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- Can I ask you a question?
Where your dad at?
(soft music)
I know you right there but where dad at?
- [Ayden] I'm right here,
- Not you, Granny, I know you're right there,
Where is daddy?
Where your daddy?
- [Ayden] He's upstairs,
- [Leticia] He's upstairs?
So can I ask you a question right quick?
- [Ayden] yes mam,
- Can you tell grandmama what you want to be
when you grow up one more time?
- [Ayden] Black Panther,
- [Leticia] Huh?
- [Ayden] Superman?
- You wanna be Superman? (laughing)
I thought that job was already taken but hey,
if you wanna be Superman,
baby, you can be anything you want to be in here,
Grandmama gonna go buy you a cape, okay?
- Okay, - All right, I love you,
- [Ayden] Love you,
- All right, tell daddy I love him
and I'll call you back in a little bit okay?
- Okay, - All right, bye bye,
A question has come to me about why am I doing a documentary
about black men losing their lives,
sons, because I have not lost a son,
But what people don't know is,
I feel like in the black community,
all sons are our sons,
It's back in the day when your neighbor
used to whoop you and then tell your mama,
And then she'd whooped you again,
They say it takes a village to raise a child,
I don't believe that when a man is
18,
21,
25,
30,
these ages that they're saying that the man is grown,
Now, legally, they are grown,
You understand? Um,,,
But somewhere in life you go wrong,
We go wrong as women,
We make mistakes and we mess up and we need somebody
to catch hold to us and help us out,
But it just seems like with our black men, um,,,
they're hurting each other,
And I feel like, they're leaving here at a fast pace
to where I didn't get a chance to meet them,
I don't know if y'all wanted to meet them
but we could have had some doctors,
we could have had some lawyers,
we could have had some astronauts,
Hell, we could have had
another black president in those men,
in these men who have lost their lives,
So I just wanted to talk to the mothers
from one mother to another,
I didn't talk to the fathers, I talked to the mothers
because I wanted them to know that I,
that they have my condolences,
And I feel for them, I feel their pain,
We've had an awesome time talking to some parents,
three women that you're gonna see in the film
that have lost their sons to senseless gun violence,
You're gonna hear a poem
that's gonna absolutely bring you to tears,
It brought me to tears,
But, I did the documentary
because I wanted to just show the parents,
and I hope I can have a number two, a number three,
and we can continue this series
and go state to state doing it,
And just talk to parents and show them that you know,
we are committed to staying with them,
although they put their son in the ground,
we're still here on the ground
and we're trying to show them that we love them
and we appreciate them and saying their name,
You'll see in the documentary,
we make them say their son's name
over and over and over again,
Because keep saying your son's name to keep him alive
and it doesn't matter how many times people tell you,
well you know, that's a long time ago and just let it go,
And he's in a better place,
How they know he in a better place?
They ain't never been to heaven or hell or whatever,
so how you know that their son is in a better place?
It's hard to tell somebody how to act
if they've never experienced that before,
So I just wanted to give them a platform to talk
and have a good time with them and we did that,
We did that in the documentary,
And you're about to see that in just a little bit,
I hope you enjoy it,
Again, I'm Rossville Films
My Producer is Cole Productions,
And I hope you guys enjoy this, stay tuned,
God bless,
- Let's see how quickly shit can get devastated
when niggas start pronounciating their words,
and correctly using their verbs,
food for thought, get your plate,
Is this normally what you get served?
If not, you just get siz-served,
mind moving slow like situations on sliz-urb,
I know I got a lot of shh coming,
'Cause I get what I deserve,
Who thinks like you?
Reality shook you up,
Mental dimensions, the many thoughts of lynchings,
slave-aged whippings,
and now you a current reality state, face is twitching,
Can you handle being woke from a dream, dream, dream?
Just stop it, stop it, stop it,
I, I,
Can't, can't think,
Think,
I'm not trying to scare you,
I'm trying to prepare you for my thoughts
along my mind, let's take a walk,
Not an average day but an average way
that you could look at some things,
You might get dirty, it's not squeaky clean but it's me,
So it is what it has to be,
But enough of that bullshit, words can prove shit,
Words can discuss situations and move shit,
Words tell you who a bitch,
Who a snitch,
Who will ride with ya till their body off in a ditch,
Who is it, L-E-O,
The pain of me,
With the condition, could put your life on canvas
and come and romance it,
Who think they can handle it?
