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[keyboard clicking]
[eerie music]
- Cool, Okay, compose yourself,
Okay,
Greetings everyone, I,,,
Greetings everyone, I'm Anya, Whoa,
Greetings everyone, my name,,,
Greetings everyone,
Hi, I'm, no, Hi, I'm Anya, Mind, No, greetings, greetings,
Greetings,
Okay,
Greetings everyone, I'm Anya,
Welcome to Mind Body Spirit,
Mind Body Spirit is so much more than a fitness channel,
It is a journey to self discovery,
and aligning our mind, body, and spirit
is the closest we can get to our truest selves,
But in order to make that discovery,
we've gotta be willing to take risks,
So get ready to step outta your comfort zone,
Go for it, Be brave,
Don't become a lost soul floating through the void, Woo,
Like me, before my morning coffee,
[chuckling]
My grandmother gave me this house in her will,
She passed away about a year ago,
And I never really got to meet her,
Didn't really know her that well,
But, you know, it really felt like a,
the universe telling me to make a change in my life,
So that's what I did, I moved out to California,
I left my old life behind, Yes, thank you,
And I took a risk and,,,
so can you,
I promise, if you stick with me,
then we will go to places you never imagine,
Shit,
I promise, if you stick with me,
then we will go to places that you can never imagine,
We will recharge our minds, reclaim our bodies,
because our bodies are the places
that our spirits call home,
You ready?
Today, we are going to dive right into a balancing posture,
So, we're going to meet in Savasana,
No, no, Tadasana,
♪ Tadasana
Meaning in Tadasana, standing posture,
we're going to root our feet into the ground,
lift one knee up to the heart, stretch all the way back,
squeeze those inner thighs, engage that core,
And if you discover
that you are a little bit limited in flexibility,
don't let that hold you back, just go with the flip,
Now, if you start to lose your balance,
which will probably happen,
you know, just get right back up,
Like my friend Kenzi says, "Practice make powerful,"
Okay, I guess I need some practice here too,,,
Shit, Ow!
Damn it!
Stupid,
You gotta do it, You gotta do it, You gotta do it, Anya,
No way,
That's definitely a door,
[grunting]
[door creaking]
Fuck it,
Oh,,,
So, welcome to my grandma's hidden pantry,
[Anya coughs and clears throat]
I will just put this down here on the weird candle bread,
Okay, that's weird,
[Anya panting]
Oh, Jesus, [light bulb explodes]
Nope, I guess not,
[Anya panting]
Yikes,
Whoa,
What the fuck?
Oh, geez!
Oh, Jesus, fuck!
Okay,
[clanging]
Hello?
[Anya shrieks] Shit,
Verasha,
"For my Anya,"
[speaking Russian]
Greetings everyone, welcome back,
The passage-
The passage that I was just reading to you
was written to me by my grandmother, Verasha,
I was never allowed to meet her, My mom never let me,
Family drama,
I, I never knew that she was a teacher, a healer like me,
'Cause it runs in our blood,
This house is the place that her spirit called home,
I guess I just,
I never realized how much of her was still here,
Hi grandma,
So she dedicated this journal to me, I don't know,
She wanted somebody in our family to know what she did,
where she went,
She spent her lifetime
reconnecting with her Slavic heritage, my heritage,
collecting rituals like this,
A lot of it is in Russian,
She translated some of it
and then phoneticized some other passages for me,
"The path to self-discovery is paved with doubt,
But every step you take brings you closer
to who you really are,
To not be afraid in this journey, in this life,
you are not alone,
Whenever you are lost, you can find yourself here,"
I wish you knew how much those words meant to me,
How much she's inspired me,
I mean, she just, she experienced so much,
I just,,,
I wish,,,
I wish I could be like her,
And someday I will,
But right now, I am here with you,
So let's get moving, shall we?
We're going to start in a balancing posture,
Don't be afraid, I am right here with you,
Root your feet into the ground,
float one knee up to your heart,
and kick it back behind you
as you lengthen through your spine,
And if you fall, you know, just get back up, right?
