Directable,
What do you mean by stretchable?
Daddy's hard,
You can't move him,
He gets mad, and that's it,
I'm only with my two, but she's more like Putty,
Hmm,
I don't think she has had two,
That's when it's the most direct,
Putty, um, I wonder how is it that you stretch her?
Um, yeah,
Can I talk now?
Please?
Um, is it okay if mommy talks?
Yeah,
I'm not stretchable,
I'm not Putty,
That's my experience, are you?
That isn't true,
I try very hard to be in control of her and
everything, but, um, may as well not be there at all,
Well, perception is reality, so,,, Also, I don't get sad,
He seems sad right now,
We're here to talk about how to get you better,
All we do is talk about me,
I can be sad,
I mean, I'm allowed to be sad, right?
Of course,
But, um, you must know that this is all tangled
up together, and you and all people should know,
I know,
But, um, this,,, this isn't how things,,, Okay, to get better,
Um,,,
Mommy, please don't cry,
No, no, I,,,
She,,,
We want the tube removed,
No, you can't kill me,
No, she won't do what she has to do because she knows that she has the safety net,
These are not stable enough for us,
It's clear that we have different goals,
You want her to get better before the tube can be removed,
I think the tube needs to come out, and then she can get better,
We all have the same goal here,
But what I'm learning as we're talking all together is that you and I need to spend
some time, just the two of us, without her near,
To talk about some serious issues,
I'm going to need to restart the tube during the night,
And I need to restart the tube when we come home,
Did you get the kind with no cheese?
I can't explain this to you every time, sweetie,
They would just laugh at me and say it's bread, okay?
I'll take the cheese off when we get home, of course,
Is it the kind with the little, free black things in the sauce?
It's the same kind we always get,
That kind has the things in the sauce,
I can't,,, I can't eat it,
Wait, can you like,,, Do you want to know what it's about?
Or is it just me who wants it out?
You have to be,,,
Jesus,
Oh,
You got your wish,
No cheese,
Did you know that they happen?
Are you some kind of witch or something?
Okay, straight to the table,
Actually, no, wash your hands first and then straight to the table,
I have to go to the bathroom now,
No one's making you go to the bathroom,
I'm just asking you to wash your hands, please, like we always do,
Daddy, what's happening?
He said maybe bedtime?
What is going on?
He just got back from the month,
Yeah,
I'm going to have to go to the bathroom,
Okay,
Yeah,
To the bathroom?
Okay,
Oh, God,
What?
Why did you call me as soon as you came in here?
I just noticed,
Because I had to go to the bathroom so bad,
I don't like how it feels in my socks,
Where's it coming from?
How deep is it?
Is that what's going to fall off of us?
Mommy?
Is it out?
No,
Just stay there, okay?
Hold on,
Please stay on the toilet, okay?
Hey, yeah, we just got home and you would not,,,
Please,
Do you know about how they try to breathe?
Mm-hmm,
You know, this shit is lit,
Basically, you trip your brain and you're thinking it's dead,
And you see the fucking universe,
You know what I'm saying?
So you don't feel paranoia and guilt,
Something's wrong,
I mean, I've got a friend who doesn't like drinking and shit like that,
You know what I'm saying?
This is like hyperventilating,
When you die, they say you let off this chemical pain,
When you dream and you let off the same chemical,
It's sort of like that,
You know, you make your brain think it's dead, but are you brain dead?
It's still alive,
Polygraphic?
Polytropic,
Is that real?
What?
The,,, the dead brain thing?
Oh, yeah,
I mean, shit,
I guess anything could be real,
Anything could be bullshit, too,
You know what I'm saying?
But, you know, that feeling is like,,, when you're not,,,
Yeah?
Oh, you're making fun of me,
Miss, I don't even know you,
Okay,
Um, yes on these, but no on the white,
Why?
The law prohibits me from telling you this one right now,
Well, it doesn't even, too,
It's worth seeing it,
All right, but,,, At the time I ring these up, it will be passed, too,
I'll just get the peanut butter crops to put them in there,
Okay,
I can't talk about this anymore,
I'm telling you, please,
Hey, hey, if that's what Dr, Spring thinks is best, then we have to listen to her,
There is no way, though,
It's just me,
It's not fair,
I'm telling you,
I know the problem with that logic, though, is that I'm not a housewife,
I work, too,
Good morning,
Wow,
You guys look just like twins,
Anybody ever tell you that?
No, you're the first person to notice and or say that,
Everyone says that,
Hey, cutie,
Want to see a trip?
Yeah,
Hey, mommy,
You should take it,
She's never going to get it,
Yeah,
I love you,
I love you, too,
Do you know that you can train hamsters to love you?
No,
You can train them to love you,
Well, I would love if you would finish your bacon,
That way I can tell everybody you got 100% on breakfast,
And once they love you, you can get them to do everything, including flicks,
Let's start with one bite,
Okay,
What happened last time?
You've missed the last few weeks of family relations,
Yeah,
I told you what happened,
Our entire ceiling fell down,
And with all that chaos, and we're living out of the hotel,
So we need to schedule something as soon as possible,
To talk about our goals and the treatment process,
Yeah, okay, yeah,
Oh, you meant now?
Okay,
All right,
Well, let me look at my schedule,
I should probably do that,
I know that you already know this,
You can't start letting feelings of guilt and
control of this illness in treatment affect you,
It's no one's fault,
That's right,
That's what I keep hearing,
Also, I really need to start taking care of yourself,
Yes,
No, put my oxygen down first,
I'm just going to have to get one here,
So she needs to reach her weight goal in the next week,
If she does that, then we can put two removal and discharge dates on the books,
But if she doesn't do that, I'm going to have to reassess the level of care,
Because obviously something is not working here,
And this is what I need to talk to you about,
When can we sit down properly?
