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[insects chirping]
[somber music]
- Isabel!
♪ ♪
Rafael,
I was told my sister chose that name,
I hate it,
But that's the last thing I have from her,
Isabel!
♪ ♪
- [laughing]
[speaking indistinctly]
- No,
- Rafael!
[lively percussive music]
♪ ♪
[Rafael breathing heavily]
♪ ♪
- The men that took her,
they didn't care that she was raising me,
They didn't know that I would follow her,,,
that I would look for her,,,
And that I will never stop,
[Raphael grunting]
[soft resonant music]
♪ ♪
[knock at door]
- [sighs]
[knock at door]
[clears throat, speaks Spanish]
[yawns]
[water splashes softly]
- Rafael,
- [chuckles]
[laughs]
- [scoffs]
[soft resonant music]
♪ ♪
- Uh-huh,
Eh?
- [chuckles softly]
[tense music]
[upbeat brass music]
♪ ♪
[birds chirping]
No, [laughs]
[both laughing]
[sentimental music]
- [sighs]
[soft resonant music]
♪ ♪
- Yo, Raf!
Wassup, playa?
'Sup, big dog? - Hey,
- 'Sup, man, You ready for a workout today?
- Are you ready?
- I was born ready for this workout today, man,
- Then let's go,
- The next Manhattan-bound seven local train
will arrive in approximately five minutes,
- What'd you do last night?
- Went to this bomb-ass party, man,
- Where?
- Flatbush,
A lot of girls,
You gotta come out there with me one day, man,
- Heh,
- Enjoy yourself, man,
You're always so tense all the time, man,
- I don't know when was the last time
I went to a party,
[both chuckle] - Don't worry about that, man,
You're with me now, Gonna have a lot of fun,
- How many hours did you sleep?
- About four, Ran into this girl last night,
Couldn't leave without getting her number,
[train rattling]
- Breathe out whenever you hit,
Make a noise, Make some noise,
- I am making noise, - Wha--
- The bag is-- - No,
[grunts loudly]
Make a noise, - [grunting] Huh!
- Like that, good, - [grunting] Huh!
[grunting]
- 20 punches, straight,
[both breathing heavily]
One, two; one, two,
Three, Three,
One, two, three,
Good,
- Good workout today, man,
- You too, - All right,
[melancholy music]
♪ ♪
- So what's the deal with this Arun guy?
- I simply cannot stop thinking of him,
- He's still a young kid,
You don't know where it's gonna go,
When was the last time you showered?
You kinda smell, [chuckles]
- [chuckles] I know,
- Not everyone's as nice as I am,
- Do you think it's broken? - I don't know,
I'm not a doctor, [Rafael hisses]
Lana!
- Hold still, Relax,
- You know, I've fucked it up worse than this,
- I know, It's 'cause you're crazy,
But that's why I like you,
Bring it closer,
You have a lot to get through, you know,
It's not gonna be easy,
- Whatever you have done,,,
everything you've done, I'll do,
- Are you sure, though?
- Sometimes,
- Sometimes isn't enough,
You know, I lost my 20s to this,
and I'm not even done yet,
- You still look, like, 20, - [laughs]
Thank you, babe,
- I need to find her first,
- Well, get going on it,
The longer you wait, the harder it's gonna get,
[mournful Spanish guitar music]
♪ ♪
[soft resonant music]
[tense music]
[voice echoing]
- Stop!
[man speaks Spanish]
[suspenseful music]
♪ ♪
[indistinct shouting]
- Hey,
Wait,
You don't recognize me?
- No,
[resonant music]
♪ ♪
- Elsa,
- I look that different?
- She's not here,
What'd you do to Vince?
- Nothing,
- Did you kill him? - No,
[indistinct shouting]
- I don't wanna be here when he wakes up,
Please,
[music heightens]
Grab this, Come on,
♪ ♪
[soft resonant music]
♪ ♪
[indistinct chatter]
[soft acoustic guitar music]
♪ ♪
- Elsa hasn't said a word in two days,
- She must have been through hell,
- She recognized me right away,
and I had no idea who she was,
- Well, how long has it been?