It's called practice for a reason,
Woo, Alright, hold here for a couple of deep breaths in,
[deep exhale]
Digging into that heel,
[deep exhale]
One more, In,
[deep exhale]
And as you come back to your feet,
don't just plop down, float your knee back to your heart,
and then let it drop back down to the ground,
And that's it, You did it, Great job, everyone,
Thank you so much for joining me,
Thank you for listening to me,
and I really hope we can really become one mind,
one body, one spirit together,
Yeah,
Cool,
- This is KenziFit, You ready to sweat?
[upbeat music]
If you wanna unlock your body,
you have to unleash your mind,
Don't listen to that voice inside you that says you can't,
because you can,
Why meditate when you can "sweatitate,"
[upbeat music continues]
Only on KenziFit,
[computer dialing tone]
- Hi baby,
- Hi, Lenka,
- Anya, you know, I hate that name,
Your grandmother always called me that,
- Hi, Lenny,
- Come on, we can do better than that,
- How about "mom?" - Sure,
- That was fun, Did you call me just to give me a hard time?
- You told me to call you once I got settled,
- So you're settled, Is this news?
- Mom,,, - I'm just asking,
- You're so far from home, No friends, no family,
- Grandma's family,
- Verasha is dead, Anya,
Boris! Enough! [dog barking]
Okay, fine, Your grandmother was family, but,,,
- Go on,
- She wasn't the woman you think she was,
Boris! Boris! [dog barking]
- You know, you've always told me about who she wasn't,
but you've never actually told me who she was,
You never told me she was spiritual,
- I can't tell you about a woman who was never around,
That's a pretty heavy pour, sweetheart,
Verasha only came back when she needed something,
All she did was take and take and take,
And now she's taking you from me,
- Jesus, mom, she hasn't taken me from you,
If anything, she's given me a place
to finally figure myself out, you know?
- And you can't do that here at home?
I, I can move my things out of your room,
- I'm not coming home, okay?
I've literally spent all that I have just to get out here,
- Anya, I know that,
I just wanna make sure that you're safe, that you're okay,
- I'm okay,
- Good, I just wanna help you,
- Yeah, well then you should have,
[dog barking]
- This fucking dog,
Boris, you get out of here right now!
Asshole! Quick!
- Did you ever think that maybe grandma
felt like she had to leave to find herself?
- And why would you say that?
- Because she said so in her journal,
- I see, Is that what you believe?
- It's, it's not about what I believe,
That's what I have to do, That's what I am doing,
- Anya, I just, I just don't want you to waste your life
obsessing over your grandmother,
- Obsessing? I am not obsessing, mom,
- That's not what I meant, baby,
You just, you get so lost in things,
And I am not there to pull you out,
- I know what I'm doing,
- Of course, you do,
But listen, if you wanna find yourself, go find yourself,
Go anywhere, Just not, not there,
None of us knew that place existed,
- Yeah, well maybe she didn't want you to know,
Maybe all of this was always just for me,
Maybe she saw herself in me
in a way that she could never see in you,
- Oh, Anya, I promise you,
you are nothing like her,
- Goodbye, Lenka, - Anya-
- Hey guys!
Oh my God, I'm sorry, Reflex, - That's okay,
- Do your thing, girl,
- Yeah, no, totally, No worries,
Okay,
Welcome everyone, I'm Anya,
And today we have a very special guest,
This is Kenzi Duffert,
- Oh, I, I don't use that name professionally,
- Fuck! Oh, I'm sorry- - No, that's okay,
- I'm so sorry, - That's totally cool,
- I'm sorry, - Don't worry about it,
- Thank you for doing this with me again,
- Yeah, of course, chigger,
Your mom said that you were really struggling,
so I'm happy to help,
- Yes, thank you, - Yeah,
- Okay,
Welcome everyone, I am Anya,
and today we have a very special guest,
This is KenziFit, - Hey guys,
Kenzi and I grew up together
and we recently reconnected when I moved out here,
And I'm just so excited to partner with her on today's video
and to really learn about how she's connecting
with her fan base,
- I'll be guiding you
through my 10 minute total body takeover strength flow,
a little bit of yoga, a little bit of lifting,
and a lot of sweat,
So get ready,
Okay, how do you normally kick things off?
