THIS IS A TRUE STORY,
SOME NAMES AND LOCATIONS HAVE BEEN CHANGED TO PROTECT THE CAST,
Rip by: @amarantalila
What does the word "home" mean to you?
A house?
It's a safe place,
It's a place
that you know you can stay, and you don't have to move on,
It's not a temporary place,
Come up a little, just a little,
Now move down,
Like that, Perfect,
I should do that too,
So if you close your eyes,,, Yes, i'm sorry,
Try to take a deep breath, And relax completely,
Have you told your story before?
No,
And can you tell me?
Yes,
I think that
you don't have to tell me about it,
Just think back to your earliest memory,
What's the first thing you remember?
I was about four,
Hey! Careful!
Where are you? - Afghanistan in Kabul,
Can you describe yourself?
I think I always had a tendency,,,
to be a little different,
Let's just put it that way,
I wasn't afraid to wear my sister's dresses,
The sweater of my youngest sister,
I liked the attention,
Where are you in Kabul?
In the house where I was born,
Where are your parents? My mother's in there,
I know she is,
Here, darling,
That should help,
At night, I put my head on her lap
and she strokes my hair,
Nobody knows how to do that like her,
When I think of my mother,
i wish i could see her how she was as a young woman,
I saw pictures of her with dark black hair,
but I only remember her gray,
Go and play, Dinner will be ready in an hour,
Daddy took me by the hand and We walked along the airstrip together,
He lifted me up and put me in the cockpit,
There was no steering wheel,
It was like a joystick, with buttons everywhere,
My sister's telling us stories about my father,
And then we take off
He said:
It is important that you do not touch any buttons,
"If you get it wrong - Kaboom!"
So we flew through the clouds,,,
and we could see the end of the world
It was too much
A lot of that is true, but she also makes up a lot,
My brother and I
we were completely happy with what she's telling us,
He said that while he was there, nothing would ever happen to me,
I remember feeling jealous,
Why did you get jealous?
Because she's telling us a lot of amazing stuff
that my siblings and i were never able to experience,,,
with our father,
Where's your dad?
Can we talk before we start? Yes, of course,
Some things are hard to talk about, It's still hard,
but I need to overcome them,
It's my past, I can't run away from it, and I don't want to,
I can get in half a year, one year,
Yes, of course,
We'll do it at your own pace,
I'm glad you're finally ready to tell your story,
I remember high school, And I had no idea,
There were so many stories rolling around, like:
"Did you know he came from Afghanistan? "
That's good! - I didn't know what to believe,
There were stories like that,
I remember The first time I saw you,
There weren't many immigrants At that time,
You were wearing a black and white checkered shirt, Remember?
Yes, I do,
- And Buffalo shoes, I'm going to do it myself,
I thought, "He's cool," Fearless,
You kept looking ahead,
as if to avoid all the attention,
I don't think you noticed me, It caught my attention that we got off at the same stop
Look, I think it was in high school,
Yes, at the prom,
Look at those fancy shoes! Everything was cutting-edge,
Here it is,
It's here that my story begins,
I wrote it all down, when I arrived in Denmark,
Can you read it?
It's going to be tough, I can't read Dari right anymore,
I can't even read my own handwriting,
After the Mujahideen,,,
The Mujahideen have taken power in Afghanistan,,,
They killed my father, kidnapped my sister,
and killed my mother and my brother,
If I had stayed, I probably they would have killed me too,
It was very intense,
You told Kasper any of these stories?
No,
Kasper, I'm going to start shooting,
See if it needs more salt,
When are you getting married?
When we find a place to live,
First of all I want you to come home,
Second, I want a place where we can throw a party,
If we wait until we can throw a party,
it's going to take a while,
Maybe I'll just buy us a house while you're away,
You'll just have to deal with with that then,
When do you leave by the way? I have to be at the airport by 10:00,
How long this time? Until June,
I'll be back for a few months and then I leave again,
Are you going out again? I think so, yes,
Kasper has no idea,
Where are you going? Back to the States,
You received an email from your professor at Princeton?