Yeah, fine,
September 7th,
It's September 15th,
September 20th,
I mean, September,,, September 20th,
Hey, I told you not to do that,
And the next time I will report you to the building,,, I know, I'm sorry,
You won't be allowed in a lot,
I'll have you told,
I'm going to call them,
I'm not in there long enough,
I can't do that,
It's
a 13 minute walk, but I have to fly over here on Mars,
Every time I go check, it looks worse,
And I have no control,
Have you tried discussing a compromise with your landlord?
Perhaps they could section off the room with the whole,
Then you could live freely in the rest of the apartment,
Live freely with asbestos and a hundred-year-old dust in black hole spores,
That's your advice,
It's not advice,
It's a question to consider,
I should really show you this hole,
It's an entire nightmare on my ceiling,
When does Charles return?
This is week three of eight,
I mean, you should know that when you write things down,
You're drawn to remember the boring details of my fucking life,
We do have to stop now,
We are out of time,
I have an invitation coming, so,,, Wait, now?
What about the 10 minute warning?
Yeah, I just wasn't paying attention,
Can you respond to the email that I sent you about my dream?
I don't respond to my client's dream emails,
Okay, so if you don't bring it up, then what is the point?
Okay,
You got me,
I had a dream, and I need to talk about it today,
And I didn't get any time because you didn't give me a warning,
We can discuss the dream you emailed the next session,
Well, it's actually a different dream,
Well, I don't really,,,
Okay, quickly,
Okay,
I was in a hospital day room or recreation room or something,
And I knew my daughter was also in the hospital, but far away, another part,
And it didn't look like the hospital she was in last year, though,
When everything happened, it was different,
It was weird,
And I was waiting for Charles to come get me so we could pick her up,
But instead, you were there, and you wanted to sit really close to me,
And I was, like, inching away from you on the bench, and you kept inching closer,
And I got my phone out to text Charles because
I was nervous he'd come in and he'd see,
And then you tried to grab the phone,
And then you started to tickle me to try to get me to drop it,
And I was, like,,,
I was really enjoying it, but I was so scared
that Charles would come in and he would see,
All right,
Okay,
All right,
You have to tell me,
We'll talk about it next time,
You know that,
There's no thread,
There's no thread at all,
Yes?
What now?
I'm sorry,
I have to leave now,
What?
Uh,,, Okay, I have to,,,
Okay,
What is the issue then?
Can you tell me?
This isn't going on for so long,
Do I need to get a new contractor?
I,,, Spread?
I speak Spanish,
Explain it to me,
How long will you be grieving for your mother?
I need a date,
Okay?
It needs to be fixed,
Just give me a date,
My husband and I will be returning to,,,
Okay, well, fine,
I'm going to be going there and checking on what you've done so far,
And I'm going to be taking pictures,
I can see you now,
I'm really happy to hold this silent space for you, but,,,
As usual, I'm curious as to what you might be thinking about,
Priority?
That's all I can think about,
Tell me what's going on,
Well, I,,, I keep telling you,
It's,,,
It's like I keep saying to his doctor, he,,,
He doesn't smile,
He,,,
He looks at me weirdly, and,,,
He's just very uncomfortable all of the time, and,,,
And no one will do anything about it,
You know what I would love and what I think would be extremely helpful,
is if you could come to a session with Riley,
I think it would be,,, I know you're thinking,,, I can't,,, I can't,,,
But I think if you got a sitter who you trusted,,, Did you hear about that, Nanny?
In New York, the mum came home from work, and the nanny had stabbed her kids to
death in the bathtub,
That is real,
That happened,
A situation like that is very, very, very unusual,
Okay, most people have caregivers who you trust, but,,,
Well, I,,, I believe you can,
I just think you don't want to, or you're afraid,
So let's stick to some practice,
I need to protect him,
From something specific?
Something very bad is happening,
I think,,,
Just one second, I just have to,,, This could be about my daughter,
I'm sorry,
Yeah, look, look, I,,,
I'm not Riley's doctor, so I can't speak to what may or may not be going on with him,
We can only talk about your feelings about what you perceive is going on with Riley,
which is why I do believe medication,,,
I'm not perceiving that it,,, it is happening,
I'm not feel awful about it,
When you're having these feelings of deep panic at home with Riley, just put him in
his crib or carrier, or somewhere safe, and draw back,
Breathe until your heart isn't racing anymore,
Come out, get dressed, start the day over again,
Put on some real clothes,
These feelings that you're experiencing, they are,,, They're very, very, very scary,
Okay?
Very dark,
And that's why you need to keep moving,
You need to keep moving,
You need to be busy,
You can't sit inside with fear and doubt,
That's scaring us,
Resmog is a deep healing and a nervous system,
We can't talk our way out of trouble,
The body needs to be controlled, unconscious and motionless,
And this is why resmog is so powerful,
When you're looking for people,
don't waste any more time,
Next,
Directly before the judge read or take our sentence,
she begs for forgiveness for her unspeakable crime,
She stated she was sorry for what the judge had called pure evil,
She then spoke about how untrue,,,
You would not believe what I have understood,
Okay, so, I don't know if you recall, but there was this pair of absolutely
duvunyanka duvuny gorge leather gloves that I saw on the real, real,
I woke up this morning and,,, and,,, yeah,
I know,
Hey, my love, you've been keeping up and eating and doing all the right things,
Yeah, I ate some cheese today,
That's fantastic,
Daddy, can I get a hamster?
Are you full?
You're not getting a hamster,
Maybe when we get back in the apartment,,, No, no, no, no,
She's not getting a hamster,
Daddy, we're coming home,
Where are you?