- Um, well, let's, I don't know,
I kind of keep things pretty loose, you know,
and it's all about the discovery process,
All my things are about-
- Ah ha, So how do you kick things off?
- Process,
Well, usually I start talking about how I'm feeling and-
- Okay, - Yeah,
- First tip,
- Right,
- No one gives a shit about how you feel,
People only care about themselves,
They want structure, not a therapy session,
So you gotta be fearless, - Fearless,
Um, you're also going to want to build your brand,
Something that helps you stand out,
you know, find your thing,
- Oh, um,,,
What about, what about this?
- Oh, God, - This is my grandma's,
- And she was like collecting all these rituals
from our homeland and it's,,,
- Um, I mean, that might be a little too obscure,
People want things that they know,
but like with a little extra personality,
So remix some yoga flows, pepper in some Sanskrit,
- Yeah, I know,
I just, I don't really feel comfortable teaching a language
that I don't actually speak, you know?
- Fake it till you make it,
Listen, people don't really care
as long as you seem authentic,
- But this is authentic,
- No one wants to read old books,
Look, you wanna be successful, right?
- Yeah, Yes,
- So, how many videos have you dropped so far?
- I just started recording them,
I was gonna, I was gonna release them all when I'm ready,
- Okay, so you haven't put anything out yet?
- Well, no, I just, I didn't want it to seem like bullshit,
I wanted it to be true to me,
- Okay, well, you're not gonna get any views
if you don't have anything to watch,
Oh girl, that is not even a tip, That's just a fact,
- Okay,
- Oh shit, I have to teach a class in like an hour,
Can we do this?
- Yeah, absolutely,
- Like now-ish, - Okay, Yep, Cool,
- Namaste, bitches,
We're getting started with two hand front race swings,
Thirty seconds starts now,
[deep exhale] And up!
And up!
Keep that core tight!
Feeling the burn, Anya, - Oh yeah,
- Yeah, this is intense, - Yes, Get it, girl,
- Woo, Wow, - Woo,
- Up and up! Squeeze your glutes,
- Squeezing, - Up to the sky,
- Smile through the pain!
- Okay,
Hi everyone, Ugh,
Hey, hi, Greetings, Namaste, whatever,
Everyone has this voice inside of themselves
that really feels like their truth, right?
But then there's all these other voices
that are telling you that that truth is a lie,
And,,,
maybe they're right,
but it's really hard to know which voice to listen to,
But the most important thing is that we make space
for ourselves to listen, right?
So in the interest of an open mind,
we are going to do a mindful meditation,
Find yourself in Sukhasana,
You know what? Nah, forget that,
Just sit however you want, but make sure you're comfortable,
Feel yourself connecting to the earth, [deep exhale]
Lengthen your spine, Soften your eyes,
Inhale into your belly,
[deep inhale]
Exhale, Let it all go,
[deep exhale]
Inhale into your belly,
[deep inhale]
Exhale, Let it go, [deep exhale]
And in, [eerie music]
And out,
And in,
And as you continue this rhythm,
clear your mind of the chatter,
Quiet every voice, but your own,
And in,
And out,
And in,
And out,
Keep it going, Inhale in,
Exhale, Let it go,
One final breath in,
Exhale, let it all go, [deep exhale]
[Anya coughing]
Shit,
Hello,
And sometimes your meditations get cut short,
but you know, that's okay,
because it's all a part of the journey, right?