No, a letter, He wants me to do a postdoctoral degree,
To continue your research? Yes, i'm sorry,
What does Kasper think of that?
Actually, we haven't talked about it,
Last time we talked, We were talking about your father,
Can we talk a little more about that?
Yes, it's very sad,
If we go back to Kabul during your childhood,
Where's your father?
We don't know,
He was taken away, Why?
Stand up, victims of the land!
Get up, you prisoners of hunger!
Because the Afghan government saw him as a threat
to the communist government,
after they brought down the monarchy in the late 1970s,,,
In 1979,
They took about 3,000 people, including my father,
My mother told me about the day he was caught,
She said he was expecting this,
Akhtar Nawabi? Yes, i'm sorry,
We have orders to take you,
Wait, I'm going to get my coat,
Okay, but hurry up!
They came for me,
Keep this,
just in case,
I'm not a threat to anyone, I'll be right back,
Then, he went to prison,
My mother told me that the family
would visit him frequently,
but three months later, he disappeared,,,
out of the blue,
Amin, listen, You must leave it high and keep some tension in the string,
I spent a lot of time with my brother,
He's a true boy, someone who gets their hands dirty,
He bred pigeons on our roof,
Hold on tight! Amin, Amin! Give me this! Give me this!
Sorry,
I have 69 cards, How many do you have? I have 52,
How about I trade with you, Vivek Mushran for Anil Kapoor?
No, I won't, Please, Sabia,
I said no, I'm not interested,
But you have two Anil Kapoors!
I'll give you Vivek Mushran and Mamik Singh for him,
I don't need them,
and it's always nice to have a spare Anil,
Look at him, look at him! He's so beautiful,
Ffa! You really piss me off!
How much do you want him? I don't give a damn,
In fact I'm not in the mood for this,
When did you realize for the first time you were gay?
I wasn't very old,
I think I had fantasies about men since the age of 5-6,
I remember one of them very clearly,
I was in love with Jean-Claude Van Damme,
Seriously! I had fantasies about him,
I liked Jean-Claude Van Damme also, but for other reasons,
I think I "liked him" in a different way,
Good, but I
kinda knew all along I liked men,
without really knowing what it meant
In Afghanistan homosexuals did not exist,
There was not even a word for them,
It would be embarrassing, for the family,
so it was hard to accept being gay,
We'd play Volleyball every day,
Let's go
My brother and I we made a great team,
My brother is very tall and great in attack,
Focus!
Currently terrorists are getting
long-range missiles - new ones from the U,S, government,
The U,S, wants the Vietnam War with the USSR in Afghanistan,
but I'm telling you
that when the U,S, provides the terrorists with help
to destroy Afghanistan,
Afghanistan could very much become a second Vietnam for the USA!
The civil war began when my father was taken,
They fought the Mujahideen,
The war didn't happen properly in Kabul,
so we didn't realize much,
The only reason I know is because of my brother,
He was a teenager growing up,
He didn't want to join the army, but you have to,
Saif!
The police are coming! Stop, stop, stop, stop!
Run!
Saif!
Mom
Mom, they're here, They've got him!
You can't stay here, You need to hide,
Go to uncle Mahdi! Go!
Come back when it gets dark, Be careful!
My brother was always running away, He wasn't the only one either,
Thousands of Afghan boys they didn't want to go to war,
And rightly so, Most of them wouldn't come back,
They would die,
My country, you suffer, because you've been betrayed,
My country, You've lost your melody, your voice,
Mycountry, you are in pain and there is no cure,
My country,,,
Mujahedeen attacks increase in Kabul after the Soviet withdrawal,
Yesterday, 7 people were killed near Kabul airport,
Overseas today, the last of the American embassy personnel in Afghanistan flew out of the capital Kabul today
and went to India,
Most other Western embassies are either closed or closing,
The conventional wisdom is that
when the Soviets have finally completely withdrawn from the country, some time in the next couple of weeks,
the Afghans will set on one other
and the capital will be even more dangerous than it is now,
The Soviet transport circles quickly downward, firing magnesium flares
to divert any heat-seeking missiles,
The American-armed anti-Soviet Mujahideen guerrillas
are in the mountains around the city,
We know that the Afghan army
is not strong enough to ward off the Taliban,
so it's just a matter of time until they invade Kabul,
We know that they seek revenge
against people they consider "non-believers",
Amin!
