
- I didn't!
It's hair! It's my hair!
It's my body! I can do whatever I want!
- What's gotten into you?
- Nothing has gotten into me!
I'm just sick and- - Go to your room!
- [Camelia] Jack,
- You know what? Whatever,
I'm going to Drea's,
- Wait,
(hand smacks arm) (tense music)
(body thuds) (tense music)
- I just want to go to my room,
Is that okay with you?
(somber music)
(Jenny sighs)
(punk music playing in headphones)
♪ Don't flinch don't cry
(intense music)
♪ Don't burn dinner
♪ Don't make any noise
♪ Don't sleep when he's around
♪ Don't tell anyone
♪ Your brain is broken and he will fix it ♪
♪ Remember his version of the truth today ♪
♪ Keep eye contact
♪ Don't make the wrong face
♪ Can't say I didn't try
♪ Don't burn dinner
♪ Don't make any noise
♪ Can't say I didn't try
♪ Your brain is broken and he will fix it ♪
♪ Remember his version of the truth today ♪
♪ You can't say I didn't try
- You should apologize,
- Apologize for what? He's acting like an asshole,
- Jennifer,
What is this?
- It's nothing, Mom,
(Camelia sighs)
- Come with me,
(organ playing)
- I don't understand,
- Your father doesn't believe,
so he did not want you to be raised in the faith,
But I baptized you myself when you were babies,
- Who cares about what Dad says?
- You are so lucky,
My father didn't like for me to go to school,
Even my own mother thought I should simply learn cooking
and taking care of the house,
But I wanted to go, I wanted to learn,
I wanted to be a doctor,
- Really?
- Mm-hm,
But my grades weren't good enough,
And without the support of my family,,,
(Camelia sighs)
But your father, he works very hard to give you the best,
You should trust him to know what's best for you,
Whenever I have a problem or a worry, I come here and I sit,
- And pray?
To God?
- Mm-hm,
(soft music)
Mijo, no,
You must say a prayer for each candle you light,
- Who do you light a candle for?
- My family,
- In Mexico?
- And you, and Michael, and your father,
Say a prayer, light a candle,
- For what?
- That is up to you,
(soft music)
(pensive music)
(Jenny sighs)
- Miss Johnson,
Did you take every pamphlet we have out?
Oh dear, What happened to Harvard early decision?
- That's still the plan,
Just wanted to see what else was out there,
- What are you planning on majoring in?
- My dad says to keep my options open,
excel in every subject, and decide in college,
- [Miss Johnson] Is that what you think?
- Well, see, I'm good at every subject,
so that's not really that big of a deal,
but the only subject that I really love is English,
(teacher chuckles)
- Well, brown-nosing me isn't gonna get you anywhere,
- I'm serious, I do,
I love the words, the imagination, the impact,
but what career do you make out of this?
Like a writer?
Teacher?
- Tell me about the haircut,
- It's just a haircut,
- Not many people would make such a radical change,
- Well, I'm still me,
Just wanted to try something new, something different,
- Is that important to you,
trying something new, different?
Hm, we have big universities, small liberal arts colleges,
Midwest, East Coast, California, Reed College,
- I like the nontraditional class structure,
- [Teacher] Do you now?
- I don't know, I just,,,
(Jenny sighs)
I don't know, (chuckles)
It just feels like any and everything is interesting,
- Well, I'm gonna let you in on a little secret,
It doesn't really matter where you go to college,
What matters is what you do when you get there
and what you do when you leave,
who you become in the process,
How's the essay coming along?
- How am I even supposed to know what to write about
if I can't even figure out where to apply to?
- Oh, that's the easy part,
It's called a personal statement for a reason,
because it's personal and it's a statement,
Kinda like that haircut,
(curious music)
- [Owen] Oh, when did this happen?
- Just needed something different,
- It's soft,
- You don't think I look like a d---?
- You're still gorgeous, if that's what you're asking,
Are you telling me you like girls?