I see you're something weird,
Oh, yeah, dad, I'm catching a game,
A game?
Yeah, yeah,
We got here this morning,
There's a minor league team here on the island where we go,
It's a little loud,
It must be nice, huh?
Doing things yourself,
What's that like?
Hey, hey, hey,
What's with places?
You don't know what I'm dealing with here,
All right, I'll go sit on my ass,
I'll be a therapy,
I'm sorry,
Aha, I mean, listen to my words,
Listen to people whine,
You can captain this stupid boat, okay?
Listen, I'm allowed to do things on my time off,
Jesus Christ,
Time off?
Oh, okay,
Dad, he has to go now,
And he has to drive,
I know, I know, I know,
Everybody, okay?
Look, they're in the middle,
Is it work?
I told you, it's a rodent,
It's just something to look after for no reason,
Please, please don't ask again,
And don't ask any things I already say no to,
Oh, honey, it's not there,
Doctor Springs said this is a big week,
Did she tell you that?
Yeah,
I think you can do it,
But I'm already doing it my best,
I know, but you have to do a little better,
I'll make him get rid of this thing and everything will be okay,
I'll be better,
Okay, well, it's not up to me,
It's up to you,
What book can I read you tonight?
I'm a little tired,
Just a song,
Okay, one song,
The dead whale one,
Sleep beside the breakfast table,
Think about your trouble,
Pour yourself a cup of tea,
Think about the bubbles,
You can take your tea drops and drop them in your tea cup,
Sink them down to the riverside,
And come out with this eye to be swept up by a climb and take into the ocean,
And swallow my mouth,
Fishes and my eating glass,
And fishes and swallow my life,
But there's no hope,
It can't come home,
I don't mean to say we're all robots, but I wonder if
you had been raised the way your mother had been raised,
I mean, she had a father who died,
It could come home,
And another man,
I'm gonna need to see your ID,
I'm gonna need to see your ID ma'am,
You've never asked me that before,
Ma'am, I'm gonna need to see your ID,
You really want me to go all the way by myself,
In my room, get my ID and come all the way back down here,
It's the rule,
I'm trolling on the second floor anyway,
When is this the fucking rule?
I have been in here every single crime in the world,
Well, maybe you should find my ID that's behind you,
When I check it out,
Ladies!
I'm not going back behind you,
Ladies, calm it down, bro,
I'm fucking chill,
Not that deep,
She's fucking working in here,
This used my ID, bro,
I can't do that,
Why not?
I can't use your ID for her line,
Hold on,
It's my line,
She's just paying for it,
What?
My name is Jamie, by the way,
Got a light?
Not interested,
In what?
I need to be alone,
Who is it?
How?
Come on, fucking,
Thank you would have been nice, miss,
Hello, at the hotel,
Hi, sir,
Can I get some fresh air?
I don't like it when you leave her there by yourself,
This is the first second,
It isn't safe,
I'm just outside for a minute, getting some air,
The window's all open in there,
Stop everyone from killing themselves, obviously,
All right, yeah, yeah, yeah,
What if she wakes up and she's scared?
She never wakes up,
And anyway, I have someone at the hotel now,
Maybe sitter,
Really?
Where'd you find a baby sitter?
My name is James,
Your name is James?
He's a male babysitter?
Did you call just to call me a bad mother or what?
I mean, you have no idea what it's like not to be
able to go outside even for a minute by yourself,
You can go outside whenever you want to,
You can go wherever you want to,
The machine doesn't fucking stop,
But there's nothing to do,
Oh, my God,
Who is the one who went to a baseball game today?
And who is the one who filled her bag?
We've grouped 500 times, saw patients, picked her up, had to do dinner,
where she only got 20%, and then had to try to keep it,,,
Look, I got it, though,
The perception's really bad here,
Everything's fine,
Here
are pics of Hope,
Forgot to send today,
I went during lunch,
Um,
What is moving,,,
Babies, zombies, 80s, mothers,,,
eating babies,
The door is locked,
If you want, if you want, that comes to an end,
That's the second door,
Hey, hey, you know what'd be super fun?
I'm like a really, really big kid type of thing to do,
I can't hear you,
I said you know what'd be super fun and a big kid type of thing to do,
What?
I dropped you in front of the door,
You just go inside yourself,
Oh my god, don't be so cool with you,
No,
Why not?
All the mums walk in,
Your mom, you have to walk in,
You have to sign the ins,
Eva!
Can you walk her in today?
Please, please, please,
I cannot deal with the parking,
Of course, no problem,
No problem,
Thank you,
Okay, exciting news,
Guess what?
Eva will walk you in,
Go, go, go!
Mommy, I'm scared to be shooted,
I'm scared to tell her,
I need you,
I'm scared to be with you,
The mama, okay?
Please, please,
You're my mama,
I know, look at him,
He'll be doing it,
Look at that,
Okay, you want?
Okay, let's just go,
Go,
Okay, thanks,
I love you,
Okay,
Everything is going to be okay,
Hi,
I'm scared,
Yes,
Of course you are,
And then you told me that if you touch a baby bird, the
mama bird will not come back if they don't touch them,
That must have been some dream,
Was that?
You kissed me,
You said you kissed me,
Yes,
I heard you in your dream,
I kissed you,
Yeah,
And then the next day I felt crushing guilt,
And I knew somehow that your husband had called me an asshole,
You know, Stephen, we can talk about these feelings apart from your dreams,
I can't help it if in my dreams you always want to kiss me,
What's the difference between going outside on hotel
property when she's sleeping and going all the way home?