We need to leave immediately,
We pack a few things, but we don't have time to sell anything,
Amin, let's go,
So you're barely escaping? Yes, at the last minute,
I cry all the way to the airport and then on the plane,,,
We fled to Moscow,
Russia was the only country that would grant us a tourist visa,
Russia was such a strange place to be at the time,
We arrived a year after the fall of communism,
People were starving and supermarkets were empty,
The ruble continues to depreciate and they keep printing new notes,
There's a lot of crime and you can't trust the police,
At last! Abbas! Oh, my son!
My oldest brother, who lives in Sweden,
found us in Moscow when we arrived,
He rented an apartment for us,
Oh my god! You've grown up!
He ran away in the '80s, because he didn't want to go to war,
Back!
Back
Wow!!
We need to get them to Sweden as soon as possible,
so they can start school,
If we wait, they're going to get too old,
I know, What about you, darling? Sweden is treating you well
Cleaning doesn't pay well, But it's okay,
$4,600 was all I could get together, I'll get more when I can,
Thanks,
When do you have to go back?
Tomorrow, I only have two days off,
Come here, you two!
I bet it sucks to go out with Mom, and our sisters all the time,
I'm going to make you real men, when they get to Sweden,
Wait! The girls of Sweden are beautiful!
What's the plan? Get out of Russia,
It costs a lot to be smuggled into Sweden,
For drug dealers?
Yes, human traffickers, It's the cheapest way,
You can get to Sweden for $3,000,
$15 to 20,000 for all of us,
My oldest brother is under enormous pressure because of it,
He doesn't earn a lot,
Stop! Documents, please!
Documents
Just stay there,
Your visa has expired,
Thanks,
Proceed,
I've dropped out
We couldn't move freely through the city,
because we didn't have the right documents,
so we're in Russia illegally,
I was running away from the police, whenever I saw them in the street,
So I stayed home all day, watching Mexican soap operas,
The whole family, It was the highlight of our day,
Let me help you with the bag, Thank you, i'm sorry,
It's your first time in Mexico City?
Yes! I've never seen anything like it,
And so we are sitting there for a year,
Just sitting there, waiting to leave,
It's very difficult for my brother put all that money together,
He just has enough to send my sisters,
Call me as soon as you get there,
Clear,
We weren't very informed about the trip,
Typically, traffickers don't know each other,
So we're just waiting for the call from Sweden,
hoping that they were there saying they're safe
These smugglers They're bastards!
I,,,
think they're a bunch of psychopaths,
Get in
You two! Get in,
They are loaded inside a shipping container, with many other people,
It's kind of hot in here,
Then the container is loaded on a huge cargo ship
and surrounded by other containers,
blocking it, so they can't get out,
My older brother called,
It was,,, I say,,,
Everything looked normal
when MS Estonia came out from Talinn to Stockholm this morning,
The 1,100 passengers did not know of the drama going on below deck,
That's incredibly inhumane, It's the worst human trafficking,
Havio 64 refugees confined in a tráiler struggling to escape,
It's unclear how long they were in there,
Of the 64, 26 were children, the youngest was only 8 months old,
They almost died on the way,
They're not okay,
I think it's mostly the shock, But they're not talking much,
I know someone who can take a look at them,
I just need to clarify one thing: Your two sisters survived, right?
Yes, i'm sorry, They're not dead?
And you have an older brother, and everyone lives in Sweden?
Yes,
Because I thought your whole family was dead,
Yes, i'm sorry, But no, they're not,
No,
Oh, that's great! It's really good to hear that,
But in all these years, you've never Did you tell anyone about your family?
I think it was only after I went to university
that I started to open up a little bit,
for an ex-boyfriend, But it didn't go well,
I told him a little bit about my family,
At first, he seemed
very understanding,
but when we had a big argument, he used it against me,
He said he'd call the police and inform them
that my asylum was based on a lie,
Even after i'm done with him, I've been terrified of it for years,
The house is great,
That's nice,
- The property is too big, It's huge!