(Jenny chuckles)
- What do you do when everything just seems to be too much?
- Any and all mood enhancing substances,
Not the biggest fan of alcohol, but it'll do in a pinch,
- How do you function at this school?
- I have a genius IQ, a state rep father,
and a mother on the school board,
- I just,,, (sighs)
I just need to get out of my head, you know?
- I don't have anything on me right now,
Too bad, so sad,
But there are other ways of getting out of your head,
(gentle music)
- Mr, Riley!
Miss Johnson!
Control yourselves, or I will have to write you up,
(Owen and Jenny laughing)
(phone ringing)
- [Camelia] Hola,
- "Hamlet: Is this is a prologue or the posy of a ring?
Ophelia: 'Tis brief, my lord,
Hamlet: As woman's love,"
I would go crazy too, Ophelia,
(muffled arguing)
(Camelia crying)
(tense music)
(Camelia speaking in Spanish)
(caller speaking in Spanish)
(Camelia sobbing)
(Camelia and caller speaking in foreign language)
- [Jack] Camelia, hang up the phone,
(Camelia sobbing)
(Camelia speaking in foreign language)
(call disconnects)
(soft music)
- [Jenny] What the hell just happened?
(overlapping speech)
I can't believe I'm gonna be 18,
How am I supposed to figure out,,,
What the hell just happened?
How am I supposed to figure out who I am
if I don't even know where I came from?
- [Drea] Welcome to adulthood!
(Michael laughing)
(singing in Spanish)
♪ Happy birthday to you
♪ Happy birthday dear Jenny
(singing in Spanish)
♪ Happy birthday to you
- Happy birthday, mija!
- Thank you,
(all laughing)
- I made your favorite for dinner tonight,
- Tamales?
- Yes,
(all laughing)
- Happy birthday!
- Okay, no, no,
- Uh!
- Okay, I guess,
- You're gonna wear this,
You're officially an adult now,
- Oh my gosh, don't say that,
Don't say that,
- Are you excited?
- Everybody make sure you've got your goggles on,
Now, if it's acidic,
what color should the litmus paper turn?
- Mr, Richards?
- Red?
- You got it,
Now let's see if all of you can get that same result,
- Cool,
(Owen gasps)
It's acid,
- Stop,
You'll poison yourself one of these days,
- [Owen] Most drugs are laced with something,
Jesus Christ, now I'm gonna think about it
the next time I do it,
- Next time?
(soft music)
- Yeah,
Also, why are you doing all the work?
Here,
- Pipette, Enjoy,
(Jenny speaking in Spanish)
- Bravo,
- So, Dad, how was your day?
- Long,
- You want to go see a movie this weekend?
- Yeah, sure, What's out?
- I don't know,
But I heard that there's this new theater policy,
No barking like a seal!
(Jack chuckles)
(Jack mimics seal barking)
(all chuckling)
♪ Happy birthday to you
♪ Happy birthday dear Jenny
♪ Happy birthday to you
(Camelia clapping)
(Jenny blows out candles)
Yay!
(Camelia and Michael clapping)
- What'd you wish for?
- I'm not telling you,
(Camelia chuckles)
(soft music)
- [Camelia] You can wear your new dress for the holidays,
(soft music)
- Hey, what do you say?
- Gracias, Madre,
- De nada,
- Happy birthday,
(somber music)
(Jenny sighs)
(all clapping and cheering)
- Oh my gosh, I only get these things here,
- I like your hair,
I had a similar cut when I was young,
- Really? In Vietnam?
- My daughter, she lucky to know you as a friend,
Going to Harvard?
You can learn so much from her,
(Drea scoffs)
I got to get to work,
(Drea laughs)
(soft music)
I love my mom, I do,
And I feel like an asshole
because I know how much she sacrificed,
but sometimes I just want a mom, you know?
