[music playing]
[static sound]
[music playing]
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: All of these aspects of myself,
all of these thoughts, how do we heal them?
How do I unify them?
How do we create the we to an I?
Every evil we experience in this world
is actually the world in perfect balance with itself,
I'm only a vessel for your unfoldment,
I am only here for you,
So when a conflict arises in me, the universe
then sends a runner to manifest that conflict in a form
that I can see, to deal with outside myself,
to create the harmony that I've lost within me,
But the fear, a fear of not having, a fear of not knowing,
a fear of being left behind,
The fear, the fear, the fear, hardly
leaves any room for love,
Love is a reality,
Love is the only reality,
Had I run from it, I run from the things that heal me,
because I need to feel powerful,
I need to feel validated,
I need to give expression to these tears that I have inside,
because without them, who am I?
Who am I?
I'm an illusion,
I'm not even here,
[music playing]
[phone ringing]
VESSEL 13: Mom?
MOTHER: It's not a great time, honey,
I'm out with the girls,
I don't know what he wants,
Hang on,
I'm finding out,
Honey, what's the problem?
What happened?
VESSEL 13: I don't know,
MOTHER: What do you mean you don't know?
VESSEL 13: Um, a friend came over,
MOTHER: What did you guys, break something?
VESSEL 13: No,
Mom, just come home, please,
I need help,
[music playing]
[phone beeping]
[music playing]
We need one another so that we can
get to that place of balance,
If we knew what balance was, we would just achieve it,
No,
We have to feel our way like blind men,
walking in a vast room, looking for the walls to hang on to,
to feel, so they can look for a way out,
Mom?
Am I bad?
No,
Of course not, honey,
[music playing]
VESSEL 13: Why did this happen then?
I'll explain when you're older,
You'll listen to them and do what they say,
OK?
VESSEL 13: How long will I be there?
That depends on you,
It's time you took responsibility for yourself,
You'll have to choose your own path and follow it to the end,
You have that key I gave you, right?
Yeah,
That's a good boy,
[music playing]
[sound of door opening]
[birds chirping]
[music playing]
OZAWA: Welcome to the clinic,
Your treatment awaits you,
Please make yourself at home and be one with the others,
Breathe in, breathe out,
Close your eyes and think of your new self,
a self without limits, that can create new worlds, where
anything is possible,
Breathe in, breathe out,
Your mind exists only in the form you allow it to,
Breathe in, breathe out,
Breathe in--
[music playing]
[low buzzing sound]
[music playing]
[ding-dong sound]
Go ahead,
This is your room,
You may unpack if you wish,
[music playing]
The others,
Why are they here?
OZAWA: They are all on their own journey,
Journeys a lot like yours,
[music playing]
[BUZZING SOUND TO OPEN DOOR, MUSIC PLAYING]
[music playing]
What happens here?
OZAWA: We are here to help,
Once you select a path, you'll see,
[music playing]
What's that room?
OZAWA: Selection room,
When you are ready you can select a path there,
Once you make a choice, the treatment can begin,
Treatment?
OZAWA: Why don't you get some rest?
You can meet the others later,
[birds chirping]
[music playing]
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: I created an automaton, and then two,
and then four, until I was surrounded with them,
When I caught that reality, I could replicate anything
that was already in existence and call it my own
and feel powerful,
[clicking of camera]
It's almost as if I'm lost in my own dreams,
[music playing]
[static sound]
[music playing]
[ding-dong sound]
OZAWA: Your trainers will be here soon,
[music playing]
[buzzing sound]
[scratching sound]
[spitting]
[music playing]
MOTHER [VOICEOVER]: How can I be your mother
and not feel responsible?
You are my son,
I look in your face and find no other eyes but my own,
I'd hoped that you would turn out different,
I wanted you to be perfect,
But I can't help but wonder, is perfection something
this world needs?
[music playing]
No,
Perfection is horrible,
[music playing]
It will destroy us all,
[music playing]
What happened?