And one, I guess I'm just a regular mom making a shitty choice,
And then the other, I'm a straight up shitty mom,
Well, it's not my role to decide whether you should or whether you should not,
No, no, no, no, no,
I shouldn't,
I know I shouldn't,
I shouldn't even leave her for a second,
It is your job to say,
Tell me not to do it,
Tell me what to do,
I don't think you want me to tell you what to do,
You know what to do,
No one will tell me what to do,
I'm supposed to know how to fix this,
I'm supposed to know how to fix her,
What does it you think it's your job to fix?
She has to weigh 50 pounds by next week,
Dr, Spring said that's a gain of 2,5 pounds, right?
Each day is supposed to be 2,500 calories in,
Compensating for her resting rate of 1,800 calories first,
That's got to be at least 80% of each meal for seven days, plus the tube,
And that's if she just lays still all day,
And if it doesn't, then something about not getting
the tube out and reassessing the level of care,
I would like you to get a good night's sleep,
So would I, but I'm asking you a thing,
An actual thing, a problem to fix that I need help with this,
Am I supposed to just sit around and watch her fail?
And this is just going to go on forever?
What do I do?
Okay, that means there's no drinking,
There's no drugs,
There's no,,, Are you listening to me?
Can you hear me?
I'm asking you what I'm supposed to do,
Why don't you like me?
Why don't I like you?
I know you want to answer like this,
Forget it,
That is incredibly unfair,
Why is this so important to you right now?
This is for someone to tell me what to do,
I love it,
I'm going to kiss it,
I'm going to hug it,
Oh my God,
Maybe we should get some more,
That's really nice,
I said don't open the box,
I just want to see him,
He's scratching,
He doesn't like being in the box,
He's trying to get out?
Can you hold it close, please?
And keep it closed,
He's scratching me,
He's supposed to love me,
Close the box,
I can't,
It's funny,
He's getting out,
Hand it to me,
He's going to come out,
Give it to me,
I can't see,
Give it to me,
He thinks he's got the wrong hamster,
Ow,
Shit,
We're going to die,
We're not going to die, but I have to pull over,
Ow,
Shit,
Oh my God,
Shout,
It's out,
Shit,
Holy shit,
Ow,
Oh my God,
It's out,
Where are you putting that thing in?
Put it back in,
Oh my God,
Please,
What am I talking about?
I don't want it,
I don't want it anymore,
Ow,
Hey, hey, hey, hey,
You're fine, okay?
Nobody is hurt,
Let's,,, Take it with you,
Take it with you,
You're right,
Take my hamster,
What are you doing?
Hey, hey, hey,
You're lucky there's no damage,
We don't have to exchange information,
What if my kid is in that car?
You hear her crying, huh?
You scared her to death, you dick,
Hey, mom, it was barely just a tap,
Don't fucking call me, mommy,
She thought we were going to die,
Don't fuck with me about my child's safety,
Huh?
Give me all your information,
What the fuck is that?
That,
Oh,
I love you,
I miss you,
You come back here,
Everything is under control,
We know that I love you,
And I think you're the best,
I'm so proud of you for everything,
And you can do it,
And you're almost all better,
I'm so glad,
I can't stop,
I just love you too much,
It's not like wine,
Hello?
It's Caroline,
Caroline Prim, you're patient,
I'm sorry, it's so late,
Is this an emergency?
Because this is an emergency,
You need to hang up,
It's not an emergency,
I
forgot to call you,
Okay, yes,
Well, that's good,
And,,,
I do feel, though, that I should tell you that
this number is really for emergencies only,
Okay?
You were worried?
I wasn't worried,
I said that you could call me if you couldn't calm down,
Not that you had to call me, but,,, Are you safe, Caroline?
Are you,,, Are you safe?
Okay, well, let's talk about this in session, okay?
It is not your fault,
And I will,,, I'll see you next week,
Well, let me,,, let me check my schedule, and I will text you in time,
Okay?
You're fucking kidding me!
Shit!
Hello?
Want some help with that?
No trick,
Got a knife,
Reading?
A little bit,
Open up,
It's Mommy,
A little bear,
Open up,
Whoa, whoa, whoa,
What the fuck's your problem?
What?
You're obsessed with me or something?
What are you talking about?
I'm flat of yourself,
What?
What are you looking at me?
What?
What do you want?
Come on, you're just sitting outside and by yourself some creep might walk past us,
What creep?
What the fuck do I know?
The lady is creeps all over the place,
Don't call me lady,
My bad, miss,
Don't call me miss,
Just don't,
Man,
Brown,
Yeah,
Slag,
Oh, my God,
Your dottiness,
Housewife,
At this point, I don't even know what to refer to you as,
I'm just going to call you female,
You're crazy fans,
I was going to partake in surfing the web for some things that I'm into,
You catch my drift and just putting it out there,
You're more than welcome to join,
No pressure, just saying,
What kind of stuff?
Is
there like a dark web?
Or you can buy people out of them?
No,
I'm a border person,
But because?
Or someone?
I mean, I guess so,
But I don't come in the dark web to search for that kind of shit,
Places on there where people like show each other
videos of murderers and people that are holding caps,
We changed the subject,
Let's buy drugs,
Let's get some shit, right?
Come on,
What do you want?
I don't know,
Do they have like cocaine or something?
What was the last time you tried cocaine?
What do you mean?
It's a very popular drug,
I like it,
Alright, well, I'm getting Molly so we'll get both,
See the thing is, I don't get paid till next week so I need you to cover me,
Oh, I know,
I see what this is about,
Where are you going?
I'm going back to my room,
Oh, what?
You don't even have a key,
Besides, your daughter's passed out,
Front desk lady's definitely in a coma by now,
Calm down,
Sit down,
Let's order,
Put it on my credit card, I guess,
What?