Someone to make me waffles and tell me to go to bed,
Someone to wake me up if I've overslept
and drive me to school,
She's a survivor,
She's like the fucking toughest person I know,
But as soon as my brother and I
were able to do some things by ourselves,
she needed us to take some of that pressure off,
Now it just feels like we're all just surviving together,
(somber music)
- Damn,
Both my parents are role models in different ways,
I appreciate my father's work ethic
and my mom's devotion to the family,
In my family, the man has all the power,
(voices whispering)
If our bodies are a battleground, then what are our minds?
Are they separate or the same?
If you control my body, do you control my mind?
There are no laws for thought, only for action,
But people believe that if you control one,
you control the other,
- Miss Johnson, (sighs)
This is a mess,
"They're calling this the year of the woman
and movements like Riot Grrrl
that don't ask for equality but take it without apology,
In my family, the man has all of the power,
so how am I supposed to find my own?"
Dissecting how society's patriarchal dynamics
play out in your own family
as you explore your independence as a woman is a good start,
but this is an emotional torrent of victimhood,
You're not showcasing how this will fuel
your further studies or your contribution to society,
- This whole women in punk music
is always talking about accepting your anger
and standing up and fighting for your rights,
It's all so inspiring but I just, I don't know,
I don't know how to put it out there
without sounding like a huge mess,
- Well you edit it,
Use that critical mind you've honed here,
Carving out sense from something emotional is difficult,
yes, especially when you're so biased, but not impossible,
- You think I'm biased?
Well, let me ask you this,
Your mother chose your father,
and every time he acts like a patriarch,
she chooses him again,
Why?
- So you're saying that she wants that?
- And that's not okay?
You want your parents to respect your choices an adult,
Can you accept theirs?
Do you believe that your father, in his mind,
is doing what he thinks is right?
- I mean, he could do it in a better way,
- Well, are you always doing everything
to the best of your abilities?
(emotional music)
- I was just,,,
I'm just,,,
I hate how I can't change anything,
I mean, he never listens,
I have no power, my mom has no power,
- There is no perfect choice, just a choice,
which leads to another and another,
But thinking and planning and stressing
doesn't give you any more control over the outcome,
Your father is still fighting that lesson,
You have a chance to learn it now,
(Jenny groans)
- This is so exhausting,
- Go back over your paper
as if you were an admissions person,
Use emotion where it's effective,
but make sure the reasoning is sound,
- [Moderator] I just want to thank the three panelists
and thank the three candidates for participating,
President Bush, Governor Clinton and Mr, Perot,
They will appear again together on October the-
(TV shuts off)
(Camelia humming) (dishes rattling)
- Why don't you take out your college essay
and we'll go over it together,
- Ms, Scattergood has it covered,
- Jennifer,
- It's not finished,
- Then we'll work on it together,
(Camelia singing in foreign language)
(Jack pats couch cushion)
(Jack clears throat)
What is this?
All I've ever wanted was for you to succeed,
to be anything you ever dreamed of becoming,
I work so hard to make sure that you have anything you need,
and I'm some sort of monster?
Your mother and I, we are partners,
She is not a victim,
- You treat her like dirt!
You never let her speak,
and you never let her speak Spanish to us,
which probably makes you racist,
which I don't even want to know what you think of me,
And you think that Mom agrees with you,
because it's impossible for anybody
to have another opinion other than yours,
And you may not beat us, but you definitely control us,
- Hey, Jennifer,
- Are you done?
- No, I'm not!
You can't dictate me,
I'm 18, and I'm going to college,
and I don't know what the fuck I'm doing with my life,
I'm scared to try anything new
because I'm scared of failing,
But I don't want to go to Harvard,
(Jenny's breath shaking)
(low tense music)
We used to be pals,
When did you decide you couldn't talk to me?
- I don't know if I ever could,
(melancholy music)
(Jack clears throat)
- The kids that go to that fancy private school
that you go to are from wealthy families,
prominent in the community,
They are all going to Ivy League schools,
They have trust funds,
You don't,
What you do have is access
to a very exclusive club,
one that can open up any door for you,
You want to experiment? You want to explore?