OZAWA: Tell me what's going on,
You have to tell me what's going on,
I don't know,
OZAWA: We can't help you unless you open up,
I don't know,
OZAWA: The danger is still real,
[music playing]
[loud bang]
Hi,
Were you--
No,
I was just-- um--
SARAH: Sorry,
I was trying to find my room,
Um, I'm guessing it's this,
What's your name?
Sarah,
VESSEL 13: Where you from?
SARAH: Me?
Um, I grew up pretty far away,
VESSEL 13: Do you feel out of place here?
SARAH: No,
I think everyone's on similar journeys,
What about you?
Where are you from?
VESSEL 13: Not too far away,
My mom came here when she was younger
and she thought they could, um, fix me,
SARAH: Fix you?
VESSEL 13: I've been having these strange visions,
SARAH: Hm,
Have you made your selection yet?
Not yet,
SARAH: What are you waiting for to start your journey?
I don't know,
You have to evolve past your own nature,
You have to get to the next place
if you want to get along in here,
You're doing that?
Evolving?
SARAH: Yeah,
Come with me,
[music playing]
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: When every space that we see
is empty, there's a story being played out,
There's a universe unfolding between two people,
There may be thousands upon thousands
of realities happening that they may not be aware of,
I need to make my selection,
OK,
Please hurry,
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: You see, for those two people, who
see each other, they're vibrating
at a specific frequency, one that allows the other person
to be manifest before them,
But the true process, the one that brings them together,
is so much more subtle,
SARAH: Hey,
Check it out,
Girls in outer space,
[music playing]
What's wrong?
Come on,
Tell me,
I can tell you were thinking about something,
I mean, you look so familiar,
Weird,
You know that?
OZAWA: You're putting her at risk,
Why are you here?
To fix this, this problem,
OZAWA: Why haven't you chosen a path then?
Don't you remember what happened to your girlfriend?
It was like I was--
I was in a dream,
OZAWA: What did you see?
VESSEL 13: I was terrified,
I had no control,
I-- I couldn't do anything,
It was like I was on a ride I couldn't get off of,
But at the same time, deep down, I liked it, and then--
and then I woke up,
[music playing]
OZAWA: Are you ready to be in treatment?
You're endangering her,
VESSEL 13: What will it do?
OZAWA: Transgenic in vivo microbionic implants
will cure you,
This technology can mutate your perception
and free you from your base program,
It's a choice you can make,
You can become something better, something
more refined, more evolved, but you have to act now,
This miracle process can only work if you start your journey
and allow it to take its course,
Are you ready?
Yes,
[music playing]
OZAWA: Good morning,
Congratulations on starting your journey,
[music playing]
Come closer,
This is how your packages will be delivered,
Because this is a personal process,
you will install the upgrades yourself,
ROBOT: Package for patient 1379,
Thank you,
OZAWA: Just follow the instructions,
I'm here if you need help,
[music playing]
Step one, remove this first item from the package,
[music playing]
Step two, use the item to draw the specific lines,
[music playing]
Step three, press the button,
[music playing]
Step four, use the item to penetrate,
The pain will only be temporary,
[music playing]
Step five, remove the abcess from your body,
[music playing]
Step six, take out the beautiful and clean treatment,
Apply the treatment in cavity,
[music playing]
You are one step closer to completion and being pure,
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: Let go,
Try to be free,
[breathing hard]
[music playing]
You chose a path,
Where were you?
I you think you're great, but I think we should continue
our transition separately,
I'm too far ahead of you, and I see you like a man sees an ant,
But I wish you well on your way,
This is goodbye,
Thanks for showing me my room,
[music playing]
MAN [VOICEOVER]: The chrysalis is the pupal stage
of the butterfly,
Chrys s is Greek for gold,
It's called that because of the metallic gold
color found in the pupae of many butterflies,
When the caterpillar is fully grown,
it fuses itself with silk to a twig,
then the caterpillar's skin comes off,
Under this old skin is a hard covering,
The chrysalis,
Hi,
Hey, mom,
Sorry I haven't called,
MOTHER: How are things going?
Are you happy?
Trying to be,
Nothing's really changed yet, but I'm
committed to making it work,
MOTHER: Well, that's good,
[music playing]
What kind of stuff are they having you do there?