You cannot stand it,
See how I'm playing?
Well if you do, then you don't hear what I'm saying,
So, with no further delaying,
I'm about to talk to you, when I spark a few,
mind cells, that's where the mind dwells,
they'll find trouble, let's reload the revolution,
Let's rewind the struggle,
Let's assess the trouble
in assisting your elders,
Why not be a parent to your parent's parents?
Live for your shelter,
Your shelter should be your mind,
your mother, and your home,
Do you think you're a failure?
Well if so, then you can get the fuck up and go
'cause I don't need no more negative influences
and influential incidents occurred
when I went from being a friend to a common word,
Leonardo, a voice unheard,
My speech no longer slurred,
My vision no longer blurred,
I'm in the same old body
with a new soul speaking these words,
Yes sir, I have brought it back y'all to reenact y'all,
'Cause it's time to rise up or take a downfall,
My words can surround y'all or defend y'all
so why not we pretend y'all, like,
you hear me?
I'm not saying come near me, shit,
I'm just saying sincerely,
listen,
If not to me to the thing that organized me
that orchestrated the A through Z,
Separated the he from she,
Put the meaning between I and we,
Sometimes I feel like I could be a you,
You could be an A-N-I-M-A-L,
Am I lying or am I a lion?
Did you quit or are you really still trying?
You know what they say,
Get busy living,
Get busy dying,
Everybody praying for wins
but first your mind has to overcome the fear of flying,
If not,
you not ready to smoke with me,
Or journey to a world of my own 'cause a word of my own
ain't what you would consider as home,
But cell phones where PCS are a necessity for living,
See in my world, it's more graphic but a lot is forgiven,
Now if you feel these words I'm saying,
then I know that you listening so pay attention,
While the rest of them fall short on their mission,
Everybody is a book, reading a book we control,
Open the pages,
But not where the story will go,
You control your life but best believe
when it's your time to die, it's already been set,
you just have to figure out why,
If you can, try to live life the way it was wrote,
but it's too many people steady taking life as a joke,
I pray and hope I can cope,
but the problems I see as I begin to read and understand,
A book called me for we,
Poetry,
(slow rhythmic music)
- Derek Antoine Duvall was born April 30th, 1988
in Hot Springs, Arkansas to Willis and Sheila Duvall,
Derek was 28 when he lost his life,
I had Derek April 30th
and he was three hours,
I called him my speedy child,
He came out real fast,
And when he came out, they said,
"Oh it's a pretty little girl,"
And as he came on out, they noticed he was a little boy,
And I used to worry when he was little,
that you know, they might have janked me,
saying he was gonna be a little girl (laughs),
But he surely came on up to be a little boy,
He was real outgoing,
He loved to crack jokes,
He was really just real amusing,
And Derek had some complications when he was born,
He had yellow jaundice so he had to stay in the hospital,
And even then, I knew that I was to love, nurture,
and protect him,
And I've always kept that promise,
(soft reflective music)
Derek didn't get away with a lot,
I was real firm with all three of my kids,
But Derek was the one that I could say
he was a product of my environment,
Doing things that, you know, young teenagers do at that age
like wanna sneak out the house, go to a party,
you know the typical things that come with teenage life,
(somber reflective music)
Derek had got addicted to K2,
K2 is a synthetic marijuana
that people smoke
to keep from getting a drug test when they in jail,
you know, parole,
And it's very dangerous,
It's no human consumption,
And I seen my son Derek, he was needing help,
So I stepped in and I helped him,
And I had him sent off to jail
to go get rehabilitated,
And get his scolin off of his back,
Scolin is when you don't report to your parole officer
and after so many times, they will put a warrant out on you
and arrest you,
Derek was getting arrested,
but they were only holding him for like four days,
And I felt like he needed to be
detained to get help for his addiction,
smoking K2,
So I had him purposely locked up
to put his life back on track,
- I miss everything about him,
Him coming home late,
Him picking me up,
Him talking to me about everything,
He was like my angel,
He guided me through stuff,
He helped me,
He told me how to dribble my first basketball
in the driveway down to the D,
He taught me everything,
That's all I could, that's all I could say,
Well I thought he helped me a lot,