They have the power for you to do that,
They can give you all of that,
Don't throw it away before you even get there,
because they don't let you in twice,
Not very smart for a smart girl like you,
(melancholy music)
(pensive music)
(paper crumpling)
Not very smart,
- [Jenny] Fuck him,
(Jack's voice echoing)
- [Jack] Your mother and I, we are partners,
She is not a victim,
(intense punk music)
- [Jenny] I don't wanna go to Harvard,
(intense punk music)
♪ So you aren't dead and you want to rebel ♪
♪ Go get your piece let's go prowl the streets ♪
♪ When your actions are power and the stakes are high ♪
♪ You better wake up for genocide ♪
♪ When the world's all gone we'll add your voice ♪
♪ You better fight now 'cause you'll have no choice whoa ♪
♪ Fight now 'cause you'll have no choice whoa ♪
♪ This world's gonna crumble down on you ♪
- Good evening from the University of Richmond,
where tonight the candidates and the voters mix it up
in a freewheeling format that's never been tried before,
This evening will be part debate, part game show,
part talk show, and all-important,
- For your reports on the election,
I want you to watch the TV coverage tonight
and write a summary of the event and its results,
- What if our parents won't let us stay up late?
(students chuckling)
- Get up early in the morning and read the newspaper,
Mr, Riley,
- Can we do it as a group project?
- I suppose,
- [Jack] Excited?
- [Jenny] What if I punch the wrong one and vote for Bush?
- [Jack] You're not supposed to say who you're voting for,
- [Jenny] I said who I'm not voting for,
Where is everyone?
- [Owen] At some election night thing,
- They didn't make you go with them?
- They try and give me space,
- When I told my dad I was coming here,
he was expecting this whole big political party,
- Nope,
Just little old me,
(whip cream sprays)
- [Isabel] Ah-ah!
(Isabel speaking in Spanish)
(Owen speaking in Spanish)
(Isabel speaking in Spanish)
(Owen and Isabel conversing in Spanish)
Isabel's tamales are bomb,
She makes 'em like once a week,
and I just eat my way through 'em,
(chips rattling)
(Jenny chuckles)
(Isabel speaking in Spanish)
(Owen and Isabel speaking in Spanish)
Gracias, Isabel,
(Isabel speaks in Spanish)
So you wanna get fucked up tonight?
You can,
You don't have to worry, I'll take care of you,
No one's here to stop you,
So you wanna get fucked up?
(Jenny sighs)
- I already feel fucked up,
- Wanna get outta your head?
(soft music)
(Jenny and Owen kissing and panting)
Is it wrong that I kinda think that's sexy?
(Owen grunts)
- [Jenny] Take the shoes off!
(both laughing)
- Yes!
(Jenny laughing)
Is this okay?
What?
(Jenny sighs)
- I don't know,
I just keep asking myself, so this is it?
(both chuckle)
(Jenny chuckles)
- Oh, shit,
- No, don't stop,
(soft music)
(Owen sighs)
Did you vote today?
- Mm,
What? It's not gonna make a difference,
Texas is solid red,
- You asshole,
(Owen laughs)
- Oh, are we breaking up all ready?
I'm kidding, I voted with my dad,
(soft music)
- Jesus, Mom,
- Where were you?
- I was watching the election for my assignment,
- The election doesn't go this late,
- I fell asleep on the couch,
- What's going on?
Aye, Mija, I was not born yesterday,
(soft music)
I will always worry about you,
(phone dialing)
(phone ringing)
- [Drea] Yello!
(Jenny sighs)
Hey asshole!
You should get a life and stop calling teenage girls
just to breathe heavily and not say anything, all right?
Fuck off! Don't call again!
(hangs up phone)
(Jenny snorts)
(phone dialing)
(phone ringing)
- Are you kidding me?
- Drea, it's,,, (laughs)
It's Jenny,
(Jenny sighs)
- So, what happened?