And I don't know about you,
but I really felt like I was finally given the chance
to listen to myself,
So I hope you did too,
- [Kenzi] Hey guys, KenziFit here
with my daily dose of damn good advice,
Never be afraid of how powerful you really are,
Discover the power you have inside you,
Don't wait for the universe to give you a sign,
Discover it for yourself,
Click the link below to sign up for my new discover-
[crickets chirping] [dog barking in the distance]
[door slams]
[eerie music]
- Whenever you are lost, you can find yourself here,
Last night I realized
Verasha was trying to tell me something,
Everything that I was looking for,
my path, my answers, they are all right here,
This is a traditional Slavic ritual
called "prisoyedineniye" or "the joining,"
It is a month long daily practice
curated by my ancestors generations ago
meant to join the soul back to the body,
the ultimate spiritual centering,
My grandmother, she saw how this culture takes
and takes and takes and never gives anything back,
So she found something in the history of our people,
I know that these videos started out as one thing,
but I truly believe that they can be so much more,
I don't know how to speak Sanskrit,
I am an influencer imposter living a lie,
And I don't know how far I'll have to go
to start living my truth, but,,,
this feels like the first step,
- For years, I was a slave to caffeine,
Working on Wall Street,
I would drink like 12 espressos a day,
But when I went on a business retreat in Bali,
I tried Chamisal tea, [relaxing music]
It fueled my mind and my body
in a way I had never felt before,
And I knew it was my job
to bring that experience to the world,
So I quit corporate life
and turned my liquid capital into liquid dreams,
This is RthNrgy,
a sacred blend of earth's greatest treasures,
- The hollowing,
the cleansing,
the many,
the expansion,
These are the core pillars of,,,
the joining,
I know this might all seem a little strange,
but, it's like I said, discovery is all about taking risks,
We gotta be fearless, right?
We're never gonna know how far we can go
until we go there,
[distant thunder rumbling]
The first step to finding yourself is finding your voice,
♪ La la la la la
[laughing] No, I'm sorry, Ignore me,
Was a joke, don't ignore me,
Hey guys, welcome to day one of our practice,
We're going to be kicking off our journey with,,,
the hollowing,
It is an incantation, a guided vocal chant,
meant to bring the voice back to the body,
and really open us up for what's about to come,
I know it might feel a little bit silly,
but you know, just trust your voice,
listen to your voice, love your voice,
I will be following Verasha and you will be following me,
Everyone inhale in,
[deep inhale]
♪ I am
♪ Oh, I am
♪ I am
♪ Oh, I am
♪ I am
♪ Oh, I am
[creaking]
Did you hear that?
Well, I'm sure my neighbors heard something, [chuckling]
Well done, everyone, That was great, Really awesome,
I hope you take your voice with you
into the rest of your day,
And until then,,,
[deep inhale and exhale]
Day three, y'all,
Like Verasha says, "Strong body, strong mind,
Find the shape that fits you,"
Verasha's recipe, [blending roaring]
a healthy body is a receptive body,
If this is as far as you can go, that's great,
It's only day six,
Just push yourself a little further each time,
And remember,
make space in your body,
make space for your spirit,
Oh shit, Cheers,
I am receiving this,
[chair scratching on the wooden floor]
The cleansing,
So, now that we've hollowed out a space within us,
we are going to clear out all the crap
that's stuck down inside,
So the next phase of our practice
is going to be kind of like a detoxifying purge,
It's really all about getting rid of anything
and everything that no longer serves us,
Don't freak out,
This is a very, very common holistic practice,
It is called a throat cleanse, You can look it up,
It's kind of like a nasal cleanse, which I've done before,
Not a big deal,
All you do is you take a string
and you swallow it on down in your throat,
and then you take it back out,
And that's it,
Okay, here we go, We're gonna do it,
[gasping]
[eerie music]
[gagging]
[Anya vomiting]
[heavy breathing]
[vomiting]
[eerie music]
[creaking]
[door creaking]
Yikes,
Well, that was rough,
I definitely feel lighter,
Spiritually, not so much,
but physically, you better believe it,
I know I talked a big game about really taking risks
to discover yourself,