Is that part of the property, too? Yes, all the way to the road,
There's so much potential, There's a cat!
He's out there as if he were the owner of the place,
If we bring our cat, they're going to fight a lot,
Try calling, How do you say in Danish?
Here, kitty, kitty! Come here,
He wants it, he's flirting,
Love, look at all those hazelnuts!
- I think they're hazelnuts, Come on, come on,
They're hazelnuts? Yes,
He's so cute,
- They're hazelnuts, right? Kitten,,,
I'm not so sure about that, They're not hazelnuts, It just looks similar,
You really get in the mood summer with the heat and,,,
But you can do it see yourself living here?
Yes, I can, Can you?
What do you think?
Would you be able to live here, love? I don't want to be here alone,
Yes, of course, So you're not going,
Suddenly having several commitments at one time,
The narrow roads and the big fields,,,
remind me of my time in the asylum,
I'm scared of getting depressed here,
You're never going to be a part of this family, Get out! I never want to see her again!
But I'm carrying our son!
You can't just expel me!
Police!
We heard noise, Open the door! We just want to talk to you,
We need to see your papers! Open the door,
Oh, fuck! I hate them, They're the worst people in the world,
They stu nk of vodka, It was disgusting,
We know you're there, Abram!
The most unpleasant people that you can imagine!
Worse than the traffickers!
We've got all day,
I don't remember the day we ran away,
or how we got out of Russia,
I don't remember,
We drove for hours,
Now I remember, We're in a big truck,
that usually carried wood, They lead us,
We went out in a forest and we had to sit and wait,
It's too cold, and our clothes are not warm enough,
there are two things i will never forget about that night
Come on, Mom, We need to keep up,
Faster, faster! And don't say anything,
Wait
Stop,
You there! Keep walking!
He needs some other shoes, We don't have any,
Are you kidding me? You know we're sneaking across the border, don't you?
What do you want me to do? Take them off!
He can't just take off his shoes!
If you don't take them off, I will!
What's the matter with you? You can't stop,
You must keep walking, Let's go!
No! Stop! I'm going to carry him,
I'm going to carry him,
We're not going to wait for him, Go!
You must stay there, love, He's helping us,
Thanks,
Wait! Come and help us
She's slowing us down, Why don't you just shoot her in the head?
"Let's shoot her in the head and leave her here," How cold-blooded,
I'm going to do it, It's easy enough,
No, I'll make sure she walks, Let's hurry up,
I think he said that to her son,
My mother was old too,
That woman,,, It was good she didn't understand Russian,
They'll get a boat to take us to Sweden,
Across the Baltic Sea to Sweden,
I know the boat won't go,
My mother's afraid of water,
Are we all going on this boat? I guess so,
But is there enough room? There has to be,
We'll never convince Mom to get into it,
She's going to have to get in, She can't stay here,
You must stay below deck,
so the coast guard won't see you,
We stripped out the inside, there's space down there,
It will take two days to get to Sweden, Let's go!
No, no, no, no, no, no, no,
We sailed for hours, I think,
People threw up,
It was horrible, very bad,
Water! The water's coming in! Help! Help!
Open up!
So we bail out the water, in torrential rain,
We keep taking it out, because it kept coming in,
The boat has no radio,
so we can't ask for help,
Nobody can swim either,
It would have been easier if I were alone,
My mother was terrified,
Whenever she talked about death, she mentioned water,
Dying in the water, drowning, was her worst nightmare,
What's going on in your head?
Who do I save first, if the boat sinks?
Why, did you know how to swim?
No,
I really didn't think about it,
Maybe I thought I could, I have no idea,
I was more worried,
who I'd choose,
Some days go by,
Help! Here!
Here! Help
It's from Norway
I don't know why, but looking at that ship,
i just can't feel happiness,
What's wrong with that?
I'm embarrassed,
Embarrassed and ashamed by our situation
People want to jump in the water and swim to the ship,
I mean,,,
They think if they jump in the water and swim,
the ship will pick them up,
Everyone is so desperate,,,
And it's such a fantastic opportunity !