- Like, ten years,
Maybe more, 12,
- So it's been a while,
Like, you're looking for one person,
It's not all that unlikely that you would forget her face,
You were kids when you saw each other last,
- Am I doing this,,,okay?
I--I don't know what I'm doing, - Let me see,
Why you chose this color, I will never know,
- I like it,
- It's so pink,
- Ah, you, You're always so dark,
I'm Latina, We like colors,
[both laugh]
- Yeah, but a girl's gotta be mysterious,
- [laughs]
- So whose face have you been beating in?
- Never mind, Thank you,
- What?
Don't get all cold with me, - I don't like my hands,
- Why don't you like your hands?
- Look at my legs, I like my legs,
- [chuckles] You have nice legs,
[both laugh]
I don't know how do you get used to this hair,
So hard, It's always hitting my face,
- You just get used to it,
and once your actual hair grows out long enough,
probably won't even notice it anymore,
Just flip it around a bunch, Have fun with it,
- Like this, Lana? - [chuckles]
[both laugh]
♪ ♪
[resonant music]
♪ ♪
[music darkens]
[thunder rumbling]
- Isabel!
♪ ♪
[echoing] Isabel!
[footsteps approaching]
Hey, Elsa,
- Hi,
- Here, I made some for you,
- What is it?
- It's a mix of things,
It has berries in it, uh, bananas,
a little bit of peanut butter,
- Is it just you here?
- Yeah,
You can stay if you want,
- It's so sweet of you, Raf,
So how many years has it been?
- Since I've seen you?
- Since you've been here,
- In the States for six years,
- That accent,
You haven't tried to shake it,
- I like my accent,
- Me too,
- Here,
Do you know where she is?
- No,
No clue, I'm sorry,
We landed, Things got crazy,
We lost each other; we found each other,
[scoffs softly] That's all over now,
I think it's beautiful that you've been looking for us,
- When was the last time you saw her?
- [laughs]
I don't know, Uh, I don't remember,
Maybe a year?
[soft resonant music]
♪ ♪
- She had a phone?
- We changed numbers all the time,
It's part of the business,
I mean, it'll be tough,
- I found you,
- Yeah, [laughs]
Yes, you did, and maybe,,,
maybe you'll get lucky again,
Anyways, I was cut loose,
Not with the same guys,
Independent,
- Too bad for the business?
- Don't make this weird,
- It's already pretty weird,
- Not really,
It'll be okay,
- You know, you really grew up,
- It doesn't always get this violent,
- Just sometimes,
- I need to go,
[tense music]
♪ ♪
- [sniffs]
[chuckles]
♪ ♪
- You know, I'm kinda tired, man, from yesterday,
I think we should take a break today,
- Yeah, yesterday was hard, but we need to practice,
- Yeah, man, I don't need no more practice,
I'm the best; the best don't need to practice,
- [laughing] What do you mean, you're the best?
- All right, I know some people, man,
They real cool, Down in Bed-Stuy,
We both tired, Let's take a break,
- Are we really doing this? - Just for today,
Just for today, man, - Oh, my God,
- Just come on, man, Come on, man,
It's all good, - Are we really doing this?
Just for today, Don't you get used to it,
- Yeah, man, just today, [voices fade]
[indistinct chatter]
[band playing disjointed warm-up music]
♪ ♪
[speaker squeaks]
Yo, what's up, man?
- Nice hat, - Yeah, black hat, man,
What's up? - [inaudible]
- What's up, man? Soup, what's up?
Good night, good night, everybody,
My boy Raf, say, "What's up?"
Got my boy Seth right here;
I got Soup, I got Chocolate Brown,
I got Alex, and I got Nate,
It's what we do, man,
♪ Just have fun, have fun ♪
♪ I'ma spit right here for fun ♪
[band playing discordant notes]
♪ Uh ♪
♪ Yeah ♪
♪ Boo ♪
- [laughing]
- Yo, take the mic, man, Come here, man,
Have fun, man, - What should I do?