He helped me through a lot of situations,
It was times I thought that I was gonna lose myself,
There was times I thought I wasn't gonna be nothing,
It was times he told me that I was gonna be something,
He told me to keep my head up,
He told me to never look down, just like my uncle did,
Rodney Brown and also my cousin, Derek Duvall,
They gave me a way,
They showed me how to fight,
They showed me the difference in what to do
and what's wrong and right,
That's why I'm here today to let you know
how I feel about this,
- I called the news station and told them my story
about my son being highly addicted to K2,
And at the time when I called the news station,
I didn't know the trend of how much
this K2 was being exported around, you know, the town,
He was really heavily addicted to this K2,
And that was my only option, was to try to save his life,
was have him locked up,
(somber reflective music)
He had came to his maturity in the six months he was gone,
He was able to go to college
when he thought he would never go to college,
He was able to live life again
besides looking behind his back,
He was able to achieve his goals, finally, in life,
Derek was working at KFC,
He was actually working at KFC when I had him arrested,
And you know, I had to still have him arrested
because the parole officer wasn't doing anything
to secure him,
It was hard times out here on the street,
And I just didn't want to lose him to the streets,
So I had him purposely locked up
(jail door thudding) to save his life,
(somber reflective music)
I just miss his humor,
I miss his smile,
I miss him talking, calling me Conway,
he never called me mom,
He always said Conway, my maiden name,
And just miss him just knocking on the door,
calling my phone,
(somber reflective music)
He pulled up at the Valero gas station,
him and his brother and to get gas,
And as he came out of the store,
the defendant shot him (gun fires)
in the chest and killed him, once, in the chest,
Just thinking how we was on this journey,
and to see his journey get stopped
in cold blood like that, that hurts,
Derek, he was gonna overcome that,
Because of my determination,
My dedication to see my son come to these great lengths,
you know, that was very important to me,
is to see him have a chance at life,
It don't matter if my son was 60 and I could have been 100,
If I could help him, that's what I'm gonna do
because I'm his mother,
And I feel like reality checks,
when they come from a parent,
that care and love they kids, it shows,
And what I did to Derek, it showed me at the end,
that he was ready to live his life,
(somber reflective music)
My husband
has never been the one
to stay firm,
It's always been me,
He talked but it's just not the same,
If you separated and he's living his life,
I'm living my life, I just really don't know his output
on how he felt about Derek's journey,
We separated in '92, he was six,
He was around,
It's just, he moved on with his life,
I moved on with my life,
I just had more control with the boys, with my sons,
Derek and Willis,
I had a little bit more firmer approach,
Kids get a certain age and the other parent is not
so given to be around as much,
You don't see your child as much,
So, you know, once again,
you know, I've always been there to make that difference
regardless if his daddy was around or not,
I still made them understand who they daddy was,
No disrespecting your daddy,
You love your daddy, regardless of what, you know,
'cause we brought them in the world,
They didn't bring us in the world,
You know, it wasn't nothing ever so bad that he couldn't go
and talk to his daddy,
And actually,
he talked to his daddy before he died,
He got to talk to his daddy,
He made that promise up until he lost his life,
Derek was, he was mannish,
Derek was getting into stuff,
We had an incident,
He was about 13,
And Derek didn't want to do his work in class,
I got a call from the teacher,
- Hello Mrs, Duvall,
This is Mr, Simmons, Derek's history teacher,
Yes ma'am, I'm calling to inform you,
I've sent Derek home,
Yes,
Because he came in again, didn't do no homework,
No books, no pencils,
He's gonna fail,
Because he has not done any work,
(somber reflective music)
- That he wasn't performing in his work,
So I said, "Okay, Mr, Simmons,"
- Yes ma'am, we'll be fine,
- And I said, "I'll be right up,"
I put curlers in my hair, dirty house shoes,
dirty robe (laughs) and put stuff on my teeth
to look like my teeth was missing,
And I went and sat in every class,
- Wait, so let me get this straight,
You want to come up in here with your curlers,
robe, house shoes and follow him around every class?