Suddenly,
all we want to achieve is right there,
You can almost reach out your hand and touch it,
We have called the Estonian border police, They are on their way,
They wi ll take you back,
We have called the Estonian border police, They are on their way,
They will take you back,
So the police come and take us,
Men in camouflage, with balaclavas and face paint,
They scream and scream like crazy,
I have no idea of what's going on,
I keep crying and crying, I can't stop,
I can see the fear in my eyes adults, They're terrified!
Even the strongest men,,,
You see it in their eyes, They're petrified,
It really scared me,
If they are scared, What will happen to us?
It must be serious,
We're locked in an abandoned building,
There are guards, and that very day,
they put barbed wire around the building,
People were in shock,
The way they treated us,
we call that we would stay there for the rest of our lives,
We have no idea what's going to happen, to us, Nobody tells us anything,
The journalists come and film us, We hope something will happen, but no,
They go home to make TV programmes,,,
But nothing really happens, It's just us and the guards,
It seemed like my life had stopped,
Then, six months later,
they gave us two options:
Stay there and rot, or,,,
be sent back to Moscow,
As soon as we got to Russia, We were arrested by the Russian police,
They wanted to send us back to Afghanistan,
but fortunately the Russian police were so corrupt
that when we offered them the last of our money, they let us stay,
Thank you for letting me stay here,
Would you like a snack? No, thanks,
What's the matter with you?
I just had to leave,
I told Kasper I'm doing it, My postdoctoral degree at Princeton,
It didn't go well? No, it didn't,
He feels stupid because we looked at all those houses,
He doesn't understand,
Looks like it's more Kasper's project than yours?
I don't know, i don't know, It's his dream, but I also wanted a place to settle down,
That makes me a little nervous,
Because,,,
Leaving Russia it was a tremendous gift,,,
A great gift, I have a life now,
I couldn't just give it up or,,,
Yes,
If it wasn't for my brothers, I wouldn't be where I am today,
So I carry a huge burden on my shoulders,,,
you can tell,
For example, my brother had a Finnish girlfriend for 10 years,
They wanted children, but couldn't have them,
because he had to save every penny to get us out of Russia,
His girlfriend left him,
Then,,, why the move to the country rather than helping your family?
Shouldn't you be on my side?
- When are you going to America? Sunday,
Sunday? Yes, i'm sorry,
How long are you going to be gone? I'll spend a few days at home,
So, in about four months? Yes, i'm sorry,
Look at this place, I can't believe it's ours!
Only the best for you, my love,
Something happened to my mother,
She began to act strangely in Russia,
She had some allergies,
I think she's homesick,
She's missing Afghanistan,
And it's so boring to stay at home,
I'm a teenager and I want to try something different,
Then I'll leave,
This is a restaurant a Moscow-McDonald's joint venture,
This company is known around the world for its prompt food service,
When we leave Russia, we must go to McDonald's to celebrate,
I'd want a Big Mac and Coke please! It's going to be great,
Hey, you! Come with me! No! We didn't do anything!
Let me see your documents then,
Just as I thought,
Stop, stop, stop, stop! No,,, Where's your money?
We've got nothing! We just wanted to see what's going on,
Let me see that watch a second?
Don't touch him
Give it to me
Look what I found,
Cool! I'd like to have a little fun with her,
Let's go, Sit down
What's the point with them? - They need to learn a lesson,
Sir!
Why are they here?