- Loosen up, man, Loosen up, man,
- I don't know how to rap,
♪ ♪
- Yeah, bro,
I always come out here to chill,
Keep a smooth vibe,
It's my chill spot away from the chill spot,
- I like you, You're crazy, [laughs]
- Yeah, man, You're from Cuba, right?
- Mm-hmm, - So how is it out there, man?
- [shivers] It's warm,
[laughs] I stole it from my roommate,
- I mean, all right, man, Got a lighter, man?
[gentle music]
♪ ♪
- What are we doing next? - I don't know, man,
Probably go in there, kick it with some girls,
Cool with you?
- Sure, - A'ight,
- [inhales, exhales]
[low percussive music]
♪ ♪
- Rafael!
[Rafael speaking Spanish]
[grunting]
[tense music]
- Raf!
Take it easy, Let's take a break,
[laughs]
Come on,
[lighter clicks]
- [coughs] - [laughs] Good one,
- [coughs]
- Ooh, [both laugh]
See?
That's what I remember about you,
That stupid smile right there,
- [laughing]
[soft resonant music]
♪ ♪
- You're still really worried about her, huh?
I can tell,
- Yeah, of course,
You guys disappeared so quickly,
- Sorry, - [coughs]
- Don't apologize,
It wasn't your fault,
- You know, last I remember, she was doing okay,
- Getting fucked for a living is "doing okay"?
- [laughs]
Plenty of girls get fucked and don't make a living,
- She's out there,,,somewhere,
Maybe you could help me track her down,
You know about this shit,
- Mm-mm,
- I play at night, I keep my eyes down,
♪ ♪
She felt like my sister too,
And you, Raf,
you're so beautiful,
[chuckles]
You're the only one who came looking,
- Back home, nobody would talk about it,
It made me so mad, - [chuckles]
I mean,
if you don't find her,
you can always just take care of me,
- [laughs]
I am taking care of you,
- You're not!
[both laugh]
- Yes, I am! - Mm-mm,
- You're a mess, [laughs]
- I'm,,, [coughs, laughs]
I am not a mess,
[both laugh]
- This is so unfair, you know?
You and me walking free,
And she's somewhere, caged up,
- We're not kept in cages,
- You know what I mean,
♪ ♪
Have you ever tried to go back?
- Cuba? No,
Why would I?
- As soon as I find her, we're going back,
- Maybe you remember it different,
You know, Isabel used to walk Coney Island,
- Even in the winter?
- It doesn't matter,
She used to walk all the time,
It was always too creepy for me,
but she really liked it,
You can try there,
[seagulls squawking]
[ominous music]
♪ ♪
- She's not here,
She needs me,
- Rafael!
- [grunting]
♪ ♪
[low Spanish guitar notes]
[Elsa panting]
[apprehensive Spanish guitar music]
♪ ♪
[Elsa moaning, panting]
[panting quickens]
[music stops]
[sharp Spanish guitar music]
♪ ♪
[ending chords fade out]
[footsteps approaching]
[door creaks open]
- Hey,
[apprehensive music]
♪ ♪
[exhales]
Well, you look pretty,
- Thanks,
[soft music]
♪ ♪
- Don't squirm,
There,
You'll knock 'em dead,
Come here,
♪ ♪
- Sometimes I'm just even scared to talk,
My voice is so masculine,
And I'm always wondering, "What are they thinking?
What are they going to say?"
It's so exhausting,
- [chuckles]
You'll be fine,
You don't feel like yourself when you punch walls?
- Does it bother you?
- [laughs] Fuck, no,
I like my men violent,
- Don't,,, call me that,
[quiet resonant music]
♪ ♪
- Rafael!
[sighing] Oy, Rafael,
- [coughs]
[train rattling]
[indistinct chatter]
- Excuse me,
I'm sorry to bother you, but that scarf you have on
just, like, pops from, like, a mile away,
And my sister is looking for something just like it,
I've been to all the stores around here,
I cannot find anything like that,
Can you help me out? No? Maybe?
And your purse, though-- your purse is amazing,
It totally has, like, more hair than I do,
which is kind of embarrassing,
Do you work out?
Like, run and--yeah?