No,
The 400,
I can put it on my credit card,
No, no,
See, man, it can't be traced back to you,
It has to be a nine,
Oh, and how do you pay for the stuff?
Alright, what we can do is we can go to the pharmacy or something real quick and
put it on like one of those gift cards or maybe
you got Bitcoin or crypto or something like that,
Oh, I don't have any of that stuff,
And I can't get in a car and leave my daughter alone in the middle of the night,
You leave your daughter alone all the time,
No, I don't,
That's just if I go in the field,
I literally see you leave your daughter alone myself with my own two eyes,
Why are you?
Are you stalking me or something?
Because I'm a citizen,
I mean, it takes a village, right?
What?
Sweetie!
Lock me out!
Sweetie!
Open the door!
Little bear, open the door!
Just wheel the machine over and open the door!
I'm not sure how we could talk about anything
helpful if you wouldn't even look me in the eye,
You asked me for this extra session,
Yeah, I can't,
He must be so mad at me,
Mad at me?
Oh, because you called me?
No, no, no,
I'm not mad at you,
Let's move on,
Please,
You have a daughter,
Why didn't you ever tell me?
Well, this isn't about me,
And now I know that you know,
Do you know?
I don't know,
You need to tell me,
It's not your fault,
But it is mine,
Okay, you know, Caroline, I think that it may be time that we,,,
that we consult with someone about some medication for you,
Well, I can't take medication and breastfeeding,
Do you want me to kill my baby?
Of course not,
I just think if a doctor thinks it could be beneficial then maybe we need to
prioritize your,,,
your health over breastfeeding,
Just right now,
You know, you need to take care of yourself so you can take care of Riley,
I have to go to the bathroom,
Well, we only have 15 minutes left,
I have to go now,
Okay, what would you,,, can you wait till after the session now?
Okay, okay,
Caroline, excuse me,
Caroline?
Caroline, excuse me,
Caroline, I need you to go help me out here,
Caroline!
Okay, okay,
Caroline!
He's going to be here on this session,
So my patient, she has his baby and she said she was going to the bathroom and
then she left the baby with me and I,,, she's gone,
I'm with a patient,
Please, I need your help,
I really need your help,
I'm with a patient,
Also, I'm not your supervisor, this is a pressure issue,
This is not a treatment issue,
Joking, this is an emergency,
Whatever's happening in here is not as important as what if I'm going from here,
I need your help,
Goodbye,
This is an emergency,
You can go back later,
I really need your help,
Hello?
Yes, hello,
I am your wife's psychotherapist and she left
today in the middle of her appointment and I,,,
Caroline's here,
Yes, this is your wife's therapist,
She left in the middle of her appointment today,
You got to stop,
I have no idea what you're even talking about,
Who is this?
Is your wife named Caroline Cren?
And you are,,, your baby's name is Riley,
And you are,,, Okay, yes,
That wife doesn't have a therapist,
Okay, well, she has been my patient at the Center for Psychological Arts in Montauk
since she was about six months pregnant with Riley,
And today,,, Well, this is news to me,
Well, whether you knew that she was my patient or not,
what I'm trying to say to you is this is an emergency,
And I really,,, she left your baby here with me,
And I need you to come and pick him up,
What do you mean?
What do you mean what I mean?
She's not answering her phone,
She's probably in the bathroom by a fucking vending machine,
Okay, I suggest that you call her,
Maybe she would pick up if it was you,
I'm going to text you my address to come and get the baby,
Jesus Christ,
I'm sure she's okay,
I cannot even believe that,
I'm sure she's okay,
You know, it's so much more difficult of her,
Okay, well, she probably needs to get some space,
I'm going to text you my address,
So, you could come and get her,
Listen to me,
I'm at work right now,
I am at work right now,
That's why she's supposed to be taking care of the fucking baby, so I can't talk,
Okay?
Here's to you what I'm going to do,
I'm going to text you my address,
Okay, well, I can't do that,
And I'm just very concerned about your wife,
This is an emergency,
And she's not talking twice now,
This isn't my emergency,
I'm not the one who lost my fucking life,
I need you to come down here and get her baby immediately,
And if you're not here within a half an hour, I'm going to call the police,
I will text you my address,
Thank you very much,
May I come in?
I'm expecting a patient,
I know you're supposed to end,
Would you mind waiting in my office down the hall just a few moments?
Your office?
Who are you, the boss?
No, just another therapist,
I have an office,
It's down the hall,
The door is open,
You'll see it,
This is my time,
She's mine right now,
You can't make me wait,
Okay?
This is an emergency situation,
You can either wait in my office or you need to leave the building entirely,
A baby?
Is that your baby?
You have a baby?
That means you guys have a baby together?
Okay,
This situation does not concern you,
Okay?
Make a choice,
Okay,
I'll be in your office, but I won't wait that long,
Can you believe that I got talked into getting fucking hamster after all of that?
My God, I,,,
She's right,
I really am so stretchable,
It's disgusting,
You know, when I was in medical school, I had to do a stint in the medical
experiments lab, and we were testing the efficacy of a drug on rats,
Well, I,,, So,,,
And I learned if we take the rats and when drop them in this guillotine thingy,
chop their heads off and eventually peel the skin back,
And then look at their brains under a microscope,
I just,,,
I'm so curious about the process with that,
The rats would claw and bite you,
When you put your hand in the cage, they'd pick them up,
So they gave us these steel chainmail gloves,
German,
Beautiful,
So you put on the glove and you put your hand in the cage,
The rats would just attach themselves to the glove,
Claim for dear life, you know,
And then when you got to the guillotine box, you had to shake them off,
Really shake them,
I was always worried that the rat would get hurt when it's hit its head on guillotine,
But their brains were always fine,
And they looked down on microscope,
Oh,
The rodents are resilient creatures,
Yeah,
I'll tell Steve in your sessions to cancel them,
Take care of this,
I love you,
Just tell me, was she suicidal, homicidal?