but I think the only thing that I discovered
is that I can keep throwing up
even after my stomach is completely empty,
Maybe I missed something,
Maybe I did it wrong, I don't know,
Maybe I'm not ready for this,
So today
I am going to stick with what I know,
A classic seated vinyasa flow,
So find a comfortable seat on your sits bones,
and,,,
lengthen through your spine,
lifting away from the ground
out through the crown of your head,
Lifting, lifting, lifting,
Lifting,
lifting, lifting,
lifting,
[distorted eerie noise]
Jesus,
Okay, so something just happened there,
I don't know what it was,
Maybe it was just a feeling,
but it definitely felt powerful,
And listen, yeah, maybe I am crazy to keep going with this,
Definitely not not crazy,
I have discovered something powerful in these pages,
in this practice, something beyond me,
That is where Verasha went,
and that is where she wants me to go,
And I, I've gotta be fearless in order to get there,
It,,,
Otherwise, I'll just end up right back where I started
and,,,
I hope you can understand,
and I hope you're still with me,
[blender roaring]
[eerie music]
Hi,
Right, day 12,
the next part of our practice is called "the many,"
But there's only half a page here,
It's like a poem or a riddle or something,
"The many selves share only one mind,
And you can't see the truth when your thoughts are blind,"
Blind eye,
Come on, Anya, get burned,
[glass shattering]
Oh, geez,
Okay, so, the many,
The journal says that this is a remedy for the cleansing,
Kind of like an herbal elixir to heal the body
and expand the mind,
So, okay, "you must consider your many self
all facets of your being,
So you might see yourself as one whole,"
So essentially, you gotta relax,
[kettle whistling]
So I know that most of you
don't have a mystery bottle of tea leaves
hiding around in your dead grandma's secret crawlspace,
But you know, you can use any kind of herbal remedy
that you have,
maybe some CBD, whatever mellows you out,
Last time I did shrooms, I was at the zoo,
and I cried for like six hours,
Let's hope that doesn't happen again,
Cheers, Verasha, Cheers to you,
Here we go,
Ugh, Woo,
Ah, gross,
Okay,
Gross,
I definitely do feel a little calmer though,
So, yes,
The next thing that we have to do is we have to,,,
So the next,,,
next thing,,,
[distant thunder rumbling]
[groaning and panting]
[thunder rumbling] [sinister laughing]
[thunder rumbling] [sinister screaming]
[thunder rumbling] [sinister laughing]
[phone ringing]
- [Lenka] Hello?
- Hello,
- [Lenka] Anya, are are you all right? It's so late,
- Anya, are you all right? It's so late,
- [Lenka] Anya, is that you?
Who am I speaking to? - Who am I speaking to?
Anya, are you, are you there?
Anya?
Hello?
Anya?
Anya? Anya, are you there?
- Mom?
- [Lenka] Anya? Honey, what is going on?
- We're okay, - We, who's there with you?
- I'm, I'm okay, I don't, I don't know,
I just had a bad dream, It's, it's nothing,
I'm sorry I called,
- [Lenka] Are you sure you're okay?
Who is there with you?
- Grandma,
[knocking at the door]
Hey, thank you so much for coming,
- [Kenzi] Yeah, for sure,
Oh,,,
we've been redecorating,
- [Anya] I guess so,
- Kinda looks like my grandma's house,
- Thank you,
- So how are the videos going?
- I'm really excited to show you what I've been working on,
- I can't wait,
Jesus, Anya, have you been eating?
- I've been focusing on making space,
- Well, maybe you make space for a Caesar wrap or something,
Look, are you, are you sure you wanna shoot this?
- Why?
- You look not great?
- I'm fine,
- Okay,
[creaking]
Is someone else here?
- No, it's just us,
Hi everyone, welcome back to Mind Body Spirit, I'm Anya,
It's day 17, Let's get started with today's practice,
- And I'm Kenzi from KenziFit,
- Right,
- Do you wanna start over again?
- No, not really,
And this is Kenzi,
She'll be joining us for today's practice,
The expansion, the joining,
- Wait, sorry,
Can, can we stop this a second?
I, I thought this was gonna be like a flow,
What, what is this?
- This is Verasha,
- What the fuck is a Verasha? - My grandmother,
- Okay, can we cut? - Why? What's wrong?
- I'm, I'm not doing whatever this is, This isn't my thing,
- Yeah, I know, It's my thing,
- Okay, great for you, I guess,
but like this isn't on brand for me,
Like, what even is this? - Hey!
- Whoa, Chill, Jesus, Anya, look at yourself,
- I have been looking at myself more than you ever will,
- What the fuck is your deal?