I mean, you look like it,
I would have guessed that, but, you know,
some people have it naturally,
I am not one of those people,
♪ One, two, three, four ♪
♪ I declare a thumb war ♪
I see those skills,
Aw, jeez, You didn't even hesi--
you didn't even give me a chance,
Wow,
If you want,
we can grab a drink or something,
and just keep chatting,
[chuckles] I'll tell you what,
My guilty pleasure, if you will, is this place,
Delicious,
You have to come try it, It's so good,
- Hey! - Hey, how's it going?
Uh, two tacos would be awesome,
Come here,
You want chicken? Beef? Doesn't matter?
Uh, let's get two chicken,
Let's try that out, - Okay,
- [chuckles]
Ah, it smells so good,
All right, thank you, Thank you,
How much do I owe you?
All right, Sweet,
I will take seven bites,
[laughs]
Awesome, Thank you so much,
- Gracias, Gracias, - Have a good one,
[somber music]
♪ ♪
- Can you help me?
[laughs] - All right,
- I should put the bra with that, right?
- I would,
- [sighs] - All right, Come on,
Scoot forward, There you go,
Put your arms up, - [whistles]
It took me, like, 20 minutes to know if he was drunk
or he was joking or he was being real,
but he was--
he was very sweet,
- Did you tell him your name?
Oh, watch your face, - Oh, I'm sorry,
- You're fine,
- I didn't--
didn't know what to say,
- Well, have you thought about a name?
- Not really,
- We'll figure something out,
- It was just nice,
I don't know,
He really made me feel like a girl,
I don't like this dress, - Why not?
- Well, I mean, it kind of moves,
- It's supposed to move, - Ooh!
I feel like--like a bailarina,
like I can dance with it,
[both laugh]
Does it look good? - Mm,
- Uh, I'm not used to this hair,
Help me,
- [laughs]
- Uh, I,,, - You got it, You're fine,
- I think I'm gonna be a short-hair girl,
Can I try another dress? - Yeah,
- Can you help me with this? - [laughs]
- How was your experience on your first date?
- As a boy or as a girl?
- As a girl,
- It was really awkward,
- Why?
- I hadn't started hormones
and,,,I had braces,
So that was awkward in and of itself,
- [laughs]
Should I put it like this?
- If you want to, [laughs]
I don't know, I just,,,
- How--how was he?
Was he nice?
- He was super nice,
He was cute,
Very uncomfortable,
Like, you could tell
he was not really sure what to do,
I think it was probably his first date too,
- Oh, this is cuter, - You know,
- Yeah, I like this one,
I'm so sad I didn't ask for his number,
- How long did you talk to him for?
- I don't know, Like,,,
like, for, like, an hour?
I know,
But then I--I couldn't,
And,,,I just walk away,
like I always do,
Can I have a puff?
- Yeah,
[sentimental music]
♪ ♪
- Yeah, I felt awkward too,
- Well, confidence comes with time,
You're figuring everything out about yourself,
Like, maybe it's not the best time to date, anyway,
- I feel very self-conscious about my body,
- I know, I've been there,
I know exactly what you're going through,
You have to be careful, honey,
- Well, you know me, I'm not any girl,
They have to be careful of me,
[lively percussive music]
[sighs]
♪ ♪
[grunting]
- I don't understand what you're saying,
Speak English,
- I'm looking for Isabel,
- I don't know who that is, I don't know Isabel,
- They told me that she was gonna be,,,
- "They"? - Around this area,
- No, ple--you gotta go,
- Are you sure you don't know her?
- If you don't have money-- do you have any money?
- Money? No, I--
- You seem like a nice kid, You gotta--
you gotta get outta here, - Why?
- I can't-- because they're coming,
- Who? - You see that--
you gotta go,
- Get in the fucking car,
[tense music]
- Please, no, Baby, I didn't mean to do it,
No, I told him that he didn't--
that we don't--
[groans]
- You gonna pay for her time?
- I--I'm sorry, I don't have any money,
[grunting]
[group laughs, Rafael coughs]
- [groans]
- I'm not doing very well right now,
[ethereal music]
What's the whole point of messing things up more?
- Scared of losing something?