(laughs) I tell you what,
You can sit at lunch with him too,
Betcha that'll change him, (laughs)
How about this, how about we tell
all the parents to do the same thing?
All right?
Sounds like a plan,
I'll see you soon,
- He was so ready for me to go,
And so he came home without his books the next day
and he said, "Mama, I promise I can go back to the school
"and get my books,
"They said we can go in and get our books,"
And he ran all the way back to the school
to keep me from going back and sitting in every class again,
And he started doing his work and he passed that class,
Rodney Brown is my nephew in this picture with Derek Duvall,
He died 10 months before my son,
Derek is right here,
And Rodney is right here,
First cousins,
They died 10 months apart, - 10 months,
- I had six interviews,
My first interview was when I had him arrested
for the K2 and my second interview
is when the defendant posted $160,000 bond,
I went onto the news to speak about the bond,
My second interview was when they gave the defendant a bond
for $160,000,
I did an interview to discuss how could this defendant
be able to post a bond for capital murder,
I'm upset because he was able to make a bond
for capital murder,
It wasn't that I didn't feel like he could have got a bond
but the bond was so low,
he was able to make bond,
(somber reflective music)
Derek's death has affected me in so many ways,
I don't do the things I used to do,
I don't cook like I used to cook,
Simply because it's hard to cook a meal
and my baby not there to eat,
And birthdays,
holidays,
it's hard,
It's real hard because they not there
and it's a void,
And it's not a void like
he just went home and he's not gonna come over today,
It's a void that he's never, ever returning,
And that's what you have to try to stay focused
and remember that, you know, he's gone,
And even sitting up at night when I'm alone,
I can sometimes hear him snoring,
Or I could be woke up hearing him say, "Conway,"
And I wake up and he's not there,
And then during my whole day,
it's just thinking about him,
I think every day that I wake up, I think about Derek,
I talk about him all day,
I just can't never seem to feel myself,
And I don't think I ever will,
'Cause that part of me is gone and it's never coming back,
The outcome that I want is justice for my son
and I want to be able to talk to other parents
that have lost they child
and I also want them to understand too,
it's no age limit when you lose your child,
I hear a lot of people say, 'cause my son was 30,
you know, he was old,
It's not an age limit when your child die before you,
And it's hard,
It's real hard, you know,
When I look at young men that I seen him with every day,
living life and my son is not there
to walk,
and talk with these boys,
It hurts,
And it hurts more when people come at you
and make it seem like you talk about your child so much
that you should give him a break,
It's not a break,
My baby is never coming back
and that's all I got is memories,
- Step back, spin move, yeah, hop, step,
cross over, step back,
Green!
Green, I'm too, bro, bro,
That's just tough,
I'm just too good,
Give me that clamps, clamps,
stow the ball right through it,
Uh, (playful exclaiming)
Oh that dunk was so beautiful,
Bro, we gotta get an umpin, we gotta get an umpin,
Oh yeah!
(somber reflective music)
- It's all I have,
It's all I got,
- Tell me to be Spider-Man,
- [Colby] You wanna be Spider-Man?
What you gonna do after that? - Me too,
(somber reflective music)
- [Colby] You're gonna show your Spider-Man skills?
- I wanna be Spider-Man-- - And take off running?
You gonna take off running like Spider-Man, huh?