I'm just trying to help you,
- I don't need your help, cunt!
- You know what?
Good,
The only reason that I am here
is because your mom begged me to come and check on you
and make sure you didn't try to fucking kill yourself again,
I don't need to be a guest star on your shitty video diary
that nobody's gonna fucking watch,
I actually have a following,
I actually help people feel good,
I'm not just,,, [snickering]
I am not just sitting around in this stupid fucking room
starving myself
and getting lifestyle tips from the book of the dead,
- Who the fuck do you think you are?
Your whole entire fucking career
is built on the backs of people like Verasha,
people with the fucking fortitude to go out into the world
and experience real shit,
You, you bounce your tits around doing some jumping jacks,
and you think that you're changing people's lives,
Are you fucking kidding me?
You consume other people's cultures
and then shit them back out into leopard-neon spandex,
Kenzi, you're a fucking colonizer!
- Oh my God! - This is real,
- This is truth, This is my heritage and I am living it,
- Oh,,,
my fucking God!
Anya, are you serious?
Colonizer?
You need a fucking Taco Bell,
At least back when you actually ate food,
I mean, what?
You seriously think that your weird fucking grandma
traveled the world?
She probably never even left this fucking house,
Just some sad old lady getting drunk on Vodka
and making up stories because her family abandoned her,
Keep your fucking Siberian bullshit,
Fuck you, fuck your grandma, Have a great life,
I am done with this and I am so done with you,
And I am taking this with me,
- Hey!
Get out!
- What the fuck, Anya? - Get out,
Get out!
- You fucking psycho! [door slams]
[screams]
[bones cracking]
[eerie music]
[Anya breathing heavily]
[computer dialing tone]
- Anya, what is the matter with you?
Why haven't you called me back?
Kenzi's mom said you two got in a fight,
- Yeah, I'm sorry, I, I meant to call you earlier,
I just-
- I've been so worried about you,
I almost called the police,
- Mom, I'm sorry, Okay?
- You look sick,
- I, I need help,
- Okay, Okay, I'll get the first flight out there,
- No, mom, I need help
translating something,
- No, - Mom, please,
- I said no,
- Please,
- Anya,
- Mom, please,
- I don't, I don't know what I'm doing,
- What has she done to you?
- I, I don't know, I don't know, And-
- Anya, this is why I never told you about your grandmother,
The day I heard Verasha died, all I felt was happiness,
because I knew she would never come back for you,
- Jesus, mom,
- Anya, come home, please, - Okay,
- I am sorry, mom,
I am so sorry that I didn't listen to you,
but I need you to translate this for me,
But I need you to help me for once,
because if I don't find a way to finish this,
then I will never escape it and I can't keep running,
So please, please tell me what this says,
- Show me,
- So,,,
she translated most of it
and, and phonetized some other places, but not this,
And it looks like it's in the same alphabet, I think,
It might be just a different dialect or,,,
- Anya, Anya, - What does it say?
- I, I can't, I can't say it,
- Mom, please tell me, - Anya,
- Mom, please tell me, - Anya, I can't say it,
- It doesn't make any sense - What?
- It's, it's, it's some sort of ancient tongue,
It's barely even Russian, I don't know what this is,
Anya, Anya, please come home,
- You fucking bitch,
I've been lying to you
because my grandmother has been lying to me,
You see this symbol, the top of all the ritual pages?
Yeah, I thought, I thought that it was like a, a flourish
or a signature or something,
But,,,
it's not,
It's a fucking key
to what's hidden in these pages,
These aren't words of wisdom,
It's fucking backwards black magic bullshit,
This was never meant to cleanse my spirit,
This was meant to destroy my spirit,
It was meant to destroy my spirit
and make room for hers,
And I,,,
followed blindly because it's easier than facing myself,
[screaming]
[eerie music]
[deep heart beating]
Verasha, please, please, Verasha, you don't have,
you don't have to do this,
Please, please, No, please, please,
Please, please,
[screaming] [eerie music continues]
- Hey guys, it's Kenzi from KenziFit,
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- Hi Kenzi, this is Anya speaking,
I can't tell you how sorry I am for my behavior earlier,
I feel so ashamed,
To be perfectly honest with you,
I think a lot of that anger came from a place of jealousy,
I mean, you're just so worldly and wise and kind,
And sometimes, sometimes,
sometimes I feel like I can't compete,
There's this little voice inside of me
that just won't let be myself,
And I just wanna tell her to let go,
It's okay,
But until then, I sincerely hope you can forgive me,
And as a sign of good faith,
I would love to have you over to record some more videos
and bury the old hatchet,
Wishing you wellness my friend,
Namaste,
[knocking at the door]
- Are you filming me?