No,
Though she was obsessed with protecting the baby,
And yeah, she wouldn't hurt the baby,
And she didn't talk about suicide,
She wouldn't abandon my life,
She just didn't abandon him,
Right,
Well, you know, I mean,,, I don't know,
Forever,
Is that it?
I have another patient waiting for you,
I might use my hallway,
It's fine,
It's more common, you think?
Woman tries to report the responsibilities,
Everybody gets all upset,
And they come back with their tails,
There are no legs,
Okay,
Thank you,
Hi,
It's me again,
Your tenant from 2012, Anquan Unit 1,
You know, the one with the giant fucking hole in the ceiling,
Your repairs guy ran off, and it's getting worse,
And I want to know why you're doing nothing and why you're happy for my
daughter and I to be staying at a far past full
of freaks while I continue to pay your rent,
And I have a very, very, very important patient that is a prominent lawyer,
and I am not afraid,,,
I was after some visa gift cards of what denominations do you have?
Do you have a minute to talk before the children come?
Sure,
Good evening,
So, I've noticed that you still haven't made the appointment for family therapy,
like we discussed the other morning,
It's not,
It's just been so crazy at work,
Right,
So, I can't stress to you enough how important this is,
I'm on your side here,
Yes,
Yes, I understand,
We need her off the machine,
Yes, so do I,
Okay,
I'm going to be frank,
We need her off of it as soon as possible for her to remain here,
And to do that, she needs to gain faster,
Okay, well, but,,, But we have until next week, right?
The 50 pound goal,
No,
The way things are going, she's not going to make that goal,
What are you saying?
We do weigh-ins every morning,
She's not going to make the goal,
Because the goal you said was impossible,
We were set up to fail,
It's unrealistic,
We're going to have to reassess the level of care,
What does that mean?
Well, we can discuss it in our meeting,
You know what I would love and think would be so good is
if we could get a date on the calendar with a surgery,
A concrete goal that we can all work towards,
It's not a surgery,
The two probable?
Well, a procedure?
Whatever you call it,
It's not a procedure either,
When it's time to remove it, the doctor just pulls it out,
Pull it out,
Yeah, it just slides out,
They could just really just pull it out?
Yeah, it's that simple,
But what happens to the hole?
It closes up on its own,
How?
It's kind of like when you get a cut on your tongue,
It wants to close up,
Oh, hi,
Is James here?
For you?
I'm his neighbor,
I'm there,
In that room there,
He's a value,
Oh, do you know when he'll be back?
I just have something to give him,
Give it to me,
I'll see you get it,
No, no,
I have to give it to him myself,
It's a,,,
It's a value,
A value?
Yeah,
A value,
How
do you want to get just your interest?
The
intensity builds up in your mind,
That's okay,
Rather than trying to control anything,
That's fine,
The density stops,
It's here,
Okay, we gotta be quick because I have to get back, but,,, I just,,,
I just had a show somewhere,
What's going on in here?
Okay,
So, the room is filled with plastic tarp everywhere,
Nice,
So, is this your camera?
Who told you?
The fucking ceiling fell down,
What the fuck is that?
That's it,
That's the whole,,, That's why I'm at the hotel,
That's why you're staying at the fucking hotel?
Oh my God,
Come on,
You could have slept on your couch for a couple of weeks,
Why didn't you?
Look at it,
It's been two months and I refuse to fix it,
There's dust and mold everywhere,
Y'all,
what is up here?
I think I've been renovating forever,
It's had a pipe burst,
Oh shit,
It's right there,
There you go,
I did,
So, that's, you know, the thing, the breast thing,
What?
And I think it's over here,
I think maybe,
That's why I wanted to come to see it,
You need guidance with that shit,
You can't just be doing that,
What are you doing?
I mean, God, do you, sis?
What do you mean, you should have come to see it?
Look,
Come see,
Man, my cousin Craig is a general contractor,
He knows somebody that knows somebody that makes this shit,
Yeah, you know,
You look like you got someone out for it,
There's no culture,
James?
Everybody settle,
Hi,
All right,
So, the topic today is something that's so fundamental,
It's actually a little silly to talk about, but it is so important to your
child's recovery and more than that, to your ability to help your child recover,
Can anybody guess what it is?
Blame,
And anybody?
James,
Thank you,
So, as parents, a lot of times we look too closely at ourselves, right?
And we start to ask ourselves, is this my fault?
Could I have done anything differently?
What if this?
What if that?
But all it does is create a thinking trap,
And that does not help your child,
So what I'd like to do if we look at,,,
Melanie, do you want to put some words to your feelings?
Yeah,
I just think it is all my fault,
Do you have something to say to Melanie?
No,
Never mind,
Don't mind me,
No, I want to hear what you have to say,
You keep telling us that it is in our fault,
Yeah,
But it is,
Excuse me?
I mean, if it is in our fault, then we're really super fucked,
We're just walking around pretending we have power to change something that we
don't even understand because it's not our fault,
But we know how to change it even though it's not our fault,
This is actually good,
Because now we have a lot to,,, No, no, no,
I know,
I think this,
I have a fault,
No, no, no,
It's our fault,
This is fair, but it is our fault,
I mean, that's how I see it,
That's what the whole thing is,
Is there a fault?
Stop and sit down,
No, no, no,
I don't want to talk about it,
I already know it, and I don't have to meet you because I know what you're doing,
I need you to sit down,
She's failed, and then I've failed, because you set us up to fail?