Mom, there's this girl here,
You would like her,
Be careful, sweetheart,
Take it easy,
I am,
Don't get too close,
You meet anyone else there?
Anyone that works there?
There's this voice who talks to me through the intercom,
I feel like this is my fault, like I wasn't there enough,
It's not your fault,
Maybe if-- if I was a better mother--
No,
That's not it, Mom,
[dramatic music playing]
[FIRE BURNING, DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]
[screaming]
[dramatic music playing]
[music playing]
[foot beating the floor]
[dinging]
[music playing]
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: This has already passed, just not yet,
It's happening, but somewhere else,
How do I reconcile that when things feel so real?
So who are you?
Are you my adversary?
Are you my enemy?
Are you a thing that I must control?
[music playing]
The way out is really the way in,
And the deeper in that I go, the more free that I become,
You are the person,
You are the guide,
You are the one that will lead me back to myself,
[music playing]
[music - flying lotus]
In this great delusion of love, an object
can not exist without something else
to reflect itself back unto itself,
[music playing]
[biting into fruit]
[music playing]
DR, PRICE: How's the boy?
Price-shachou,
I didn't hear you come in,
[music playing]
DR, PRICE: Is everything on schedule?
OZAWA: I think we are about to find out,
DR, PRICE: He's grown so much since I last saw him,
He's becoming a man,
I don't have much more time left,
You will need to start the transfer soon,
OZAWA: Yes, Price-shachou,
[music playing]
Sarah?
[music playing]
Stay with me,
It's not an option,
I need you,
Have to let me go,
You can't follow me where I'm going,
That's not how it goes,
VESSEL 13: Please, stay with me,
I need you,
Don't leave me, please,
Don't leave,
[music playing]
You are her, aren't you?
I just need more time,
We don't have any more time,
Sorry,
When you're at the end of your journey,
you'll come for me, in here,
[music playing]
[clicking of camera]
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: I can feel myself changing,
My mind is becoming less known,
[clicking of camera]
I need to release myself,
[inaudible],
[thundering sound]
[music playing]
Hey,
I want to know every detail about your entire life,
Really?
Yeah,
Wait here for a second,
Yeah,
My mom gave me it when she was younger,
Don't stop,
[music playing]
I came here because I killed my--
[music playing]
MAN: The bow of God's wrath is bent,
and the arrow made ready on the string,
And it is justice that bends the arrow at your heart,
and it strains the bow,
And it is nothing but the mere pleasure of God
and that of an angry God,
That without any promise or obligation at all that
keeps the arrow one moment from being drunk with your blood,
If your right eye causes you to stumble,
then tear it out and throw it from you,
For it is far better to lose one of the parts of your body
than to have your entire body thrown into hell,
OZAWA: The visions are triggered by intense social connection,
You yourself are still quite susceptible,
and are therefore in danger,
Every time you open up, you are putting everyone at risk,
I can't believe you know that,
OZAWA: That is the purpose of the clinic,
[music playing]
Tell me the truth,
What's wrong with me?
OZAWA: Your animal brain, bred for harsh life on the savanna,
is not suited to the present-day world
of civilization and discipline,
You need to open up yourself to complete reprogramming,
Only then will you have peace of mind,
You don't get it,
Even if I can evolve, it'll never
be enough to earn peace of mind,
That's the thing,
How could I ever trust myself again?
How could I ever get close to anyone again?
OZAWA: Well, for instance, through a radio,
Ozawa,
That's your name,
OZAWA: How do you know?
Control yourself,
Don't lose focus,
Stay right here with me,
Listen, you must exercise will,
I've just felt like this before,
OZAWA: Stay right here with me,
[breathing hard]
Yes,
Let it all go,
Let it all go out,
It's OK,
Yes,
[trying to catch breath]
[music playing]
[yelling]
[music playing]
What happened?
I need more,
OZAWA: You've already reached the limits of what
we can safely do for you,
I'm not clean,
I'm not pure,
I'm not perfect yet,
What is this place?