- [Student] Um, Clinton won,
- [Jenny] Why does having sex mean you're now a woman?
Why does it mean we have to be together?
- [Teacher] But not in Texas,
- [Jenny] I don't even know what I'm thinking or feeling,
Although, for a minute, I forgot about everything,
- We now have six women in the Senate and 47 in the House,
Six out of 100 in the Senate
and 47 out of 400 in the House isn't exactly a lot,
- Well it's more than before,
- We've had so many election cycles
when we said this is the year when women are going to win,
and then, you know, something happens,
- That horizon of gender equity is limitless for us,
And what we see today is simply a dress rehearsal
for the day and time we meet in convention
to nominate Madam President,
- So, is this change, or is this progress?
- [Jack] You're making me out to be the bad guy!
You're driving a wedge between us!
- [Camelia] No, all I wanted-
- [Jack] No, you read that essay!
(glass shattering)
Dammit! - Jack!
(tense music)
(Jenny sighs)
(muffled arguing)
- [Michael] Jenny?
(muffled arguing continues)
- Hey,
(muffled arguing continues)
(door slams)
Let me go tuck you back in,
- We don't just need a new generation;
we need a new gender of leadership in America,
(audience cheering)
(chatter on TV)
(anxious music)
I didn't apply,
- [Jack] Sure you did,
Application was completely filled out,
(chatter on TV)
- I can't believe you opened it,
- [Jack] Robert McGill, the guy that interviewed you,
is having a holiday party next week,
and he's extended the invite,
Well, his son, who also goes to Harvard,
is having a few of his friends over that you can meet,
- And you get to wear your new dress,
(tense music)
- [Jack] I'm so proud of you, This is really good news,
(tense music)
Oh, (snaps fingers)
News, News is about to start,
Where's the remote control?
The news is starting right now,
(slams remote)
(echoing voices)
- [Owen] Ruh-roh,
(melancholy music)
- I got into Harvard,
- What?
- Yay,
- That's awesome!
You deserve it, It's what you wanted,
- It's what I want,
It is what I want,
(voices echoing)
(Jenny sighs)
What I want
is to get fucked up,
- Hm,
(voices echoing)
(guests chattering)
(soft Christmas music)
- This is your night, enjoy,
- Jack!
- Robert, good to see you,
- You too, How are you?
- Fantastic,
You remember my daughter, Jennifer,
- I certainly do,
She left quite the impression at her interview,
My son Parker's right over there if you want to say hello,
Let's get you a drink,
- [Jack] Let's do that,
(guests chattering)
(Christmas music)
- Grace,
Martin?
You went to my school,
- Class of 1990,
- Yeah,
- I'm sorry, what is your name?
- Jenny,
Jenny Johnson,
- How funny, It's like the Jetson's,
♪ Judy Jetson
(Grace chuckles)
- I'm Parker, Robert's son,
- Jenny,
Do you go to Harvard?
- [Parker] I graduated last year,
Now I oversee bonds in the city,
- So you're a legacy?
- Yeah,
- Lucky you,
- Well, it was great to see you again,
And it was so good to meet you,
- Yeah, all right,
- Bye,
(violin playing)
(guests chattering)
Hey, Dad,
- Excuse me,
- All right,
- Can we go? I'm kinda tired,
- We just got here,
Some of these people may be your future,
(phone dialing)
(phone ringing)
- [Camelia] Hola, Johnson's residence,
- Hi, Mom, Could you come pick me up?
I'm bored, and Dad doesn't want to leave,
- [Camelia] Mija, give it a try,
Not just for your future but for your father, too,
- Okay,
Bye,
(Jenny sighs)
(phone dialing)
- Hey, where were you?
Your father called, He is worried sick,
He's on his way home,
- Why?
He wanted to stay, I wanted to go, so I called a taxi,
(tense music)
(Jack sighs)
- What's gotten into you?
What's wrong?