No one has tried hard,
It's a doubt,
Nobody,
Okay, and you should know that Dr, Spring, you and
me can better rest of my life or you can sit down,
It's a doubt,
Every night, until I die,
Do not leave that door,
And none of this is helping any of us,
None of this,
Come back,
What are you calling?
Is there a bad group going on right now?
I couldn't sit there,
I'm in the car,
I'll pick her up later,
But I can't stay there,
What do you mean you couldn't sit there?
I can't do it,
She's got to get better, but she's not going to make the goal,
And I don't know what's going to happen now,
But you need to get back in there,
The hole is getting bigger,
What's that?
A hole?
No, no,
The apartment hole,
The goddamn hole,
Well, I can't,
You just keep tabs on her,
You guys gone for a week,
There's no one working on it,
What?
A week?
What are we going to mention?
I'm telling you now,
It's very complicated to explain over the phone,
No, no, no, no, no, no,
Just, just, just,,,
Send me pictures,
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no,
Send me more pictures,
I'm not going back,
I'm never going back there,
I talked to her,
What are you talking about?
And he's so full of shit,
He's not doing anything,
And by the way, I think he has a deal with the motel,
Because,,, Oh, okay,
Stop, stop, stop, stop,
Okay,
Let me just get this straight,
You aren't going into the program anymore,
And you aren't going into our apartment anymore?
That's right,
Hi,
How do you expect anything to get back to normal then?
It won't,
What are you talking about?
It won't!
Are you,,,
Are you in your right mind now?
Are you done?
I'm sorry, there's a woman missing,
What?
Who?
What are you talking about?
Who's missing?
She's missing,
She left and she stopped picking up her phone,
No, no, no, no, no,
Let's take this deep breath,
No, no, no, no, no,
I can't talk to you about this,
Why don't you go back and talk to a girl?
Just talk to my therapist later,
It's fine,
Everything's fine,
Every day,
Every day?
Come on,
Hold up,
No sitting idle in vehicles,
Please move the car or yourself,
I have a right to sit in my car without you harassing me,
What?
Yeah,
Are you talking to somebody?
Yeah, this is creepy asshole who's harassing me,
Every fucking day,
He harasses me, he's obsessed with me,
He's back at my window wanting something,
You're going to leave the parking lot or get out of your car,
Oh my God, are you serious?
Oh my God,
Call the police,
Yeah, yeah, yeah,
Call the police,
Yeah, I'm going to call the police right now,
I never want to see you here again,
Oh my God,
You're harassed,
This is harassment,
Anything in particular keeping you silent right now?
Actually, I want to be silent,
I'm just keeping you silent,
I think,,, There's something about you,
What I mean,,,
I mean, I pay for your time,
Right?
Oh, I can,,,
I mean, a lot of that time and,,,
Do, like, here without you talking,
Well, you did not have to come here for that,
Go lie on your own couch,
Do you wish I lied on my own couch instead of coming here?
All I'm saying is you chose not to be alone,
Oh, I'm alone,
No, you're not alone,
I'm here,
No, you aren't,
No, really,
What we can do,,, No, I just not,
Seriously,
Okay,
What?
Didn't I tell you that I was pregnant before?
Like, I've been pregnant twice,
I never tell anyone this,
And this is when Charles and I were first dating, and, um,,,
I got an abortion right away,
Like, I took a pregnancy test, and then just went to a random clinic the next day,
I got the surgical kind with the vacuum thing,
And it hurt really badly,
Like, the nurse held my hand,
And for some reason, I didn't know it was that badly,
It would hurt, but it really did,
Yeah, it was almost 20 years ago,
I have a kid at college by now if I haven't done that,
,,,
Maybe I got rid of the problem,
I can't breathe,
You don't get it,
You don't see,
You love to tell me,
I don't get it,
What is it you think I don't get?
What is it?
You're so sure I can't help you with?
I'm one of those people that's not supposed to be a mom,
I'm not a mom,
I'm not,
This isn't supposed to be what it's like,
This isn't it,
This can't be it,
You say something!
Not everyone can do it,
I can't,
Do you have any?
Do you have a kid?
What is it?
Hello!
Why won't you talk to me?
Why won't you help me?
I know what you're doing,
And I can't have it,
What am I doing?
This isn't working,
What do you mean?
We can't see each other anymore,
I got here early,
You'll have to wait outside,
Look, I don't know why you wanted to answer yourself, but Dr, Spring called and,
,,
It's Dr, Spring,
You cannot bring your daughter here for further treatment until we have them,
You are too much,
You are,,,
Hey, thanks for checking in,
In case you forgot, my wife still happens to be fucking missing,
You know, I don't know what kind of know,
You mentioned the aphorism from the Bible about a middle stone,
What do you say with that?
It's better to tie a stone around your neck and throw yourself in it,
It's even cause someone to stumble,
Stumble,
Alright, make sure I'm getting that,
Better tie a millstone around your neck and throw
yourself in the sea rather than get involved,
Cause someone to stumble,
Stumble,
Cause someone,
,,
What are your thoughts?
And?
Hello?
Yeah,
Mm-hmm,
This is totally unbelievable, right?
It's completely unbelievable,
All of it,
I don't care what she said,
I'm telling you,
I had a work emergency and I couldn't say I had to leave,
It isn't my fault,
You know, I came right back to pick you up when I was supposed to,
Like, I always do,
I just couldn't say for the group,
But, you know, I work with a lot of very sick people, honey,
And sometimes they are sick in a different way than you,
But doctors, please,,, I told you, I don't care what she said,
I'm your mother,
She loves me, though,
She said so,
She said that,
She don't love us,
I can't,
She has no right to tell you that,
She's a doctor,
She doesn't have her right, though,
You know, I don't think we need the program anymore,
I'm better?