You could do it right here,
Stand right there and do it,
You ain't gotta stand by me,
Oh Spider-Man! (people laughing)
- Spider-Man, - Spider Man,
- [Man] Let me get out of his way,
- [Colby] He's ready, (laughs)
- [Child] Ocean loves Spider-Man,
- My name is Loretta Wilder,
My son was Colby Wilder,
He was born December 27th, 1998,
He passed September 8th, 2016,
Colby was shot and left in a ditch,
We have two suspects who have been arrested
for Colby's murder,
One, being his best friend, Anthony,
And one being, I don't know, just someone extra I guess,
named Stephon,
I'm not really sure how Stephon played into my son's life,
Colby's life,
(somber reflective music)
My son's case, we go June 24th,
The other murder case, it's,
April 8th I believe,
(somber reflective music)
My son was murdered by
two friends and left in a ditch,
The police have told me that Colby laid
in that ditch for a day and a half before he was found,
Colby was found by the school bus driver
on Friday afternoon,
(somber reflective music)
I think the thing I miss the most is his smile,
But he just had an outrageous, contagious smile,
Colby was my only son,
Always had the best of both worlds,
one of each,
My daughter, Tanesha, just turned 23,
Colby would be tuning 21 this year,
For Colby's 21st birthday, I think,
he would have wanted to have a party,
celebrate life, just enjoy his freedom,
Colby, I do believe probably would have turned up
more than I would have liked him to turn up for 21, yeah,
The biggest thing Colby wanted to do in his life
was from the time he was probably three,
was be a bull rider,
Eventually, he wanted to play baseball
and become a nurse,
a pediatric nurse,
Colby actually got to ride one bull in his life
and I have the little short eight second clip
but he did get to ride a bull probably six months
before he passed,
(gates clanging)
(somber reflective music)
As a little boy, Colby was outgoing, friendly,
never met a stranger,
Always had a smile for you,
Always had a kind word,
You know, even if you were mad at him one moment,
you were guaranteed to smile and laugh
before you left the room with him,
Colby was as a teenager, he was your average teenager,
Mean,
Typical boy, that you know,
mom, you can't kiss me in public, mom,
You can't say I love you in public but,
at the same time, it was always give mom a hug and kiss
before he goes,
Always tell his sister I love you before he left us,
Very open, very,
he just loved life,
Colby was definitely a ladies man at the age of 17,
Colby actually only liked older girls,
His last two relationships,
the girls were, I believe they were like 22,
Colby was gorgeous,
His smile and his eyes were his biggest thing,
Everyone knew Colby's smile,
Colby's eyes were like a light brown,
Colby had no children,
My daughter has two children,
We have Armani who just turned three
who was born six months prior to Colby being killed,
That was probably Colby's greatest moment in life,
(somber reflective music)
And then we have Zaiden who was born six months after Colby,
who looks just like Colby and acts just like Colby, so,
I kind of got the best of both worlds again,
I tease my daughter all the time like we,
how did you have your brother's child? (laughs)
Because he acts so much like Colby,
His smile,
He has that infectious smile,
The same eyes,
Just every feature is Colby all over,
I think
I get held together by,
I have faith definitely, my son is in heaven,
'Cause even when I didn't have faith and religion,
my son did,
Like he could quote the Bible to you,
He believed very much,
So I do believe he is in heaven,
He's watching over me and he pushes me,
I can't say I believe in God at this moment still
because me and God have a lot of arguments,
But I do believe that Colby sits right beside God
and he pushes me,
(somber reflective music)
I do not feel like justice has been served in my case,
We have a plea deal with one guy,
The other guy, my case is still ongoing,
But I feel like there has been no justice anyway
as far as anything has went,
I want the outcome to be life in prison for them,
I think death is too good,
I don't want the death penalty,
I don't want them killed in prison,
I think you should have to sit there the rest of your life
and remember what you did to my child,
- I was doing research, it seems like it's just
in every state, - Yeah,
- I talked to someone in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania,
And I just thought the state was wonderful,
But she told me the murder rate was higher there
than it is in Arkansas and Memphis,
almost put together, - Wow,
- And I couldn't believe it,
But my husband told me it's 'cause the city
is more populated, - Right,
- It's bigger, you know,
But we find that, you know, I wanna leave Arkansas
and I wanna go here and I wanna go there,
It's everywhere, - Everywhere,
- There is no escaping it,
It's everywhere,
- And mine is, I don't wanna leave
to get away from the violence,