- I want her to recognize me when she sees me,
- That's an excuse, - [chuckles]
Yeah,
I got a bunch of them,
I try them out for a while,
Sometimes,,,they make sense,
- Do you think you'll become weaker?
More vulnerable?
- Weakness doesn't bother me,
- You're terrified of it,
When you're a woman,
everyone just takes and keep taking,
[knock at door]
You'll understand some of it soon enough,
I won't be long,
♪ ♪
- Would you let me know if I look stupid?
- You're stunning,
- [laughs]
[lively Spanish guitar music]
♪ ♪
It's very hard for us to reveal ourselves
to the first guy that we feel attracted to,
- I think it's kinda scary,
You know, it's--
it's already hard enough to meet people,
but when you have this whole new spectrum of, like, gender
to try to--to maneuver into, like, the real world,
it's--it's even trickier,
You know, like,
right around the time I started transitioning--
like, before I'd even started hormones,
I was totally in love with this guy,
Totally straight,
I tried to, like, express my feelings towards him,
That didn't seem to make a difference,
But you know, they're not all like that,
- I don't know,
Arun is very cool, very chill,
Uh, he has a killer body,
When you meet a guy and he makes you feel excited,,,
[chuckles]
[sentimental music]
I think that that's how he makes me feel,
And he's just so attractive,
He's very masculine, He's,,,
has beautiful lips,
- Did anything happen?
- Well, it's not easy, you know,
Obviously, there's always the rejection part,
I don't know,
Every time I'm with him, I don't know what to do,
I'm just always, like, trying not to stare at him,
[laughs]
- I mean, even I don't approach anyone
because I'm so nervous about what they're gonna think
or how they're gonna feel about,,,
people like us,
You know, the last guy I was with,
who was totally fine with it, you know, he--
he was 100% straight,
and he just looked past everything
and just saw who I was as a person,
and that's who he fell in love with,
So there's more acceptance, There's more open-mindedness,
And when it comes to, like, gender in general,
it's starting to go in a different direction,
- I don't think he's that kind of guy, you know?
If I try to make a move, he would freak out,
- I've run into that before,
Just all so hard for someone,
And you're not there yet,
- That's the thing, I train with him as a boy,
He knows me as a boy
and he sees me as a boy,
And he likes girls,
He just doesn't know I'm a girl,
[chuckles]
[indistinct chatter]
[tense music]
[music swells]
♪ ♪
- Come on, Are you ready?
- Nah, man,
- Arun,
- I don't want to talk to you,
- Why not?
- What the fuck do you call yourself?
What are you, even?
- I don't know,
- Well, you fooled me, asshole, You're definitely good at that,
- Hey,
What happens outside doesn't have to do anything
with what happens here, okay?
- Yeah, man, Whatever,
I'm going back to training,
- Please,
You're gonna practice, or what?
- You into tricking guys?
I don't want to train with you,
[somber music]
♪ ♪
- She's out there,,,
Somewhere,
So close,
Ciao, - Hey!
Hey, it's cold,
Why don't you stay in tonight?
- What happened to "never stop looking"?
- Well, I--I get lonely,
I changed my mind,
Where'd you get that?
- It's pretty pathetic, huh?
Let's fix it up,
- No, I gotta go,
- Wait, just close the door, Come on,
Just--just help me untangle this,
They--they literally-- they sell it in a fucking mess,
You know what, I'm gonna pour you a drink,
And close the door, The heat's escaping,
- [sighs]
- Don't feel guilty! She made her own choices,
- What are you talking about?
She didn't make any choice,
- Here you go,
- You were kids, You didn't choose,
- Seriously? Relax,
Take a sip,
[low music]
♪ ♪
- No clients tonight?
- No,
Just this, uh-- this fuckin' mess of a tree,
- [chuckles]
- Salud,
- So,,,how badass are you?
Could you take five guys?