- Everything is wrong, Dad,
I don't want to go to Harvard,
and you're just not listening to me,
- Everybody gets nervous, It's perfectly normal,
You're gonna be okay,
Everything's gonna be fine,
(tense music)
Is that the best hug you can come up with?
(tense music)
- [Owen] Happy Friday,
- [Jenny] Owen! (laughs)
- No way, J, what are you doing?
- Oh my gosh, thank you,
- Party at mine?
- Maybe,
There's actually this concert coming up, yeah,
- Oh, cool,
Scary chicks screaming? I can dig it,
- Hey, they're proving a point, you know, okay?
They're angry, women are angry,
and they have every right to be angry
about so many different things,
and you wouldn't know about this, okay?
- Okay, okay, you're right,
- You know what? You don't get it, whatever,
(Owen chuckles)
(Jenny sighs)
- Sorry,
Just stressed,
I needed this, so thank you,
(intense punk music)
♪ A remedy in your eyes
♪ Depravity by design
♪ Pack a rose inside
♪ Haters suck me dry
♪ Remedy in your eyes
♪ Depravity by design
♪ Pack a rose inside
♪ Haters suck me dry
♪ Hide
♪ My
- [Camelia] Dinner,
- Is it Halloween? (chuckles)
- I'm going to a concert with Drea,
- What kind of concert?
- It's a punk concert,
- Where is this concert?
- Does it matter?
- I'm 18, I can go wherever I want with whoever I want,
(Jack slams table) (dishes clatter)
- Jack!
- That's enough of this,
I'm not gonna tolerate that behavior
while you are under this roof,
- Are you kicking me out?
- What? No,
No, of course not, - Dad,
Are you kicking me out?
- You're 18,
An adult under the law,
But let me remind you of something,
you're still in high school,
A school I pay a pretty penny for,
- Then I'll go to a public school, or I'll get my GED,
(tense music)
- Is that what you want?
Throw all of your hard work,
everything you've worked for, right down the drain?
Just tell me,
Tell me,
'Cause I just might grant you your wish,
(tense music)
(phone ringing)
- [Camelia] Hello?
I'm sorry, Andrea, Jenny's not available right now,
- Mom, I got it,
- [Drea] Oh, hey,
Drea, my parents are being psycho,
- Jennifer! - Uh, call me when you can,
(tense music)
(door slams)
(intense punk music)
(magical noises)
♪ Do and learn
♪ Keep the yearn
♪ Never wasting off
♪ I'm living late
♪ Don't hesitate
♪ I'm only getting off
♪ Thick and heavy
♪ Always ready
♪ Give it all you got
♪ I'm six step livin'
♪ Nine tenths grinning
♪ Smoke 'em if you got 'em
(intense punk rock music)
♪ I can feel you're empathy
♪ Tell me what you'll do to bleed ♪
♪ Where you feel you ought a be ♪
♪ Gut feeling gut feeling gut feeling ♪
♪ Second sight I don't feel right ♪
♪ Looking into any life
- Hey,
Your brother's going to bed, so please keep it down, huh?
- I dropped acid,
- You dropped what?
- I dropped acid,
I dropped acid,
(hypnotic music)
(Camelia speaking in Spanish)
(Jenny laughs)
- Who gave this to you? Was it Andrea?
- Maybe you should take her to the hospital,
- A doctor can't do anything!
Maybe we should call the police,
- I'm 18, I could go to real jail,
- We gotta call the school!
If you got that from anybody, anybody!
You could get expelled!
You could get brain damage!
Brain damage!
Your kids, they're gonna have birth defects!
Brain damage,
(Jenny titters)
You do realize that I'm hallucinating?
(hypnotic music)
I'm hallucinating, and I could,,,
- [Jack] Why would you do this?
- [Camelia] Don't wake Michael,
She's not listening, Jack,
- [Jack] I told you she would lose focus!
- [Jenny] I need a pencil and paper,
I have to write something down, A pen?