I say I want to leave a lot of times
to run from the memories I think,
Because it's hard
to turn every corner
and know my baby will never be here, (crying)
(somber reflective music)
I am a recovering addict,
I have 11 years clean,
So I knew that the drugs would play a role
in one of my children's lives as an aspect,
Never did I guess it would be so young,
But, you know, that was my big thing, like,
I was finally getting Colby to the point,
he hit 17,
he was realizing, you know,
I gotta do some things different,
I'm ready to do some different things,
And he was never given the chance to even,
as a minor in Arkansas,
you cannot just put your child in rehab,
That was a big problem, big issue I had,
Therefore, for two years, I tried to get Colby in a rehab,
to get Colby help,
To find some way to get him in a rehab,
Even court ordered,
But without Medicaid or without certain qualifications,
the only thing is self-pay which was about $20,000,
- My name is Connie Conway,
My son name is Rodney Brown,
His birthday, July the 10th, 1985,
Date of death was October 10th, 2016,
(somber reflective music)
He died of a gun shot wound to the head
and to the chest,
Johnny Moody,
Johnny Moody, he killed my son over some money,
He said he owed my son money
and he tried to pay my son some money,
And my son didn't want it,
But he called my son up and told my son
that he wanted to pay him,
My son decided to come and see what he wanted,
And so, when he got there, the dude shot my son,
It was premeditated,
He had told his wife that he was finna go pay Rodney
some money that he owed him,
And he needed to go to the ATM machine,
And his wife took him to the ATM machine,
But when he got there, instead of him paying Rodney,
he shot Rodney 'cause he wanted some drugs
and Rodney told him he didn't do drugs no more,
He was through with that lifestyle,
My son lost his life for $60,
Something that he told the dude that he didn't want
and everything,
My son, when he called my son,
him and his girlfriend was at Walmart,
And my nephew, that's in jail now,
he kept calling my son, my son kept telling him that,
don't worry about the money, you know,
it's a done deal, it's a loss,
But the dude kept on talking about, "Nah, I wanna pay it,"
So, my son went to him over here on 2nd street
and when he went to him, he told him,
he said, "Man, don't worry about it,"
He said, like that,
But the dude didn't,
He went on and shot my son,
So my son walked away from the car
but when he turned his back to him,
he shot my son in the back of the head,
And then when my son realized he was shot,
he turned around and then he shot him in the chest,
Then he was trying to make it to his car,
And when he tried to make it to his car,
his girlfriend, laying in the car,
laying back, waiting on him,
'cause they had just left Walmart
'cause they just got them an apartment,
And about that time,
she was looking for him,
she was wondering what taking him so long
to come to the car,
And when she realized he was on the ground,
that's when she got to screaming,
And the guy who shot him,
went to the stop sign where he was laying at
and just waited there 'cause he didn't know
if somebody was in the car with Rodney,
And he skived off,
And by that time, she was screaming and hollering
and folks came outside,
And she was telling them, call 9-1-1,
And when the police got there,
they rushed him to the hospital,
We was up there at the National Park,
When my daughter and them got to the emergency room,
they was telling that 'cause my grandson,
my oldest grandson was trying to wake me up,
I was at home asleep,
And Rodney stayed with me
before he started getting his apartment,
You know, the house he and him girlfriend had got,
Him and my nephew, Nooky, they always stayed with me,
At the time, I always kept the phone beside my bed,
by the pillow 'cause when he use to run the streets
at night time, when the phone call, I'd answer it,
You know, if he's going to jail or in trouble,
I'd be right there,
But that night, they said he kept trying to call me,
And didn't no phone ring,
I didn't get no phone call or God didn't want me to know
what happened,
So by that time, my grandson, Favion,
was snatching on my leg and everything,
Talking about, "Grandma Connie, Grandma Connie,"
I said, "What's wrong?"
He said, "La'Sheen and them was coming to get you,"
I said, "For what?"
Talking about Speedy been shot,
I told him, "Boy quit playing,"
He said, "No", he said, "Speedy been shot, Grandma Connie,
"Get up,"
So I jumps up and run into the wall and everything,
You know, discombobulated,
You know, hard to believe,
So then when I realized what they was saying,
I said, "Well somebody needs to come and get me,"
By that time, my little grandson Que,
they came and got me,
And he drove me up to the hospital,
When I got there,
everybody was up there in the emergency room,
And they were telling me,
"Speedy been shot twice,"
I said, "What you mean, shot twice?"