- [laughs]
I don't know, Maybe,
- [chuckles] Come here, Sit down,
Come help me,
[gentle music]
You know, I think you like knocking guys down,
You look for it,
You know, you can admit it, It's not a bad thing,
- When Isabel and you were taken,
I thought about it,
I wanted to hurt them,,,
Break them,
I grew up, I trained, I got the chance,
I did it for a while,
- Yeah, but you still do it,
- If it means getting her back,
I won't stop,
- So you'll put your dreams of being lovely and sweet away
until you've beaten up every pimp in New York,
That's chivalry,
- I wanna be lovely and sweet,
[both laugh]
I just have to be patient,
- We adapt, you know--
fill the mold we're forced into,
- Or we create something new,
- Not till you let go of the old,
- I'm trying,
- To find her or let go?
♪ ♪
I'm glad you found me,
- [laughs] This is really good,
- It's brandy and some other shit,
Stop ignoring me when I get all sentimental,
- [laughs] I am not ignoring you,
- Yeah, right,
- I am not,
- Give me this, Are we done?
- Yes,
- If you're going to be a woman,
you have to open up,
[soft sleigh bell music]
You have to let the armor fall away,
♪ ♪
Salud,
[both laugh]
- Feliz Navidad, - Salud,
[knock at door]
- You fucking liar,
- I fucking forgot about this one,
Fucking depressing,
You know what? I'm not answering it,
- Really?
- Yeah,
- Do you want me to scare him away?
- [laughs]
Yeah, sure, Go nuts,
Scare the shit out of him,
Thanks,
See? [laughs]
I know you like it!
[indistinct chatter]
- I'm getting better at this,
- I noticed,
- What do you think of this color?
- It's better than the pink,
- Lana,,, [sighs]
How do you get so skinny?
- One part not eating, two parts hormones,
rinse and repeat,
- What do you mean "not eating"?
- [laughs]
I used to be anorexic, It's whatever,
I'm fine now
'cause I gotta eat to get hips,
- As soon as I find her,
I'm gonna stop training,
- Why would you stop training?
- I don't wanna have this muscular body, you know?
- There's nothing wrong with being a little muscular,
Hormones will help once you start, anyway,
- I just don't feel attractive,
[sighs]
I don't want guys to be scared of me,
- Then don't be scary,
[both chuckle]
Just work with what you've got,
It's all everyone else has to do too,
There's nothing that says you can't be crazy good
at anything that's "masculine,"
Why can't a woman be a complete badass
and kick everyone's butt?
- [chuckles]
Badass fighter,
[laughs]
- I mean, if you love something and you enjoy it--
and I think you do,,,
- [whispering] Badass woman,
- Fucking kick all the asses,
- I'm the best at it,
Okay,
Can I have one?
- Sure,
- Thank you, - Mm-hmm,
So,,,
I thought about a name,
- Yeah? Tell me, baby,
- Lupe,
[heartwarming music]
- That's cute, What made you choose that one?
- When I was a kid back in Cuba,
I used to watch all the time
this Cuban singer called La Lupe,
And she was such a badass woman,
- Sounds a little like you,
[both laugh]
- I don't know, I like how it sounds,
Lupe,
- Have you tried it yet?
- I don't know,
Hi, My name is Lupe,
[both laugh]
[softly] Lupe,
[Elsa speaking indistinctly]
[tense percussive music]
♪ ♪
Isabel!
[serene music]
♪ ♪
- You know, I feel a closeness to you,,,
like no time has passed,
like you're still that same little boy
running behind Isabel,
staring at me,,,
holding our hands, yanking for us to follow,
[chuckles]
- [chuckles]
I've known it for a long time,
I just don't want to admit it:
I'm never gonna see her again,
[sighs] I lost her,
- Maybe you need to find yourself first,
- [laughs]
- You know, I envy you, you know?
You're so fucking young,
It's too late for me,
You'll be so beautiful, mija,
[laughs]
- Gotta go, Ciao,
- [smooch] Ciao,
[car horn honks]
[train rattling]
[apprehensive music]
♪ ♪
- Arun,
Arun,
The other day at the gym,
you asked me what I was, and I lied to you,
- And?
- I know what I am,
- A drag queen?
- No,
A drag queen is a man that dresses as a woman,
- How is that not you, man?
I seen you, man,
- It's different for me, - Man, you a cool dude--
- For me, it's not pretend!