Yeah, I think,
Maybe,
Yeah, maybe we,,, We just do it,
You and me,
Well, what happened?
Uh, so many wonderful things,
You would,,,
You'd be able to get the tube out and you could go back to school and you'd be
eating everything delicious in the whole world,
I mean, wouldn't that be great?
Do what?
Do something better,
You want me to have a shoot?
Well,,,
I think maybe,
You know, and,,, And if not, then we'll just do it,
You know, you're better than you were and Dr, Springs has a boss of us,
Yeah,
Oh, I'm sorry, but I don't matter,
Please, don't do matters,
I already said that,
What?
Most things,
Come down and don't,
Thanks for checking on me,
Oh, you would not believe the thing I have,
You know, that thing just left me all alone abandoning his
spooky-ass apartment with my phone sticking out my leg,
I called you in hell,
No big deal,
You know, this is your experiment as well,
I had to get back here to my kid,
Oh, mother the fucking, yeah, I almost forgot,
I don't know,
You know, what exactly am I supposed to do with sugar and cocaine?
Flush it,
Okay,
Yeah, it must be nice,
Why don't you do any crushes?
Fuck them crushes,
It's you,
You're here,
I hope it's okay,
I accidentally followed you this one time and you live here,
Are you okay?
I just,,,
I had to get out of there,
Okay, I understand,
So let's do it,
Do you really, really understand?
I think so,
No, this is a mistake,
This is a mistake because I thought,,,
I thought that you understood and that I wouldn't even have fun,
Let's calm down,
I think what we should do is get in the car
right now but straight to the emergency room,
We're at the hospital?
Yes,
Why?
I'm staying at my place,
Why?
We don't feel ready to go home,
But what about your daughter?
My daughter?
Where is your daughter?
She's upstairs,
She's sleeping,
I don't want to go to the hospital,
I want you to help me,
Help me,
I'm trying to help you,
No, you don't understand,
You don't see it,
Jesus,
They look at us and there is nothing there,
You need to calm down,
No,
You need to calm down,
No, I am fine,
Okay, I am fine,
But I,,, You don't know,
Just breathe,
You don't know,
Caroline, take a breath,
Just breathe and start breathing,
If this is an emergency, hang up and call 9-1-1,
Otherwise, call back during normal business hours,
Okay, call me back,
Call me back tonight, okay?
Okay,
I made it better,
Hello?
Oh,
Why are you here?
Are you okay?
When did you get here?
Why are you here?
Where is she?
She's asleep,
With the babysitter?
Yes,
Look, I just,,,
I couldn't think,
I couldn't function,
I couldn't do anything,
All I was doing was thinking about you and her and the apartment,
So, I had to come back,
I was scared,
I wanted to help,
Wait, wait, wait,
I,,,
What?
She's got to know how to talk,
I'm sorry,
Did you look at it?
The hall?
Did you see it?
Did you see anything?
Oh, yeah,
No, it,,,
It was not fixed,
No, it's fixed,
Okay,
Okay, I think,,, I think we should just,,, Let's just go,
I just don't see how it got so bad,
I don't think it's so bad,
Are you trying to blame me?
No, I'm not blaming you,
I just,,, I just want to get out of here,
It just,,, I want to get out of here,
Do you love me?
Hey, hey, wait, wait,
Wait, wait, wait,
What?
What's the rush?
Oh, shit,
You were the one who was rushed to get back here,
I don't want to be here anymore,
We are here,
All right?
Let's relieve the babysitter,
I'm exhausted,
I want to get to sleep,
I'm excited to see her,
Even if she's sleeping,
I know, but why don't you go downstairs and get us some wine or something?
And I can relieve the sitter,
And then you can come back home,
What's going on?
There's something going on,
Open the door,
Me?
I don't have a key,
Right,
Yeah,
Okay,
Oh, God,
Don't tell me you left her here without me,
No, no, no,
Come on,
No, no,
I have a key,
I think I am,
Hey,
I'm, uh, my God,
I'm Charles,
Nice to meet you,
You must be the babysitter,
Babysitter,
And James, right?
Jamie,
Right,
Well, thank you for, uh,,, Oh, hell no,
I'm not doing this shit with you, girl,
I'm doing what?
What are you talking about?
Not a fucking babysitter doing it,
Excuse me?
Your daughter woke up and was crying,
Scared shitless,
So I pounded on the fucking door until she finally opened it,
Had to tell her I was in front of your wife,
Bro, it took me forever to get her to go to sleep,
And by the way, I think it was a bad day,
She had some shit booze in front of her,
Hey, okay, okay,
Hold this for a while,
Who the fuck are you?
What the hell are you doing in my room?
Your room,
It's my wife,
That's my child,
My room,
I just fucking told you who I was,
And you need to ask your wife,
I got this cast on my leg,
He's the babysitter,
He's not the babysitter,
He just told me he's not the babysitter,
Who the fuck is he?
Can we just go inside?
She can hear everything,
What are you saying?
Why, her resume is fine,
And the tuition is outside of her mind,
I ain't in this shit, man,
Baby, it's coming back,
How do you think that is?
Hey, hey, look at, yes,
Hi, daddy's home,
Oh my gosh, look at you,
You're beautiful,
I'm glad you're coming back,
Because Dr, Spring said I do,
Oh, look,
She's crying,
Wes, what are you saying?
Look, no tumor,
What?
The tumor is garbage now,
I can go back to school,
Is that daddy?
I just,,, What's going on?
What did you do?
What did you,
,,
Mommy?
I'll be better,
I promise,
I'll be better,