Does this stuff even work?
OZAWA: Of course it works, but it's not instant,
And it's also up to you,
You have to be able to accept the changes,
to let yourself be pure,
What if I end my treatment?
OZAWA: If you wish to end your treatment now,
I'll have to recommend you be confined,
Confined?
OZAWA: Unfortunately you are still a danger,
Then I will continue my treatment,
OZAWA: Are you sure?
Yes,
I need it,
OZAWA: There's one final level,
We usually don't recommend it to people transitioning
for the first time,
But in your case, an exception might
be made if you feel it would help you progress,
But I will need approval,
[YELLING] Please,
Please,
I fucking need it,
Please,
Perhaps we should stop,
[music playing]
I think we should try,
A true purification might simply be too much for him,
[music playing]
We owe him our best efforts,
I'll talk to him,
Assess the risks,
[music playing]
Time to get up,
Don't worry,
It'll all work out,
You'll be OK,
Who are you?
My name's Dr, Hamilton Price,
[music playing]
Do you know your mother came here
to this clinic as a young woman?
Yes,
DR, PRICE: Well, I founded this clinic
and I treated your mother,
And let's just say I fell in love with my work,
[music playing]
You mean you're my--
Yes, both figuratively and literally,
What's wrong with me?
[music playing]
There's nothing wrong with you,
I have made mistakes,
Lots of them,
But you're not one,
You've just been a slave to other people's bad choices,
Your mother and I, we've accepted our responsibility,
And now we're going to fix that,
We're going to free you,
Would you like that?
Yes,
[music playing]
Let me see your hands,
[music playing]
I'm going to help you, with this,
Just lay back,
We know a reflection never really knows itself,
never knows it's real, because it isn't,
Let's make you beautiful,
[music playing]
[waves crashing]
Damn,
This is good stuff,
I feel it already,
[music playing]
Think about it,
I'll always be a danger,
I don't know when I'm doing it,
I can't even trust myself,
I've been thinking about that, and I have an idea,
if you're willing to trust me,
You shall be closer to that source that
brought us into being,
You, as am I, I'm merely the vessel of this creator,
But I have created this clinic to free us
from the will of the maker, for that we may freely
give ourselves back to the same life,
You need to look inside yourself,
Myself,
Let's sit,
[music playing]
Close your eyes,
Now breathe,
Breathe in,
Now breathe out,
Your breath is a ball of energy, moving down your spine
and the top of your head,
[waves crashing]
Focus those thoughts inward and see yourself,
OZAWA: Puraisu-shacho, you'd better take a look at this,
DR, PRICE: I'm busy here,
OZAWA: It's rejecting the treatment, attacking
like an invading army,
[baby crying]
This isn't right,
We have to stop this,
[music playing]
[baby crying]
DR, PRICE: It's working beautifully,
[screaming]
Go on, Son,
Accept it,
OZAWA: This is what you call working?
This is monstrous,
We have to help him,
[dramatic music playing]
[struggling to breathe]
[dramatic music playing]
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: What a beautiful delusion I lived in,
I had no idea,
I summoned you thinking that I would be safe,
When I saw you, I ran,
I ran to the edges of my own reality,
I ran to the place that I never knew existed, the place where
I would find myself,
And I hid there for a while, in plain sight,
I must have looked like a madman, overtaken
with fear and grief,
You had to go,
You had to go far away to forget what I saw
and what I felt, and everything and everyone associated
to that, and create a new reality because, you see,
you destroyed my old one,
So there was no going back,
How have we changed ourselves?