These two? They're greedy, They're not going to pay,
What about her? She doesn't have any money either,
We thought she might pay us another way,
You two! Outside
I remember her face, her black hair,,,
big dark eyes,,,
Oh, fuck! Why didn't I protect her And I didn't say anything? I let it happen,
It's one of the most horrible feelings i've ever had,
I can't look at that any more,
My brother is not so old,
but he took over responsibility for us,
He wants to send my mother and me first,
This time, we take great care,
We did a deal with a very expensive trafficker,
because we didn't want to go through the same things again,
We insist on a safe route, protected,
and for that we only have enough for one of us to go,
In the end my brother decides that it should be me,
It was horrible, because I felt lousy to leave them behind,
Every week, every month, every year,
your chance to have a decent future is diminished,
Right, Remember your name and date of birth by color,
You're Russian, Remember that,
Speak Russian, if anyone asks you something,
Destroy the passport as soon as you reach the final destination,
If the police catch you with a fake passport,
They'll send you back to Russia,
Keep up with the story we gave you, It's crucial,
From now on, you don't have family, They're dead,
You fled Afghanistan on your own, without any help,
If you say anything else, you will be sent back to Afghanistan,
What's that supposed to mean?
Don't tell anyone about your family,
You don't have a family, Understand?
Good, Now get some sleep, We have a long day tomorrow,
The traffickers had all power over my life,
You remain completely powerless,
I went with another young man, also alone, just like me,
He was cool and funny, And he made me laugh,
He was kind of childish, but there was an age difference between us,
He's was closer to becoming a man,
I thought that was sexy,
I think i had little crush on him,
Your gold necklace it's so beautiful,,,
You want to try it on?
I'm sure it will look good on you,
It looks great!
Our flight to Istanbul will take about two hours,
Thank you for flying with Ukrainian International Airlines,
As soon as you get past the passport control to your right,,,
Don't look! After you pass, you will be on your own,
You will be heading to different destinations,
You're going to Zurich, Gate D27,
You to Copenhagen,
Gate A9,
I'm not going to Sweden?
No, you're going to Denmark,
Denmark? But,,,
It's the last trip, that you'll have to
manage on your own from now on,
Remember to call home as soon as you land,
It's very important,
That's the only way I can get my money,
OK, Now you can go!
Are you going to Zurich? - yes, it's in Switzerland,
Do you have family there? -Yours is in Copenhagen
Hey, thanks for lending it to me, No, keep it,
Are you sure?
Thank you,
Good luck, For you, too,
It's weird, i don't remember his name
and he was very important to me,
He was part of something that had a great influence on my life,
Then all of a sudden,
i'm flying on my own and landing in Copenhagen,
I sit and wait for a while,
I see a group of people and I'm beginning to follow them,
Get out of the way,
I think I said "refugee,"
What's that? Refugee? Refugee,
Where's your passport?
Karin's here because you're a minor and arrived without a guardian,
A guardian must be present in your interview,
The interpreter is Iranian and I am Afghan, so we miscommunicated,
Let's start with the formalities, What is your name?
Amin,
We need to know how you got here,
There's nothing to worry about, Just tell us what happened,
I was interrogated for hours,
I'm the only survivor of my family,
I must inhabit the story that the smuggler gave me,
I imagined that my mom and brothers were killed,
I cry,
The damn story really hits me, even though it's not true,
I cry uncontrollably, The tears keep falling,
My father and I hid for a year in the wilderness, before he was killed,
I was surprised to cry about something that wasn't true,
It took a month to get from Afghanistan to Denmark,
As soon as I'm finished, I write everything,
every word, in Dari, in my notebook,
I don't have anyone, I'm on my own,
And now I've told you my story,,,
everything,,, up until now,
Only when we were driving through the town square
and I see the neon lights,,,
that I understand,,,
that i'm not being sent back,
Hello? Abbas?
Amin? Yes, i'm sorry,
At last! Are you okay? Yes, i'm sorry,
Where are you?
In Denmark, Oh, uh,,,
Why didn't you call earlier? I couldn't get a phone,
What? I can't hear you,
I couldn't get to a phone, -OK,
I'm going to call Moscow,
They asked me to say that you are all dead,,,
But you're not,,,
What do I tell people?
What do I say?
You must do what the smuggler said, Keep it a secret,
But,,,
I'll find form urn to meet,
I'll let you know, Take care of yourself,
All right, bye,
It took years for me to visit my brothers in Stockholm,
It was very lonely and frustrating,
The fear of being caught and being sent back was so strong
that I couldn't tell the truth, There were many consequences,
I couldn't be myself,
It was very painful,
Most people can't even imagine
how running like this affects you,,,
How it interferes with your relationships with other people,,,
When it destroys you,,,
There were things I couldn't say about my family,
that I had brothers in Sweden, and my mother was living,
because it didn't fit with my made-up story,
There were always restrictions,
Things had to be adjusted, held back and suppressed,
So, what do you want to talk about?