- [Jack] Hush!
- [Jenny] I need to write something down,
- [Jack] No, damn it!
- I need a highlighter, Sharpie, quill,,,
Oh!
I need a crayon,
- I said hush,
Hush!
I said hush,
Hush,
(distorted laughter)
What's gotten into you?
What's the matter with you?
What's gotten into you?
- Don't touch me,
Don't touch me,
(hypnotic music)
"To be or not to be, That is the question,
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind
to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune
or to take arms against a sea of troubles
and by opposing, end them,"
(blinds clattering)
(hypnotic music)
(punk rock music)
♪ Can't say I didn't try
(voices echoing)
♪ Can't say I didn't try
(Jack mimics seal barking)
- [Jenny] I'm 18 and I'm going to college
and I don't know what the fuck I'm doing,
- [Drea] I thought you were cool with how you are,
- [Jenny] "To thine own self be true,"
"Angry girl rock revolution
seeks to save the psychic and cultural lives
of girls and women everywhere,"
- [Owen] Are you,,,
- Can man change, or are we doomed at the start?
- [Camelia] I'll always worry about you,
- [Owen] Is it wrong that I kinda think that's sexy?
- Whenever I have a problem or worry, I come here,
- [Jenny] And pray to God?
- [Teacher] This year is touted as the year of the woman,
- [Owen] Are you straight-edge by choice?
(Jack mimics seal barking)
- [Jack] You could get brain damage!
Your kids, they're gonna have birth defects!
You look like a lesbian,
Brain damage!
- [Teacher] Or are we doomed from the start?
- [Jack] Brain damage,
(voice whispering)
(psychedelic music)
♪ Happy birthday dear Jenny
(Camelia singing in foreign language)
(Drea and Drea's mom singing)
(psychedelic music)
(soft punk music)
(magical noises)
♪ Baby I'm sorry
♪ I'm trying to not bleed
♪ I can't forget it all
♪ 'Cause you forgot to call
♪ Left me on a cold night
♪ When my ass was red from the beating of life ♪
♪ I can't forget it all
♪ But still must like to fall
♪ Can't blame it on the middle man ♪
♪ 'Cause it was just you and me ♪
♪ And I was so happy
♪ I can't blame it on the middle man ♪
♪ Can't blame it on the middle man ♪
(Camelia sobbing)
- I don't know what I did in my life
so wrong to deserve a daughter like you,
(Jack whimpers)
- You could have,,,
(melancholy music)
(magical noises)
- Get some rest,
- Could you just stay with me, please?
At least till I fall asleep?
- Mm,
Let's change you to your bedtime clothes,
- Mom?
- Hm?
- What's going on in Mexico? And don't say nothing,
- My mother,
She's dying,
- What?
- [Camelia] Mm-hm,
- We have to go down there,
- It's not a good time right now,
- Says who? Dad?
(Camelia sighs)
- I love him,
He is your father, and he loves you very much,
and me, and your brother,
- He has a weird way of showing it,
- Sometimes we hurt the ones we love the most,
(magical noises)
- That's terrible,
- You'll understand someday,
- No, I won't,
(soft music)
- You want me to rub your back and sing you a lullaby?
- Yeah,
- Yeah?
(Camelia singing in foreign language)
(Jenny sighs)
- [Jenny] I can't believe I did that,
But somehow I feel lighter,
Relieved,
Happy to be alive,
- [Camelia] Breakfast!
- How are you feeling?
- I'm good,
So, you want to go see a movie?
- No, I don't want to see a movie,
- Mikey, you wanna go see a movie?
- Harvard costs a lot of money,
and I'm not sending you halfway across the country
if that's how you're gonna behave,
(low soft music)
- I already told you I don't want to go to Harvard,
- [Jack] All schools cost a lot of money,
- [Jenny] Then I'll apply for financial aid,
- It won't be enough, - I'll get a job,
Then I'll take a gap year, and I'll figure this out,
- [Jack] Where are you gonna live?