- Man, that's cool, but I don't want no parts of that, man,
- Well, I know what I am,
- So what you gonna do? You gonna cut it off?
- Please, don't be an asshole, - Yeah, man, I was just--
I was just curious, man, [laughs]
- It's, like, twelve weeks or so
for, like, full recovery,
but I should be back home in, like, a month,
Kinda, I just wanna stay in the area, you know,
just to make sure everything's okay,
- Aren't you nervous?
- Well, yeah, super nervous,
But, like,
really excited at the same time, you know?
Like, I've been waiting four years for this,
and it's finally happening,
and,,,
I don't know, Like, it's--
I'm more excited than scared,
Here, I think you liked this, didn't you?
You can have it,
- Thank you,
What's the first thing you wanna do?
- [laughs]
I wanna have sex,
Like, it's the only thing I haven't been able to do
as a woman my whole life,
And I'm really curious to see what it's like,
I just wonder if I'm gonna have, like, phantom penis or,,,
[laughs]
Anything else is super bizarre, I don't know,
Like, I'll even be able to get wet,
That's crazy,
- Do you think you'll feel an orgasm?
- Pretty positive I will,
I'll have to, like, learn how again,
Here, why don't you try this on?
This might fit you,
- No, I don't feel like dressing today,
- Why? What's up?
- Eh,
- You seem not yourself today,
- No, I'm happy for you,
I'm just,,,
I'm gonna miss you, [chuckles]
- I'm gonna miss you too,
It'll be okay,
You have to take care of yourself,
You're the more crazy one,
[warm music]
You scare me sometimes,
I know you've been running around,
trying to find your sister,
but you also have to take care of yourself, you know?
You can't help anyone else if you're a mess,
You know, I care a lot about you,
and,,,
I don't wanna come back and have to put you in the ground,
Don't cry,
You'll make me cry,
- I just have to find another best friend
to tell me what wig to wear,
[both laugh]
- No one can replace me, you bitch,
You know that, [both laugh]
- Elsa!
Elsa!
What are you doing out here?
- I know you weren't looking for me,
Ironic, but look who you got stuck with,
- When I heard someone saw you guys in New York,
I came straight up here,
I didn't know anyone,
I didn't even know where to start,
It was hard,
[quiet resonant music]
♪ ♪
I keep having this dream,
I'm a little kid, holding her hand,
I keep trying to see her face, but I can't make it,
She keeps pushing away,
It always ends up the same way:
me all alone, looking for her,
- That's sad,
♪ ♪
- And I'm always worried,
Has she changed?
Am I going to recognize her?
Is she going to recognize me?
And I get angry,,, and frustrated,
And then I punch the walls,
I punch the faces,
And you might think that that does something for me,
but,,,it doesn't do shit,
- Damn, [shivers]
- Come, let's go inside,
- You know, you keep saying they took us,
They didn't take us,
- What are you talking about? [laughs]
- They didn't take us,
[music darkens]
- Mm!
[disquieting music]
♪ ♪
[somber music]
♪ ♪
- We went together,
We wanted out,
We wanted to see new places,
[emotional music]
We thought you'd be better off without us,
♪ ♪
[no audible dialogue]
- [sobbing]
♪ ♪
[sobs]
Jab cross,
Kick,
Front kick,
Jab cross,
Back kick,
Front!
Jab cross!
Good,
Kick!
Jab cross,
Kick!
Front!
- Hey, man, I'm not trying to be a dick or nothin',
but can you wait till I'm done?
- What did you say?
- Just wait till I'm done in the shower,
I don't wanna confuse shit any more than it is already,
- What are you talking about?
- Don't worry about it, man, Just stay,
[low music]
- [breathing heavily]
♪ ♪
[yells]
♪ ♪
Elsa?
Elsa!
Isabel and I weren't so different,
She ran away from our life in Cuba,
chose to escape,
But she was selfish,
[sentimental music]
♪ ♪
[melancholic Spanish guitar music]
♪ ♪
She abandoned me,
But she gave me a name,
A name that I now walk away from,
I will not forget you,
but I will walk away from you,
And if you ever meet me again,,,
My name is Lupe,
♪ ♪