I'd like some medicine,
Okay, you're going to have to see the doctor, but I can make an appointment,
What's wrong with that? We talked about it last time,,,
It's about me being attracted to men,
Oh, that, yes, I'd like some medicine,
What's that supposed to mean?
I want to be normal,
I don't want to like men,
Not that I considered it a disease, but I thought i could be cured,
that it was something that could be cured,
But she told me that it wasn't that simple,
Okay, fuck,,, It's something i have to live with,
The fear of being rejected from my family,
for being gay, because it wasn't acceptable,
Family meant a lot to me,
since I'm out on my own in Denmark,
Brother You're finally here!
It was the only point of reference in our crazy lives,
The thought of losing it it was very scary,
When are you going to find a girlfriend?
The girls of Denmark aren't they pretty?
Maybe I should go help you,
I'm sure I can find one for you,
I didn't even want to tell my brother, I'm in Stockholm
and had no plans to tell him, but it just happened,
He kept pestering me about not having a girlfriend,
Finally, I felt so intimidated and said:
"I don't have a girlfriend because I'm not interested in girls,"
Everybody stayed completely quiet,
Are you sure?
Yes,
Have you ever been with a girl?
Amin, come with me
Where are we going? Just come,
Come,
What's going on? You'll see,
In here, Have a good time,
There's nothing to worry about, We've always known,
Thank you,
Can I help you? What do you want?
There I was, My first time alone in a gay club,,,
and i didn't go home
I've always made my career the priority,
When should I choose between a guy, a career or an education?
I've always chosen education, Cold and cynical,
Please welcome us to the next speaker: Amin Nawabi,
My brothers sacrificed themselves so much for me,
I had to do well, I felt a huge responsibility,
It was important to be tough,
Just now, that I'm talking about it,
i'm beginning to realize how difficult it's been,
It hurts to think about it,
Being back in the States,,,
i admit to becoming very tired of being constantly on the move,
It's good for my career,
- but it's not so good for,,, It's not that good for you,
It's not so good for me,
The first time I interviewed you in my house, you mentioned
there were things that needed to come to an agreement
You grow up, You grow up too fast,
When you run away from the child,
it takes time to learn
to trust people,
You're always on guard, All the time,,,
Even when you're in a safe place, you're on guard,
I feel like something needs to happen,
4 MONTHS LATER
Ta-da!
I'm not going to carry you in my lap,
Prefer to carry a cactus instead?
It's almost the same,
That's all I'm going to put away,
It's a little,,, Yes, i'm sorry,
Look at the view, It's amazing,
Every time you look at it, you think, "Wow!"
The garden is really beautiful,
I wonder if we have enough things to fill the place,
Baby, I think I saw a big clump of raspberries off the lot,
Look! That's all raspberries! Wow, that's great,
That's nice, We just need to take care of this,
It's wet, You can see it from here,
The view from the house is better than from here,
AMIN AND KASPER GOT MARRIED THAT YEAR
AMIN'S BROTHER AND MOTHER GOT OUT OF RUSSIA A COUPLE OF YEARS LATER,
THE FAMILY IS SCATTERED ALL OVER EUROPE,
THEY STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO THEIR FATHER,
Rip by: @amarantalila
THANKS TO AMIN, HIS FAMILY AND ALL THE PARTICIPANTS,
FROM AMIN: "HEARTFELT THANKS TO MY BROTHERS, WHO HAVE SACRIFICED A LOT IN VARIOUS WAYS
SO I COULD BE WHERE I AM TODAY, KR, YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME,
LASTLY, I THANK THE LOVE OF MY LIFE WHO PUT UP WITH 4 YEARS OF TURBULENCE
AND FOR PUTTING HIS DREAMS ASIDE SO I COULD PURSUE MINE,"