He said, "In the head and in the chest,"
And then another doctor came up there
was telling me, it don't look good,
We need to be trying to make prepare,
I said, "Man, don't be saying no stuff like that,"
He said, "I'm telling you ma'am,
"They tried to save him for like two to three hours,
"They were working on him,"
It was about like three o'clock when they pronounced,
that he was gone,
It was about 12:00 o'clock, 11:30 when they were trying
to get me up there,
I don't know what time he got shot,
When I got up there, it was like 12:30 or something to one
when I got up to the hospital,
Johnny Moody, he's in
McPherson Correctional Center for mens,
And he doing 15 years
on second degree murder,
But when all was first said and done,
on the heap of papers and everything,
it was suppose to be first degree murder,
And then he was VA,
veteran of Vietnam, 'Nam,
Uncle Sam man,
And he had control of all kinds of guns
and you know, he had license to have these guns
and all this stuff,
They would never have caught him if his wife
didn't turn him in because had had hid the guns
and everything in the shop,
And he had told his wife that he was gonna kill Speedy
and she told him, she said,
"You gonna pay him his money and let it be,"
He said, "I'm gonna pay him his money
"and I'm gonna kill him,"
And she couldn't believe that he did that,
So she called the police
and turned him in
and told them where the guns was
and all that stuff,
(somber reflective music)
They dropped the first degree murder,
charged him to a second degree
when the all the evidence pointed towards Johnny Moody,
the crime lab, Little Rock Crime Lab, everything,
said the first shot that he shot him with in the chest,
he wouldn't have survived by that then,
Why shoot him again in the head?
So like he told his wife, he was gonna kill him,
And that's what he did,
He said the reason why he killed my son,
he said 'cause he heard that Speedy liked
to pistol whip people,
Speedy don't fight nobody,
He was an easygoing young man, you know,
He did some bad things,
He sold drugs and all that stuff,
But he paid the time,
He did the time for it,
And every time he did bad, you know,
he did his time,
That last time when he went into prison,
he came out, he said, "Mama I'm through,"
'Cause I told him,
"I can't go back down this road anymore, Speedy,
"You gonna get your life together or you gonna have to
"go on about your business,"
I said, "'Cause I can't handle it,"
I said, "I'm getting too old,
"I cannot go down with you no more,"
Back and forth down this highway,
He said, "When I get out this time,"
He said, "I'm gonna get my own place,"
Oh well, he got out,
I think he was with me for six months,
And then he was messing around with this girl
in my house, staying in my house, back and forth,
I said, "When you gonna move out?"
He said, "I finna' get ready to go college
"and fill out these papers,"
'Cause he had got his GED while he was in prison,
the times he had went,
He said, "I'm finna' take up this trade,"
He said, "Now I'm suppose to start work Monday,
"Anticipate a call Monday morn',"
I said, "Bullshit,"
Just like that, (laughs)
He said, "I'm serious,"
I said, "Okay,
"we'll see,"
But that Friday is when he got killed,
That was like on a Monday, when he was telling me all this,
And then Friday night, he got killed,
So when he got killed,
all this went down and they gave him 15 years,
When they gave him 15 years,
I think the dude was in jail for like,
eight months,
They had a speedy trial,
I mean, he wasn't even in jail a whole year,
Well they had my son's trial,
we were all sitting and then they gave him a speedy trial
'cause they knew it was first degree murder,
Then when they started having trial and all this stuff,
they dropped it down to second degree murder,
That was about it, they gave him 15 years,
Was finna' be a father for the first time,
(somber reflective music)
I think he knew,
That's why when he told me, he said,
"I got my own place,"
He said, "Me and her finna' move out,"
He said, "I got some good news"
and I ain't know what he was talking about,
I thought the good news about the house,
that he was finna' move out
'cause I'm glad he was finna' move out
'cause I'm so tired of taking care of him,
You know, but right there,
I would take care of him right now if he was still here,
'Cause that's where he be at,
Him and my nephew Nooky,
They always, they didn't wanna go no where but stay with me,
My son never had a chance to grow up,
to be the man that I knew he could be,
to be the father I knew he could be
and to be the son I knew he could be,
(somber reflective music)