From one thing into another,
I think the first step is to allow our mind
to ponder the possibility that we may be nothing at all,
That what we think we are is actually
a projection, a projection of a fractured ego,
a projection of a damaged mind,
MAN: Failing to gorge your senses
from the social contagion, picking meat
from the incisors of hellhounds,
So we're mixing herbs between our toes as lightning strikes
to reboot your antiquated IBM desktop computer,
and finally give you something older to die for,
[music playing]
[buzzing]
[music playing]
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: But there was very little that
was original in my life,
Everything was stolen from the moment
that I had seen somewhere before,
It made me feel comfortable,
It made me feel connected,
It made me feel in control of my destiny,
His name-- his name-- his name--
you see, back then I thought that that was what power was,
to control the world around you,
I feel like I'm meeting myself everywhere I go,
It can be daunting,
It can be lonely,
[music playing]
I am the vessel,
Yet I'm always running from that vessel,
And in that and all that big story, life--
life seems to find me and embrace me, but I fight it,
I never give in,
And as I do, I sink deeper into it,
[music playing]
So there was no going back,
The problem with the truth is that once you know the truth
you can't unknow it,
It will haunt you,
You will see it in everything, and it will consume you,
[music playing, screaming]
You see, I, like you, I came into this world fighting,
fighting to exist, fighting to stay in existence,
[music playing]
OZAWA: Oh my god,
[music playing]
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: And for the first in life,
in this experience that I call life, did-- did-- did I --
did I see myself being seen?
Did I-- did I--
being saved?
And your eyes looked at me,
For the first time I felt the separation of myself--
looking back at me--
I was so scared,
MOTHER [VOICEOVER]: Close your eyes and listen,
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: And in that life--
MOTHER [VOICEOVER]: To hear the ocean,
VESSEL 13 [VOICEOVER]: That life that I've been hiding from,
Became you,
MOTHER [VOICEOVER]: Be baptised, son, and breathe in life,
The water is a symbol and you will
be reborn as the ripples travel across the surface,
You will know the innocence and bliss you deserve,
[waves crashing]
You'll start feeling less aware, less present,
There will be no more growing,
Not anymore,
You're home,
[music playing]
My baby,
I'm here,
I love you,
[music playing]
I'm here to fix Kemet's last sun soaked proto-computer,
I heard it sputtering out incomplete Communist Party word
search results that'd skipped from digital fuzz,
coughing out ghost red briefs, buffering mid-sentences,
mind police come to feed,
You buried the building blocks of stylish dissent, minced
in the watermelon dance smoothie spill,
Hand over your definition for e-vites, to orgy bathing,
and the chance to be the single black friend
to the sea of white merry-folk,
Reselling dirty water with top freshly digested favelas,
Running past improvised encampments,
Radiating internet signals from polished teeth,
producing genetically altered Pomeranians from phone apps,
Making multi-million dollar mistakes every god damn day,
Voicing updates on your pocket calculator
from a bed of constructive criticisms,
Sandwiches of repurposed ego meat,
chewed into a personality disorder,
Lime here to wipe the drive clean
and reinstall the guts of your computer,
as you have become the safe nigger, with a temperament
that of an amicable butler, be-speckled and disarmed,
Behind ulterior motives, your printer
spits out sheets of acid, completely tripping,
Failing to guard your senses from the social contagion,
picking meat from the incisors of hellhounds,
So we're mixing herbs between our toes as lightning strikes
to reboot your antiquated IBM desktop computer
and finally give you something older to die for,
Free Black Press,
I don't write rhymes, I write code,
We went to the Grammys to be dubbed the King of Niggers,
Spin dunking above gourmet chicken,
Screaming street names and sports
coverage of police shootings,
We're all surprised you took the time away
from spearhead sharpening and dice game refereeing to accept,
Your hand slick with the blood of fragile, young white women,
pulverized under your concept,
There are imaginary emotional triggers
howling at the moral barometer,
Exploding screams on the cell walls
of a militarized touchy subject,
You are dangerous and need to be defanged before you can be cast
in the multi-cultural milieu,
So kneel or die broke,
Your Grammy is placed on a clean mantel
as snipers flick fingernails and tip jars,
choke chains around oversight panels,
Bullets stacking up in dressing rooms,
Shine it,
Make it the touch tone to your cosmopolitan chugging,
Lizard tongues licking glowing teeth,
as bubbledy blood splashes behind them,
Make it the badges of your success,
Make it the end of your struggle,
Unhook your jaw and hand it to your sponsor,
Toss your genitals to the European doctors,
And cry aloud,
[vocalizing]
[music end]
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