How are you gonna support yourself?
- You can't choose my path for me,
- So you expect me to pay for all of your choices,
like the choice you made last night?
You could have been severely injured,
And you put your mother and me through hell,
- It won't happen again,
(soft music)
- I love you,
- I love you, too,
Could you pass me the syrup?
Thank you,
(Jenny sighs)
I can't believe I did something that crazy,
- Maybe you should just stick to other forms of escape,
- I just don't know what to do,
- My parents have spent a lot of money
trying to help me, give me the best,
In middle school I even spent some time in an institution,
- What? Why?
- I'm better now, Functional, the doctors say,
I pass my classes, I ace my standardized tests,
haven't gotten arrested, play nice with others,
So I made a deal with my parents,
As long as I'm not slitting my wrists
or jumping off bridges, they let me be,
- How can you be that honest?
I'm a terrible Riot Grrrl,
(both laughing)
What?
I thought you were pretty,,,
- [Jenny] I wish I had some big revelation
and figured it all out,
♪ Pushing forward, not looking back ♪
It felt like defeat and triumph wrapped in one,
♪ Not looking back I had your back ♪
♪ You stabbed my back
♪ Pushing forward not looking back ♪
♪ In the back of my head things that I try ♪
♪ Facing forward
♪ Underneath your bed
- I'm trying real hard
to understand what's going on with you right now,
- Everybody knows what they want to do,
What they want,
Kelly's going to Spelman,
Owen doesn't fucking care,
but he's gonna end up at some Ivy League think tank,
I mean, even you know what you want,
- Don't be a bitch,
You have everything you could ever fucking want,
Fuck,
I'm worried about you,
- Yeah, I don't think I'll be doing
anything like that anytime soon,
- Silly rabbit, Trips are for kids,
(both chuckling)
- Will you still be my best friend when we're real adults?
- Always,
- Congratulations,
Early decision, Harvard,
- It's not binding,
so I can still apply and decide in April,
- It's frowned upon,
- It's the best I can do right now,
- Nice work on the literary magazine,
- They're a little unpolished,
- I thought that was the point,
- "If it be now, 'tis not to come,
If it be not to come, it will be now,
If it be not now and it will come, the readiness is all,
Since no man of aught he leaves knows,
what is it to leave betimes?"
- "Let be,"
(soft music)
- This is awesome,
- Thank you,
- [Rehnquist] Governor, are you ready to take the oath?
- [Clinton] I am,
- Will you please raise your right hand and repeat after me?
I, William Jefferson Clinton,,,
- [Jenny] I wish I could say everything changed,
that everything was better, fixed,
But the truth is,,,
- [Rehnquist] The office of the President
of the United States,
- Complicated,
- I will faithfully execute,,,
Though we march to the music of our time,
our mission is timeless,
Each generation of Americans
must define what it means to be,,,
- [Jenny] Maybe I'm remembering this all wrong,
Maybe I'm missing the point,
But all of these moments are frozen in my memory
of a time when I became me,
(punk music playing in headphones)
So where do I begin?
♪ I am I am a feminist
♪ Yo soy yo soy feminista
♪ Je suis je suis une feministe ♪
♪ Ich bin eine feminist
♪ Watashi wa feminisutodesu
♪ I am a feminist yeah
Miss Tran, it is our pleasure to formally congratulate you
on your admissions to the University of Texas at Austin,
class of 1997!
(upbeat punk music)
♪ I don't hate men I just love women ♪
♪ You got wrong idea you got the wrong impression ♪
♪ I'm getting fucking tired of your inaccurate impression ♪
♪ I'm no feminazi
♪ These ain't no twatstika
♪ I am I am a feminist
♪ Yo soy yo soy feminista
♪ Je suis je suis une feministe ♪
♪ Ich bin eine feminist
♪ Watashi wa feminisutodesu
♪ I am feminist yeah
(upbeat punk music)