- [Anya] Yes, Is that all right with you?
- Yeah, sure,
Holy shit, are you okay? What happened?
- [Anya] Oh, this,
I hit my head while I was rearranging some furniture,
- It looks like it hurt,
- [Anya] I'm fine now,
- I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said, I mean earlier,
I'm sorry,
[creaking]
Do you wanna sit?
I am sorry for getting so heated,
It's just,,,
being this, this perfect person
is just so fucking stressful, you know?
- I completely understand, And I'm sorry too,
I shouldn't have said those things,
- Are you sure you're okay?
- I feel fantastic,
I truly do,
- I,,,
I guess I have to thank you,
- Is that so? - Yeah,
- You know, I don't really agree
with the way you handled things,
and I was pretty fucking upset with you,
But what you said,
it wasn't bullshit,
We're all just borrowing, stealing, I guess,
just like taking pieces of things
and making them our identity
without really thinking about where they come from,
And I guess,
I guess I just don't really know who I am without them,
- You're you, That's all you can be,
- I mean, I put in the work,
It's not like easy,
but I'm not, you know, special or whatever,
- But you are,
- How hard did you hit your head?
[both giggling]
I am glad you're here,
- I'm glad I am too,
- Okay, so what exactly did you have in mind?
- It's a guided meditation,
I practiced it on my own a few nights ago,
but it's supposed to be better
when someone else is guiding you,
- Cool, You, you wanna do an intro?
- I recorded an introduction earlier,
but perhaps we can say "hello,"
- Okay, Yeah, Cool, Kick it off,
- Welcome back everyone to Mind Body Spirit,
We have a familiar guest today,
- Hey guys, KenziFit here,
- I will be guiding you through a meditation,
And Kenzi here, will be my first recipient,
Find yourself in a comfortable corpse pose,
Whatever feels best to you, - Okay,
Allow your back body to sink to the ground,
[deep exhale]
Let your belly rise and fall with a breath,
[deep exhale]
Sink deeper with every exhale,
[deep exhale]
In
and out, [deep exhale]
In,,,
- Oh, Okay, - It's okay,
- And as you relax,
your partner will gently reach your arms out to your sides,
extending away from your ribs, [deep exhale]
allowing your breath to fill into your lungs,
reaching their full capacity, [deep exhale]
In
and out, [deep exhale]
Continue with this rhythm,
[deep exhale]
In
and out, [deep exhale]
This is really nice,
- So how long should I-
[Kenzi shrieks]
[heavy multiple thuds]
[tense music with a heavy beat]
[door slams]
[sinister music]
- I am ready to receive all of you,
[quivering]
[gasping]
[bones cracking]
[screaming]
[sinister scream]
[cellphone vibrating]
- Hello? - Anya? Jesus, are you okay?
- [Lenka] I have been calling you nonstop,
- [Anya] Oh, don't worry, I'm fine, I slept well,
I feel rested now,
- [Lenka] That's a relief,
It's, it's good to hear your voice,
- [Anya] Hmm, It's good to hear your voice too,
- [Lenka] What happened with the journal?
- [Anya] Well, I put that behind me,
- [Lenka] Oh, good,
Good,
Anya?
- [Anya] I was trying so hard to be someone else
that I finally found myself,
I think it's time I come home, Lenka,
- [Lenka] I look forward to seeing you again,
I love you, Anya,
[sinister music]
[heavy beat sinister music]
[heavy beat sinister music continues]